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I have been in a relationship for 2 years now and for the past year I have been battling a really strange issue with him... he thinks I have a drug problem which is completely unrealistic as there aren't ANY facts that would back this up. I am a VERY open person and share literally everything, I have nothing at all to hide. He's had issues in his past with people lying to him about drug issues and I think maybe he is scarred from it but its so completely absurd and makes no sense to the point I get REALLY hurt and angry over it. I cant stand false accusations or having to defend myself for something I am absolutely not doing. I have a great job and a good head on my shoulders, I woudnt be able to have either if I had some crazy drug problem. The last time he made this accusation was about 2 weeks ago and since then I haven't been able to get myself back to they way I felt about him. Each time this happened before, I would get angry, talk it out, explain why it makes no sense, he agreed, I would warn him that the relationship will eventually fail if this continued and now that it's happened again, I feel I've lost respect for his judgment on things and I feel that I have lost attraction, when just a minute before he made this last accusation, I felt crazy about him... and now I feel more lost than anything. He took it to the extent of asking me to get a drug test to prove it! I will NOT take a drug test for him to prove anything and if I did, the relationship would still be where it is now with how angry I am about it. Even if he saw the test come back clear I'm certain he would find a reason to say how it must not have been a test that tested for EVERYTHING, or maybe I altered it some how, its absurd. So he agreed with me on that and said he's ok with me not taking the test.
I am constantly battling the thoughts of should I stay and work through it or should I go. We are now arguing a lot more... struggling with communication and being on the same page. I don't know how to get back to the way I felt before this last accusation... even though I feel like he might finally get it, I deep down feel that he must not be very bright and I feel if someone could make this accusation of me, they must not know anything about me or who I am as a person, which is a huge disappointment and let down. Not sure what to do and he's hurt and doesn't want to lose me or what we share together and I'm just lost and not myself towards him anymore... |
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IDK, there is an old saying "the best offense is a defense" Is there any possibility that he is the one with the drug problem? What kind of drug does he think you are abusing? Seems like there is much to work out if this relationship is going to continue. Maybe the help of a counselor? Good luck and big hug!
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I'm sorry you're in this situation. I'd be very concerned if my partner made such a serious accusation, and after talking it out then turned around and accused me of the same thing again, let alone asked me to take a drug test. It sounds like he really has a hang-up about people close to him lying about drug use. It sounds like he would really benefit from the therapy.
As for your decision, I sure can't tell you what to do, but if I went from being crazy about someone to feeling lost and disappointed about them, I would end the relationship. You say you're constantly battling thoughts over whether you should stay and work through it or go. It sounds to me like you've bent over backward to work through it, and it hasn't worked. That would be a huge red flag for me.
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I'd take every kind if drug test I could find, hand him the results and break up with him.
But that's just me....
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He seems to think I am snorting pills
![]() anytime I touch my face, clear my throat, scratch anywhere on my body or face, this is an indication to him that I am hiding something from him. I hate the thought of walking on egg shells unable to itch my nose or face in the comfort of my own home. He's also gone to the extent of looking ALL OVER the house thinking he would find something, some kind of evidence or stash, only to be disappointed because there isn't anything to find. I have two cats and psoriasis which could be a cause of me wanting to itch my nose or scratch my body but as long as we have been together, he knows this and should know me by now. He has agreed to speak to a counselor with me but it just doesn't seem to me like he's really that crazy to the point we would have to speak to a specialist. Is it crazy or is it stupidity? I even asked that he do the research if he cares enough to accuse me like this again and again, than he should do research on the symptoms of whatever he thinks I'm on and since he isn't doing the research he is either not smart enough or too lazy and those are two things that I don't care for at all. There is soo much to love about him, he is like a peaceful, care free, floating cloud that goes where life takes him and accepts everyone on the way, he's forgiving and selfless BUT we have this bizarre issue and its caused me to struggle with getting back to looking at him the way I use to... |
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lol I would but the very thought of taking the time and making the effort to do that just pisses me off. I couldn't bring myself to do it I have too much pride...
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I love him when he acknowledges that I am right, agrees to work on it and shows a clear understanding of what I am speaking and reciprocates. Otherwise, I am contemplating how to bring things to a closure. its really hard... |
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Pride tends to get in the way when we have too much of it. Here's a more chilled reply for you, one that has salvaging the relationship in mind: Swallow your pride just this once (I promise you won't choke on it), then agree to take the test/s of his choosing, meaning he goes out to make the purchase (so no effort on your part) ON CONDITION that when the results are negative, he drops the ENTIRE subject, forever. If he even thinks of mentioning drugs and your name in the same sentence after that, he is to seek immediate professional attention for his paranoid delusions. And just to be clear, he leaves you out of the last part of the equation because its his issue, not a relationship issue.
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I don't think you should take the drug test. His idea that you are taking drugs when you aren't taking them at all is incredibly bizarre, imo, assuming that you don't take anything at all. If you do some kind of drug occasionally, it might be a more reasonable fear on his part. If you take nothing, ever, then it's just a really strange thing for him to say.
The counselor sounds like a great idea. I don't think you will be able to reason your way out of this. His accusation is not based in reality. |
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The time for the ultimatum is now.
Tell him he must seek help for his paranoia or get out. It's his problem, not yours. And don't give in by taking the damn drug test. It'll just lead to more absurd requests in the future. Put your foot down now. If he doesn't trust you, the relationship has no hope and was over a long time ago. Last edited by ChipperMonkey; Nov 11, 2015 at 10:43 AM. Reason: Added |
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Thank you, I appreciate the feedback... that's how I am feeling. I am completely against taking any drug tests to prove that I'm not on anything, because to me, his doubt or paranoia in something like this when he has been given absolutely no reasons to feel this way just feels wrong to me. It feels like it symbolizes our relationship as a whole. I feel like my companion/lover should support me, believe in me, understand and know me especially after 2 years and living together for a year...him not having any reason to feel this way and making such an accusation just throws me over the edge and literally breaks my heart and confuses the heck out of me. When there has been nothing at all and I mean NOTHING for him to think this way, something just feels very wrong... like im missing something... maybe a bigger picture or a red flag or a sign that someone is trying to get me to see about this relationship. |
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thank you...this really helped put it into perspective for me and helped finalize my decision on seeking therapy. There really isn't anything else that could help this situation. trust issues, paranoia and obsessive thoughts are all probably the exact underlying issues here that need to be addressed and it would be beneficial for him to hear it from a specialist backing me up... the mind can be so twisted... I really wish I could get inside of his and figure out how the heck he could possibly make this accusation so many times without anything to back it up its just really bizarre... thank you again |
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