Roll Call 144

Sometimes being an adult sucks...
I had to correspond with my daughters math teacher (the one that said I was a “danger” to my children). To try to get my daughter a freaking math life preserver. I had to be “pleasant”. Do you know how hard that is? I won’t even tell you how I would have liked to have responded . But I was good. I was polite, respectful, and totally left out the part about her being an utter failure as a teacher.
So proud.

Door dash just came to my area today!

So i signed up to be a dasher!

I'm having lots of anxiety over applying to school, I don't know how I'll ever function tbh

I'm wondering if I'm getting manic ...... I'm not sleeping much and

Are you still taking the Seroquel?

Yeah I take it at night. It makes me really tired and I fall asleep but then I get up in the middle of the night and am up for the rest of the day. Went to sleep at 11 last night then woke up at 3am and stayed up, couldn't get back to sleep. It's been happening for a few days

Personally I’d call the pdoc first thing tomorrow. However if your mania isn’t dangerous I couldn’t blame you for riding it out. I don’t know if you get hit with depression afterward but it’ll take a while to get your mood stabilized you might want a med adjustment ASAP.....

I'm just trying to deal with it myself. I'm too ashamed to talk about certain symptoms with my doctor. I used to be very impulsive and did reckless/risky stuff many years ago when manic before I got stabilized. I heard a demon talking to me yesterday. I was worried maybe I was possessed or something but I haven't heard it today so that's good. I think I'm okay enough to not go do dumb/impulsive things as much as I want to. I'm not normally like that. I think things through, I'm generally a very logical person and think before I act, but I did a lot of stuff in my late teens early 20's that I really regret. I don't want that to happen again, I won't let it.

I guess I'll see how tonight goes. I'm gonna try to cope with it

If you’re going to ride it out try to avoid alcohol 🍷 as much as you can, it seems to make things worse for some people.

I second the idea about avoiding alcohol.

Woohoo...2 hour delay for both schools. I don’t have to be up until 8. That rocks my socks .
I have to empty litter box tomorrow. Cannot forget. I try to dump and scrub it monthly but haven’t yet this month.
Exciting stuff lol

My life just now is all about charging batteries. I have my vaporizer batteries charging now. Actually only one of them. Going to charge each one to 100%.

And I have my phone charging with it's stupid USB C cord that's too short to use while it's plugged in.

I'm using my spare phone and it's already time to charge it but I can't.

My friend sent me a cord that I hope will come by Friday. I lost the one I had while my bed was "being made".

I'd have half a dozen extra chargers if I reclaimed the ones I've lost here.

Anyway it's a blessing to be able to charge my batteries.

I've been craving Slim Jim's this week. And I have a toothache in a tooth I no longer have.

I wish I could go home.

I havent been tracking my mood in my diary this past week. Ive just been so busy and stressed.

elated, hypersexual, not sleeping well, "I just can't concentrate" is this racing thoughts?

These are all signs of mania.
What other meds are you on again? Seroquel for sz starts to work from 150-the maximum 750mgs.

Also, I've been hearing good things for a mood stabilizer triliptal I think it's spelled. It seems a lot like lamictal but maybe better. It's one of the few meds I don't know anything about. It's weight neutral if you were wondering.

Hubby got called in to work he is going to plow for a few hours. Silly really. We have like an inch of snow. But they want it clear for change of shift. Quick and easy $300. No complaints.
I’m in bed...with the dog kinda wish I had agreed to get that tv in here. I’m pretty bored.

Oh wow. I just found a dm on Facebook from my cousin (on my dads side) I haven’t seen since I was pregnant with my daughter. It’s like a year old lol. I’m not going to read it. It will likely keep me up tonight if I do.
Why is it that family conjure up so many negative associations and feelings?
I don’t think it’s supposed to work that way.

I started a gofundme for xena

I've never been so sure that I don't want to take my Invega Sustenna injection tomorrow. I want to tell the pharmacists that I don't want to take it. I'm sick of this madness. It's destroying my brain. But also it's helping me but I'm not sure anymore.. I don't know..

Idk I'll wait a week and see if I get any symptoms.

I want to tell my psychiatrist to try and get me off of it.

I'm hurting mentally with this decision.

You know what it's like to not want meds and the crazy and possibly real reasons for it. When you're completely ok or then showing symptoms and the symptoms are also telling you to stop taking the meds. You know.. But what are the symptoms? I don't have them so they're not real..

It's not my fault. I can't decide these things

Nevermind.. I'll take it.. but idk..

Fine I'll tell them and my mom that I really don't want to take it but I'll take it..

1am and im not tired, decided to do laundry. Worried I'm going manic

I take 1200mg of Trileptal. The seroquel is 20g at night

While it’s unlikely you’ll get off meds, you could always try a different one.

I feel tired today. Just want to sleep and not go anywhere

Probably a good thing, the mania must be ending....