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#476
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I've been manic for a while and pretty unstable, I wish I could go inpatient.
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#477
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Why can't you?
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#478
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![]() I've been thinking about going back to Uni in September...I can either go back this Sept or Sept 2015 and, since I'm not getting good MH care here or the long term therapy I was promised, I figure it might be better for me to go back to my Uni pdoc sooner rather than later (though I won't get NHS therapy there either). Because they said I would get long term therapy, I was going to defer another year and do a few classes here next year (in silversmithing (adult ed) and counselling (local Uni)), but that's not going to happen now, so why put off finishing my MSc any longer?! I'm scared about where I'm going to live though... I was so scared of cameras in my friend's house when I rented her spare room, but I'm also scared of living by myself in somewhere new and she's applying for a new job and so may be moving in August... Also I don't think my parents will think it's a good idea to go back this year :/ *Willow* |
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There os no way that you can go to get help?(((hug)) Sent from my SCH-S720C using Tapatalk 2 |
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And what if the new place has cameras too? And what if the Govt decide to stop my money because I'm faking and then I won't be able to afford to manage on my own? And what if I'm too stupid to manage my course and I fail? Especially cos the pdoc here won't sign the Uni disability form cos they think I'm faking so I won't get any accommodations or a support worker... (Just catastrophising out loud...) ![]() *Willow* |
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Cameras...didn't you think your friends mom planted the cameras? If it's only you and max no one can plant cameras...certainly max can keep people out while you are away...most landlords won't enter with an unsecured animal even if they have a key for 2 reasons pet may escape or may attack... Honestly I think there is more chance the gov will stop your money while you are at home because your docs aren't supportive...I don't know how it is there but here you pretty much need a pdoc to sign off on your disability from time to time... For the course...can't you just withdraw or take some sort of incomplete if things get too hard...besides why not get Uni pdoc to sign your forms if you are going there anyway....honestly even if you have to get a place to establish residency like a month in advance to get your paperwork done I would do that... ![]()
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I'm still in college for 5 more weeks and I have work. I can't afford to go to the hospital and don't have the time sadly. My psychiatrist told me that every midterm and final that I have I will most likely get manic due to being rapid cycling (which means having four or more manic episodes in one year). Idr how to make a manic episodes better, I only know how to stop my schizophrenic symptoms.
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#485
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Sunsets reflected through Shattered Mirrors - Imgur
OK this link is just beautiful in and of itself but if you want more think about the fact that something most people consider broken is exactly what makes these photos so special and beautiful. Pretty uplifting and just plain pretty too! ![]()
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You know I seem to have an awful lot of synchronicity in my life...just posted this mirror link and the chapter I started in the mental trash book is about distorted mirrors. The idea is that we rarely know what we are how strong how smart how kind etc...we rely on other peoples perceptions of us in order to make that determination but often people aren't really accurate in their judgements so we end up with the wrong ideas about ourselves. So the idea is that the reflection of yourself that the people surrounding you give you is distorted like looking in a broken mirror...
So if you think you are shy it's probably because someone told you that you were shy at some point and then you incorporated that and perhaps became more shy because of it...
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#488
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Hey all, I'm in Texas visiting family!
junkDNA, happy belated birthday! medicalfox ![]() I heard on a podcast something about increased intelligence and patternality that I can really relate to. The idea is that increased intelligence usually implies better pattern recognition, but that sometimes your pattern recognition can go into overdrive and you see patterns in random sets of information, resulting in strange beliefs and even delusions. I can definitely relate to this because I get delusions of reference about movies and songs having messages in them... or I see patterns in my hallucinations and the real world that make me get strange thoughts... yet at the same time I have a high IQ and I'm expected to be more "rational"... It was really interesting.
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I decided to take an extra dose of my risperdal last night and expected to sleep in for 16 hours like last time, but I woke up at a normal time which means that I am really manic. My head feels a little bit better and I feel more stable, but I will keep my second dose up for a couple of days to see. I'm worried about how much risperdal can shrink your brain and possibly cause lactation.
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#492
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I'm suppose to be on 6mg of risperdal, but I found that to be rather high and I haven't seen anyone on the forum with such a high dose so I stuck to a lower dose. Usually people with bipolar only take about 1mg of risperdal and the higher doses are for those with schizophrenia.
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I have gained weight, but not enough to want me to get off my medication and I have not experienced lactation. I'm just worried about what if it does happen. Zyprexa and abilify did not work for me very well which is why I like risperdal so much. I suppose I shouldn't worry about something that hasn't happened yet, but I can't help it :/
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I've finally plucked up the courage to watch 'A Beautiful Mind'... I bought it a few months ago, but haven't watched it cos I have a feeling I'm going to end up crying... Will let you know how it goes.
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Just checking in....
Hope all is well with everyone. I know its the weekend because Roll Call is verrrry sloooow.... ![]() We did not go to visit Bean today as we have talked to her on the phone and realized visiting her would not help. It is a long drive and she is pretty unaware of herself right now, but we let her know how much we love her. Hoping by the middle of the week she will be a little more clear headed so we can visit. Were really missing her here at home. Cant wait for her return to us. Cant wait to SEE her. ![]() Medicalfox, Im sorry you're struggling. ![]() ![]() Willow, Its a great movie. Really. You will like it I think. Ha...I just looked at the time. Im sure you have already watched it. So what did you think? |
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