ok guys, i am counting on you. T seems to think having online support like this is helpful right now.

as some or most of you know, my H is due to arrive tomorrow. Most of you know what that means for me. i think he will not be directly or openly abusive.. but i have to withstand the fear i developed from before.. i have to try to keep *me*

being with H is a step into a parrallel universe... i become someone else.. and i don't know how not to. i cant even relate the experience of one universe to the other. i cant prepare for an experience i cant relate to until i am there.

everyone is worried.. even T.. he says maybe shooting for status quo might be best until i can get stronger

in any event..

i am asking.. no begging.. all of you to help me through this. Be here, talk to me, help me stay focussed. i need affirmations, mantras, good vibes.. *anything* which sends a positive message... even a hug.

i am likely going to have to check PC from school instead of home.. so i am counting on you guys just giving me some little thing to boost me each day.... please?

seriously.. anything.. a limmerick.. i have to keep afloat between now and tuesday

[sunrise]

jello, here are some hugs for you.


Stand strong!

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((((((((jello)))))))))))))))))))))))))) Sending you my strongest and most positive thoughts.

BB

[chaotic13]

Fluff,
Sending you good vibes this morning and a few prayers too, just in case we can actually manipulate the cosmos.

If he get verbally abusive, simple repeat to yourself, "He has not idea, who I really am. "

[wanttoheal]

You can do this Mz. It's not going to be easy for sure. Do what you can to keep grounded and remember, you are not the same person you were when you were together before. You ARE stronger and you CAN do this. Self talk, self talk, self talk.

Draw, paint, sculpt, doodle, watch a tv program that makes you laugh. It's your home and he is a guest (no matter the circumstances, it's still your home) . You can do this. We're here to support you.

((((((((((((Mz))))))))))))))

i am brave
i am brave
i am brave
i am brave
i am brave
i am brave
i am brave
i am brave
i am brave
i am brave
i am brave

[EvenMoreLost]

Yes Jels, you are brave! And I know it totally sucks right now, but you will get through this, and you'll be better for it. We're all rooting you on.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((JELLO))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Ok, I don't know any limericks, but I know some jokes (most of which wouldn't be appropriate here). I love this one. It might work better verbally, rather than written, but it's my favorite one so I'm going for it anyway:

Q: What do you call a fish with no eye?

A: Fsh

I love it....

Rise above!!!

[MissCharlotte]

((Jello))

Ohhhhh if it's a limerick you want, then it's a limerick you will get:

There once was a gal named Jello
Whom everyone thought was so mellow
They perceived her as fluff
But inside she was tough
While sporting her shimmering halo

Peace

[mlpHolmes]

Fluff!!! It's Me!! Marian! I found you finally! Alleluia! Even my heart is excited it's beating faster & faster!! So you have quite a week happening, no problem! Constant, Great, vibes from New Jersey 24/7 morin, noon & nite!! We'll get through this! All you buddies at PC!! Whew Fluff!All the ppl cheering you on!You
Go Girl!
You're The Best!!

FROM YOUR #1 FAN!!

[ziggy1]

(((mzjellofluff))) Stand Strong yes you can do it...keep that

positive thought in your mind....prayers are with you!!

[Perna]

Quiet minds can't be perplexed or frightened, but go on in fortune or misfortune at their own private pace, like a clock during a thunderstorm. ~ Robert Louis Stevenson

[chaotic13]

BE THE WILLOW!

you guys have become so very special to me.. *weepy

thank you.. i mean it.. for the hugs, the laughs and smiles... just dont let go.. i have to make it to tuesday

T did the most incredible thing.. after all our wrangling about him "being there" today he called me.. without me calling him first. After my appt yesterday i stopped him in the waiting room and asked if i could call in the later part of the afternoon today... before i go to the airport. He said that was ok. But i didn't get a chance to. He called me. An appt had cancelled due to the weather and he thought to call me. He remembered. He actually thought about me and how bad things were. It made me want to cry... so warm and fuzzy.

i told him how meaningful that was.

we had quite a long conversation and he was so very supportive.

i feel so surrounded by good vibes

[Perna]

What do John the Baptist & Winnie the Pooh have in common? Their middle name.

