Roll Call 65

all the more loial for us to enjoy haha. though i do miss lawscot from time to time, he was a good bloke

Im ok ta. Im trying to move to manchester but being on benefits isnt making it easy. most landlords wont go for it. doesnt really help that i want to be right near the city centre!

Morning folks, I've been working on painting a pumpkin, styled after starry night. But I don't get to work on it as often as I would've liked. It wasn't supposed to be a serious project or anything, but now it's starting to get soft and I feel compelled to finish it. Hopefully I'll get one good day out of it. Hope everyone feels better today.

Good morning!

Door, would love to see the pumpkin when you're finished!

I don't want you to die, us zombies have to stick together!

Seriously though I'm sorry you've been feeling like ****. I know it sounds trite but I've found it to be true, it does pass. It won't be this bad forever.

My best friend has ADHD and she gets on fine without medication, so it's definitely possible for some. For me, right now I need the medication for it although I don't require as a high of a dose as I did when I was younger, but I don't want to be on meds for ADHD forever. I miss how I am without the medication, I'm more creative among other things. Sure I'm a lot more disorganized and have a harder time focusing and all that **** that goes with ADHD, but I still feel more like ME and I don't like that I feel less like myself when I'm taking these medications.

I'm glad I've been able to find an AP that doesn't make me think that my Self is being squandered...

What I want first though is to get off the damn benzos but I'm physically addicted to them so it'll have to be slow.

Anyways I'm rambling on #becausecoffee !

I think that for quite a few people here seeing psychotic style posts can be a trigger, I've noticed that when one person is having a rough night/day it tends to affect several other members. Triggers suck... I just got done reading through all the posts last night and wow, what a rough night... I hope today is better for everyone.

Glad to know my powers of corruption are firmly intact! HAHAHAHA!

Good morning Blue Bird! Ah the early risers of roll call lol!

My morning is going fantastic as usual, got up ridiculously early yet again. I went outside to read a book, it was nice and cool outside so it was quite lovely!

Morning! Hope everyone is having a better day. I have a ton of stuff to do today. I really just want to go to bed lol.

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it was a mixture of nighttime and other people. and prob drinking all day with ambien didnt help.

but the key trigger was nighttime. i get episodes at night because im fearful of the world.

im lucky soul if i dont get an episode at night.

god forgive me of my sins.
im not feeling all that welll today.
ive been getting less and less sleep this past week.
im tired/confused/and on edge.

el mulo

Are you religious or spiritual at all? Just curious I'm not trying to pry, you just keep mentioning God so I'm wondering... If that's too personal you don't have to answer me.

Nighttime, I've seen that seems to trigger episodes for a lot of people... Many of my past episodes would have their peak during the nighttime hours, it sucked. So yeah, I get it.

Good morning all! I'm wondering if I should put the effort into making coffee or not. Hope everyone is feeling better today.

Good morning Angelique! The only bad thing about coffee is that it doesn't make itself... I had to drag myself upstairs to the coffee pot and omg I so didn't want to. I live in chronic pain so stairs are hard on me but alas my desire for coffee won!

I'm doing ever so well today, life has been treating me excellently other than the cold I've had for over a week... But I think it's just about done, I'm hardly coughing at all anymore and my singing voice is back, thank goodness for that because I have to sing this weekend!

That's why I love having a Keurig, its so easy to have a fresh cup of coffee anytime you want

I'm seriously thinking about investing in one of those, that would be so nice!

Hi Atypical! Stairs are the worst! I have to go downstairs to mail my rent check and I'm dreading the stairs. I need some Australian Dream cream for my knees, it does help a little. The sun is so bright right now! Still not sure about the coffee. I hope your singing voice is back this weekend! I didn't know you are a singer!

Blue bird, the keurig sounds great!

You should, they're awesome!

Just bought these in 1/2'' for my ears since that's the size I'm staying at for awhile, thought the green color would be good for the Christmas season.

Green aventurine stone eyelet

im connected to the christian faith so i suppose i am. although i dont pray much like i should. but ive had religious delusions twined with government delusions so i hope im nott delusional right now.

ugh idk what im saying. i AM christian. but i still dont pray like i should.
im a sinner at all costs.
but i strongly believe in the devil. and that hes hurting me up close. i used to have spirits come talk to me at nighttime. theyd tell me a bunch of things.

nice!
i use that site too! just bought their green see through case to hold all my plugs and tunnels.

I am a musician in general, I sing and I also play the piano. I compose my own music, also.

Chronic pain sucks, I know you deal with it too and I know from experience how much that makes life difficult all by itself. Sympathies.

i have yet to see the light of day

I LOVE that color, what a cool shade of green!

Yes! Chronic pain is awful. Thanks! I hope you'll be feeling better this weekend.

Okay I just wanted to make sure I knew where you were at with the issue so I didn't unintentionally say something hurtful.

You sound like you're struggling right now, I'm sorry you've been having such a rough go of it I mean ****... You don't deserve this.

Spiritually I am not sure what I believe in, and I'm okay with that. I think I'll figure that out in my own time.

Believing in the devil must be terrifying, I've met a lot of people who aren't diagnosed with a psychotic disorder at all that have talked about similar things, like believing that the devil/demons are messing with them, that spirits talk to them and so on... And I've experienced some pretty weird **** in my day(as did other people who were around me at the time) while fully stable on medication that really has no mundane explanation so you could say that yes, I do believe that there's "something" out there.