Roll Call 18

True but it's the schools responsibility to take care of the bullying... weather they call their parents or some sort a disciplinary action.

yea i think it is the schools responsibility for bullying.

cogentin gave me side effects like i couldnt swallow and stuff. i thought it was the risperdone but they said it was the cogentin.

Punky, I was also bullied for my hair. I was bullied for everything. My clothes, my hair, my shoes, my glasses, even my face!.... everything. I used to stay home sick from school a lot to get away from them.... I would give you advice but I don't know how to make them stop. They didn't stop... it just slowly got better over time until they left me alone mostly, and I was an outcast (but at least not bullied.) My senior year in high school a fewp people appologized... but otherwise most of them just disappeared.

One of my bullies their dad was a friend of the family, and my dad went and talked to his dad. That kid in particular stopped but his friends got worse, so I know he told them and made it worse.

Middle school is a nightmare if you're the target...

Kureha! Welcome back!

OMG i had to talk to my nurse and tell her im changing doctors. they wouldnt NOT let me talk to her. i just wanted to cancel the appt!!! it was like hell talking to her. she was all "you know you can change doctors here right?" im like "uh yea". but they are all on the same page as the other doctors there!!! and shes like "so no more injections?" i said "uh no." and she goes "mhm..."

omg.

It's okay. It's responsible to be with a doctor who listens to you. You're being compliant taking your pills so you deserve a chance. She is probably just jaded and opinionated. You told them the injections were too much and the side effects were too much, and they didn't listen. You just are stronger in spirit that you're not going to be like a sheep lead along. She can keep her opinions to herself....

All the time I call patients who don't want to come see us. Either they want to go somewhere else or not at all. I don't argue with them. It isn't my place. People have a right to choose their own care, even if I disagree with it.

i was so scared of her reaction. im still shaky. cause she sounded condenscending or however you spell it.

I can understand that. I get really shaky when I'm angry or upset. Her condescending behavior is totally unprofessional.

i bet shes telling my psychiatrist now about how im gonna end up in the hospital again. she was like "well who are you seeing?" "where is this person?" i was like thinking *i dont have to tell you that*. she better not forward a fax or something to this person about my injections.

They can't do that unless you sign something your records are private---the only time they can breach that is if they consider you to be a danger to self or others. As far as attitude---one more reason to be leaving that place good riddance.

As far as relapsing though you've got to program your phone for a timer or try something like this..

RX Timer Cap

Prove them all wrong---that is the best way of getting even and quite frankly the only way I got through jr. high.

i just set the alarm on my phone. hopefully that works. i dont think i can see my therapist either idk. she said i could but my parents dont want me to see her anymore since she put me in the hospital. my dad knows it wasnt my fault i was in there - that it was the therapists fault.

concerning the relapse i think the weed triggered some anxiety in me and stress. plus i still got more of it. which stresses me. i need to dispose of it.

Middle school. Exactly.
ya know, I told her that kids will make fun of your shoes, clothes, everything and anything. That it doesnt matter who you are, they will find something to pick on someone about. But stress brings on symptoms as you know.And she gets 'stuck' on things like this so this will be talked about by her for the next few months.
And she does say she is sick to stay home often. I just dont know what to do. She has not called back so I think the staff is handling it but I can see her going down hill. I dont want her back in the hospital.
Its bad enough for a healthy child to have these things happen but with her, it is heartbreaking as you know. Its too much.
I should have never let her get her hair cut. But I looked at her and she looked a mess. She doesnt take care of herself very well even though she thinks she looks good just because her socks match.
I dont want her to look messy all the time and it really is a cute haircut but it just gave the kids something to pick on her about because she went to school happy today with new hair and pants. She hasnt had new pants in months. I hate this. She has such a kind soul. She is beautiful on the inside. Never mean to anyone.
Still making phone calls....

i feel bad bean is being made fun of. the shcool should do something about it. this isnt right. it happens too often.

k. I talked to the nurse. She said by lunchtime when Bean went to see her for her noon pill she was better.
School social worker was in the nurses office at the time and Bean explained what happened. Social worker is not sure if kids were actually making fun of her or if it was just her being paranoid. She said Bean 'felt' them looking at her and laughing. Everyone in the hallway was laughing at her and she knew it was about her hair. She just knew it.
The social worker kind of gave her a reality check because not one person said anything mean about her hair to her.
All of the teachers and staff have complimented on her hair and reassured her that is is really a pretty cut (which it is) and it seemed to have calmed her down. I have not gotten a phone call from her since this morning which is unusual in a good way.
I will find out more when she gets home.ugg.

#1) You have a right to see whatever doctor you feel is listening to your needs. You dont want injections anymore and want to take the pills instead....Then thats what you do. Dont be afraid to do what you feel is right.

#2)Take your pills every day on time, no excuses. Show them you are responsible enough to not need injections. Show them that you are taking control of your body and illness.

#3) NO MORE WEED. It causes symptoms every time you smoke it. You are now in charge of keeping yourself well. You can do it!

#4)

This happens to me all the time. This is my prime type of paranoia. I have to really watch out for it, because it's not something totally unrealistic. I hate things like people whispering. It really gets my mind going and I lock onto it.

I think for me it comes from being bullied so bad. People laughing and bullying me for so long now I just suspect people of it all the time. Getting made fun of just "knowing" people are talking about me and making fun of me. It's horrible.

I also get stuck on stuff. It's annoying.

Picture of me and my ex boyfriend back in 2009 going to prom. Lol not sure why I'm sharing but I miss my ex boyfriend.

......And THIS.....is beauty. And your smile...

So then how do I go about talking to her about this and figuring out if it is reality or paranoia?

She has insisted something is real before and it wasn't and there was no talking her out of it. It is happening more often now.

She would get upset with me for trying to tell her something is not real.
If it was not real, how do I teach her to not let it bother her?
And what if it was real? Then Im not validating how she felt?

Heh, thanks

Prom was fun. Lol we both had fun. However we didn't have sex afterward like he wanted but he enjoyed the night as well. If we we're together today it would be almost 6 years, on March 15th, on and off that we've been together. We've gone through so much (mostly my fault with the whole mental illness deal) and I've opened up so much to him that I don't think I could find someone quite like that. lol I'm secretly hoping we do get back together again.

Have the two of you talked about it?

If she's already calm I wouldn't even bother figuring it out. If you tried to fix every hallucination it would be overwhelming---