Dear T: I really need to tell you something XLVIII

I want to switch places

So glad you can state the obvious
And mirror me
And repeat the things because I repeat the things
And wait it out
Until I leave you
I’m sure you are looking forward to that if you even think about it or me at all

I emailed you awhile ago about switching to virtual today since I can't function. So at least send the link before our session.

At least have the receptionist call me and say you can't make it or some shyt. Or maybe I'll call her in a couple hours.

Hi R,

Thank you for confirming that I was right to be suspicious of your silence regarding summer arrangements.

I know there's no good way to do this, but really, giving me four weeks to worry about it isn't helpful.

We really need to talk about your idea of giving me notice...I don't know what my ideal would look like, but it's definitely not four weeks.

You've just frigging come back...can I rest in that security for a minute? Please?

See you next week,

Lost

I don't want you to leave. I feel heard.

Dear T, I wish things could go back to how they were before that day in May; but I know your whole world has been shaken, and things will never be the same. You've continued to work because it helps, and you don't want to let your clients down. I really appreciate the fact that despite what you are going through, you're still there. So I feel kind of ungrateful by saying that something feels 'off'.

I'm trying so hard to feel connected again, but struggling with that. I'm probably projecting, how I'd feel in your situation, and I can't understand how that's not the case for you. Maybe that's where the disconnect is.

How do I get around that, when I can't talk to you about it?

Sent from my moto g85 5G using Tapatalk

Dear RC,

Interesting conversation today about joy.
Strange timing, given everything that's happening in my world.

I see what you're saying, and yet...
There are some things in this experience that are uncomfortable to talk about with you, because they touch on the bit that I still can't understand.

If I could control these anniversaries and not be impacted by them...I'm sure I would.

Witnessing without judgment is one of the guidelines you wrote for your space.

Thank you for giving me the full time this week, though.

I appreciate that,

Lost