Roll Call 41

hey SP how is the abilify working out on the lower dose???

i am eating a gala apple. they are my fave.

i saw T today.

i got some boxes and packed 2 of them. i got my car fixed. i finished my final in computer class.

T moved offices to another part of the building. he got a couch now! he asked what color should he paint it. i said black . lol. i said paint it black and leave the lights off. he said that would boost his business by making ppl depressed and then he can help them get better.

T is so funny

I'll talk to you, you should start hearing my voice shortly.

Yeah, if she doesn't believe me after I bring in my medical test results I'm going to be off to find a new pdoc. Thanks for your support.

I went to the dentist today. Got my teeth clean for the first time. My teeth feel weird Afterwards. I had lots of tartar on my bottom teeth and now it's gone lol. Also finally got an appointment with a counselor. Thank god.

I think the abilify dose is working out really well...I feel almost too good...I wonder if there is a dopamine boost that occurs with reductions maybe like using a substance....I feel almost drunk or something...

I lol'd at the T couch thing

because like i said i cant really afford another one so i im sort of stuck with this one. any other one can most likely see my every week or every other week.very most likely every week like i need but i cant AFFORD that. they actually almost overcharged me today double the payment.

everyday that i come they say "are your parents here?". idiots. mothereffing idiots. and then today they talked past me and talked to my dad and said "would you like to pay for her session now?". i looked her square in the eye and i held up my index finger and said "I pay for MY sessions...". and she said "oh".

i HATE being treated like a child. especially when im motherFin over 21 mothereffer. ESPECIALLY when it comes to MY MENTAL HEALTH SESSSIONS AND COVERAGE AND PAYMENT.

HAHAHAHAHA, that's hilarious!

You're off meds though right? I would think that would be evidence enough....

. Sorry I shouldn't have brought it back up when I know it bothers you ....

So glad you get to see a counselor do you know if it's a guy or a girl? What's your preference?

I wonder if there is such a thing as a post anti-psychotic withdrawal high....I feel meaninglessly happy right now.....of course it could be the like 8 therapy chocolates I ate earlier...who knows

good im glad u are feeling well on it!

i meant to say he asked what color he should paint the new office . not the couch. the couch is grey so i think it would go well with black wall paint. lol

youre fine Sometimesp.
thats maybe the first time ive been mad all day. i told myself when i woke up i wasnt going to be mad today and i wasnt but maybe the haldol from yesterday helped idk...
anyway i just should prob just get used to this therapist. i like her a bit more than i did before but still a bit iffy about her.

please...i dont want anyone to think they cant talk to me on here because of how i am...i just want to talk to everyone on here...this is the only place i genuinely have to talk...

Oh I was thinking some sort of leather paint . I think pale yellow for the walls, my friend has that and it's so warm and nice...black is cool but might be too trendy for some... Do you get to paint your new place?

It's fine I'm just in a weird mood right now....

Exactly. No mood stabilizers here.

But shhh I've been taking my leftover haldol so I don't go off the deep end, I have a stash of all my old meds... you know you're a chronic mental patient when you're a walking pharmacy...

Lol, that totally happened to me when I got off Zyprexa. I was in this weirdly psychedelic mood and it was really funny to me and everyone else around me at the time.

Glad I'm not the only one

Yeah all I have is like three sizes of abilify.....I think my night med is kicking in and ruining my high already.....oh well I suppose that is the price of sanity.....

yep i got like 20 bottles of old meds in my bathroom cabinet. i had to get a get a new bathroom cabinet with 2 cabinets so 1 side could be solely for meds

i have this vaping oil (forgot the correct term for it heh) in my ecig mod and its peanut butter flavor. youd think that he kinda nasty or something and when i was trying it the guy was like "here try it" and i was reluctant but i did. and i mothereffing loved it. i never tasted a vape that was THAT good and tasted THAT real.

Falling asleep...see you guys tomorrow

That sounds amazing! Lol.

goodnight SometimesP

My life is a mess and I don't even want to fix it, just doing what people tell me so they can get off my back. Sorry for the negativity. I'm fine.