Freaking out

Okay, I'm freaking out, just a little, okay I'm freaking out alot...
I just got off the phone with the thearpist, we scheduled an appointment for next thursday, I think I'm going to be sick, this is a bad idea, I'm trying to talk myself out of it...maybe I should cancel, my tummy feels funny. I don't think I can do this......

Is my reaction normal??? What's going to happen??? What do I say???
What on earth am I doing...oh geez..freaking out...severly freaking out

Help please...talk some sense into me please. I'm seriously sitting here arguing with myself and trying to convince myself to call back and cancel...

((((((((((((((((((( silversparrow )))))))))))))))))))))))))))

DO NOT call back and cancel! What you are feeling is certainly normal.

Don't put too much pressure on yourself. Just take it one session at a time. This first session is just to go and meet her, see if it's a good match, etc. You can tell her as much or as little as you want to. Don't worry about the second session, or the third, or the tenth. Just get through that one session.

Maybe you can take this week before your appt to journal a bit, get your thoughts straight, decide what you want to talk about, etc.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( silversparrow ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) You're taking a big step - and it's a big, positive, brave, courageous, healing step. Don't turn back. You are doing great.

ok, go get a paper bag and breathe into that for at least ten minutes, that will help calm the panic and steady the breathing.

You have done the right thing, you have made an appointment. Well done!

Your first appointment will just be a getting-to-know-you type thing.

No need to cancel! Good stuff!

(((((((((((((silversparrow))))))))))))))))))))

yay .... congratulations for making that first step .... way to go ..... please dont cancel, it is so 'normal' to feel this way .... keep us posted sweetie, love and care, Jinny xoxoxoxoxo

((((((((((((((( Silver )))))))))))))))))

*Breaths into paper bag*

Feeling calmer, took a shower, I was just severly freaking out, I know this is something I need to do..it's just scary... Thank you all for calming me down and talking some sense into me, I was in full panic mode, still kinda of am, I will keep all of you updated, still nervous...

((((Pegasus)))) ((((earthmama))))
((((Jinny))))) (((((Fuzzy)))))

((((((((((((Silver))))))))))))))

I'm glad people were here to calm you down. Yeah, your reaction is 100% normal. I still freak out about going to therapy some days, and the first step is always the hardest - doing something good for ourselves.

What's going to happen at your appt - it's just an introduction. They'll ask what's bringing you into therapy (briefly). Talk about previous experiences with therapy. Talk about if you're on meds, family history, make you do some paperwork and you can ask your T any questions you might have about the process and their methods of helping you (and the stuff like costs and missed appts and stuff). It's really just a "getting to know you" session. No indepth conversation about stuff, so nothing to worry about - promise!

You say as much as you can. Sometimes its hard, and T's understand that. Just remember to breathe!

Hi Silver, still planning on going right?

Yep, Tomorrow morning is my first session, I'm really starting to freak out again, I'm trying not to think about it to much, I just tell myself that I have alot to do tomorrow and going to thearpy just so happens to be on the top of the list, or I could go and get my mengatisis and Guardasil shot first, but then I would be an even bigger nervous wreck if shots came before thearpy. Sorry babbling to keep my mind sidetracked from the whole thearpy ordeal...

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( silversparrow )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Good luck tomorrow!!!!

Talk as much as you want! Face your fears and don't back out okay? When you don't face your fears they are so much scarier. Once you face them they shrink down to their proper size.

Silversparrow,

You said you were trying to keep your mind sidetracked from the whole therapy ordeal...

Try changing the word ordeal to opportunity. This is a chance to touch bases with someone who may be able to help you deal with some issues that are making life tough.

The way we label something can have a huge impact on wether we find it good or bad.

I know you don't know me, but I'd encourage you to give this a fair chance going in. This may proved to be the most helpful thing you have done in a long time....At least be objective going in.

I hope this all goes very well for you! Leslie