Roll Call 14

I'm sorry you're going through this too. It's already 4:30am here and I still can't sleep. I'm going to try really hard to stay awake and hopefully get my sleeping pattern on track. It's funny...Daisy's been snoring up a storm! She's not having any trouble sleeping! Lucky dog!

A lot of thoughts keep passing like waves. My wisdom teeth are causing me a lot of pain which snapped me out if my negative mind set. I'm taking the time to evaluate my situation and write things down. I'm breaking down again, but I'm not very paranoid this time which is good. Soon I can rehome my pets and just get simply fish which is what I'm looking forward to. Having my cat nearly die shook me up and paying so much made it worse. I just don't understand why this happened. I feel like I was attacked and feel extremely angry about it. Everything has been making me angry so I think I'm becoming manic again. I need a way to vent out my anger and I'm creating a workout plan. Might as well use all this energy for something good like becoming more fit.

My cat and dog sleep great too!

The weirdest thing is the television shows I'm picking up at these weird hours. I caught Agnes of God a couple of days ago. And an Alfred Hitchcock Presents about a farmer who buys a jar with a weird creature in it from a carnival side show. Seriously? Who thinks that's the right tv programming for an insomniac?

I agree! I've been watching Netflix. I just finished "Blackfish". Very interesting. It makes me very sad for the whales and makes me hate Seaworld! I like to watch documentaries when I'm up late.

I have been up all night too, and most of it was spent watching documentaries.

OMG GUYS. i went to work last night and they said i was terminated because i was only a temp. WELL WHEN THEY HIRED ME THEY SAID I WAS PERMANENT PART TIME. I EVEN CHECKED IN DECEMBER IF I WAS PART TIME AND IT SAID I WAS. now they are saying i was only a temp and they terminated my position becuase the holidays are over. I am so mad at Walmart.

guys please dont shop at walmart. i know they have good deals but those good deals come at a high cost for their employees. they treat their own kind like **** and dont care. people work hard for walmart to screw them over and we cant say anything because they are a giant corporate company and we are measly minimum wage workers.

BOYCOTT WALMART. THEY ARE EVIL AND CORRUPT. IM NEVER GOING THERE AGAIN

That really sucks is there nothing you can do

Can't concentrate and feeling confused, just took lots of caffeine to try sort it out.

yeah theres nothing i can do. my hiring papers dont clarify if im part time and my pay stubs dont say it either. i have no proof that they hired me as permanent part time. they changed it behind my back probably when i got the flu. *** holes

I have never shopped there for those very reasons...it's best to find a store that is unionized because there are worker protections in place. I actually read at one point that Walmart locked in their night cleaning staff who had no way to escape if there was a fire. I know some people have no other option than to shop there but I would be in huge trouble with my family if I did because we are pro-union and thus pro-worker. I'm sorry you lost your job

I already mostly boycott them. I have my phone service through them. I've tried very hard to find something different, but I can't find another non-contract service that works out in the sticks where I live.

And I buy their glucose test strips, because they're by far the cheapest I can find. Not even close to the others.

been hearing voices and seeing things.

told my dad.
he didnt say much

Sorry Junk that really sucks that they did that to you.

My god, nurses, I know it feels real, but it's not really happening, how does she know. No legal highs they will mess me up, too much caffiene isn't helping. Well I see the Dr tomorrow or Tuesday, stopped my meds.

i wish i could just stop my meds. im on dat shot

junkDNA: I am very sorry that Walmart did that to you. That is not fair! With the experience you received from working there you will be able to find yourself a better job. I wish you the very best. Remember when one door closes another door opens. Hang in there and keep us posted.

"police - talked a nude incoherent man off a ledge - with a sandwich"

apparently they let him eat then took him to get mental health help

thanks guys

now i have to look for another job. im also trying to move apartments. this is a really stressful time but the voices havent come back yet so that shows improvement in my condition. usualy i would be hallucinating by now but ive learned better coping skills and maybe its because i have weed to keep me calm. but i cant tell my T that i have weed or he will get mad and not work with me. i feel bad lying to T but the weed seriously helps my depression its the only thing thats worked for me. anyway, i applied at a few CVS in the area. theres not many jobs out there for retail right now. i cleaned some of my apartment today and my mom is coming tomorrow to help me clean the rest and do the dishes. i hope shes not too mad at how messsy ive let it become.

All you can do is your best. Just take it one step at a time. That's all you can do. Clean up what you can and hopefully your mom can help you with the rest. I hope she is a supportive mom who can be there for you during this difficult time. Know that we are here for you also. Hang in there!

Oh wow! Was this in Dallas?

no portland oregon

i wonder what would have happen if i was nude.

I am sick. I have a fever and a bad cough. I am taking cold medicine because I need to, but it makes me feel afraid.
There have been buffolo in my living room and kitchen lately, which was startling to say the least, but they seem nice or at least neutral so that seems okay.
I am going to try to go to work tomorrow, at least long enough to print my reports and get the main filing done. I feel awful though.

I don't think the cops in Dallas would be so nice.

I'm so sorry to hear that you are sick! I do hope you'll feel better very soon. I don't like taking cold medicine either. It messes with my mind.

oh ii know they wouldnt. dallas cops are p i g s

Okay I just read in another thread that you can google your PC user name and your info will pop up! I didn't believe it so I googled my user name and sure enough some of my PC information popped up! This makes me angry and paranoid!