Why are there so many Smiths in the phone book? They all have phones.

Why don't cannibals eat comedians? Because they taste funny.

"Waiter! This coffee tastes like mud." "Yes sir, it's fresh ground."

What's brown and sticky? A stick.

Why can't a chicken coop have more than 2 doors? Because if it had 4 doors it would be a chicken sedan.

[tulips30]

Hi fuff ...1st, did you see that a beagle won Best Of Show for the 1st time at Westminster?!!! I thought of you right away. I was so happy & excited. This is the 1st beagle to pull it off.

Anyway, I'm just now getting ready to power off my laptop "buddy" and wanted to send love and positive good thoughts your direction. You have a ot of caring souls here and TONS of support. Don't forget it. OK? You are the last thing I am thinking of B4 I go to sleep.

Sending love, good wishes and strength to you tonite my friend, fuff.

tuips

I'm laughing cause I called you "fuff" 2x. Sorry!

[Perna]

Valentines Day. Hope you remain your strong self.

Girl: “I can’t be your valentine for medical reasons.”
Boy: “Really?”
Girl: “Yeah, you make me sick!”

I love you Fluffy!

You can do this.

You are courageous.

Think of what you have done since your H left, you have stood alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You have created a wonderful art show on your own!!!!

You have made a lot of friends on PC on your own!!!!!

He cannot define who you are. You are doing it yourself.

Keep yourself busy all week. Stay at work longer. Go out with friends more often. Know that we are here to help you through.

Love You Fluffy!!!!!

[Fragmented]

Mzjellofluff, this is someone that you have not heard from in a time. I just wanted to support you in this stressful time and tell you that you can do this.
(Think rsk from another site.) Anyway, be strong and wow you have a lot of people on this site that care for you. You are courageous. You are beautiful in mind, body and spirit. And no one can take that from you!

fragmented (now aka rsk)

[sunrise]

Jello, how goes it?

Happy Valentines Day!!!

[chaotic13]

Jello,
Just checking in on ya. Give yourself a big hug and some chocolate today.

Fluff,

CHECKPOINT.

Haha, sorry.

You are brave. You have worked so hard to get to the point where you are at now-- I have faith in you that you won't lose that. Stay strong.

Check in with us.

[nightbird]

mzjellofluff,

Peaceful thoughts and moments will welcome warmth inside your heart.

If you have time, may I suggest to you to pick up a little book called "The Miracle of Mindfulness" translated by Mobi Ho. It's by Thich Nhat Hanh, who teaches us simply and beautifully how to use the practice of meditation. Great thing is you can begin meditation right away after beginning this short but clear book.

I thought it might help you to stay centered on who you are.

Peace Dear Lady

[Perna]

Hoping you're thinking of us until you can check on tomorrow at work!

What did one volcano say to the other?
Do you lava me like I lava you?

Did you hear about the man who lost his whole left side?
He's all-right now!

If one doctor doctors another doctor does the doctor who doctors the doctor doctor the doctor the way the doctor he is doctoring doctors? Or does the doctor doctor the way the doctor who doctors doctors?

i gave out herseys kisses to bus drivers, friends and strangers today because it gave me a good feeling when they laughed at my request to give them a kiss. i told T is liked him so much that i was giving him 2.



i appreciate this guys.. i really do.. T thought it was really good that i have this to help me thank you for the hugs and the smiles... perna.. do you eat an extraordinary amount of corn or corn products? :P

i am calm.. nervous.. feel sick.. but calm. i stayed at school most of the day. Saw t, and he called. going to be at school tomorrow too. H is going to be away to visit his friends tomorrow night.

i am brave.. i am brave

ps.. rsk.. yes.. i see you ty and come often