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#676
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I kept seeing the same homeless guy every time I was going to my psychiatrist appointments for awhile ... I was worried one winter. It was going to be way more frigid than usual in a few days and stay that way ... and I knew he would either not survive it or he would suffer severe frostbite and other complications otherwise. I got him proper winter clothes, he thanked me profusely. He made it through that awful cold. I talk to him every couple of weeks now, he wound up finding a way out of being homeless later and we ran into each other by chance in 2018 and we instantly recognized each other. He asked me what I was doing going downtown so often anyways. I told him I was seeing a psychiatrist. He asked me why, as he was seeing a psychiatrist also. We both have schizophrenia, go figure. |
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#677
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#678
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Everyone has a dark side, it is true. I am certainly prone to bouts of absolutely withering contempt for humanity as a whole, random reductionistic BS when I do not want to deal with my schizophrenia's reductionistic BS, psychotic levels of grandiosity, and misplaced aggression in the form of sarcasm and morbid humor that I use to cover up my blatant insecurities and obvious self-doubts. All of the aforementioned no doubt originate from a deep rooted existential terror about [REDACTED]. |
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#679
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#680
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#681
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Therapy is not a good idea for me nor is it feasible which is unfortunate, due to my continuous psychosis and also due to my inevitable alarmingly frequent catatonic episodes ... and my overall level of withdrawal from the environment, reality as most people know it ... and from my own self ... Yes, that word "continuous", is also specified. While I am not constantly in crisis, my connection to "consensus reality" is at most extremely tenuous at best. Over the past several years I have severely deteriorated. I cannot live by myself. I cannot do most things. I have been rendered non functional in one too many ways. I can barely go outside, I think I have only left this place to be taken to see my psychiatrist in the past four months. I am not religious, and I certainly do not believe in any sort of supernatural forces of good and evil (boy that always got trippy when I believed I was The Devil ... lol). But, when you are the one called the evil monster enough times due to psychotic episodes ... you start to believe it ... and it got to the point that I saw a monster when I looked in the mirror. This is a nightmare, and this is what schizophrenia looks like when it deteriorates ... |
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#682
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#683
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#684
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#685
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Ever have hallucinations where someone is calling your name? Happened to me yesterday when I took the dog outside. I was calling her name, and then someone was calling my name. It kept happening over and over. Then I went inside and asked my parents if they had called me. They were like, no. I don't know what was up with that. I don't get audio's very often, usually visuals. It just kind of freaked me out because I couldn't see anyone outside or anything so once I knew it wasn't my parents calling me I knew it had to be a hallucination. At least it wasn't saying anything scary, but still, just, uh unsettling.
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#686
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#687
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Yeah I've had it happen ![]()
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#688
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My problem is mostly delusions but sometimes I would get auditory calling my name. Haven’t had any for a long while.
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#689
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My sister just texted me a photo of the tumor
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#690
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I have to admit, the Shamanism themes in your psychosis were fascinating to me just because it was atypical for spiritually themed delusions ... |
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#691
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#692
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I feel like I'm high
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#693
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My knee might've been out of place the past 2 weeks. Or whenever I last walked the dogs at the same time. It popped this morning and I felt fine all day.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#694
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Making snickerdoodle cookies on the weekend for when I see my sister
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Angelique67, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#695
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That sounds excellent bluebird...I’m thinking I might make the gingerbread polar bears tomorrow to distract myself a little. It’s going to be rainy out anyway.
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#696
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#697
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I guess I bit my cheek again while I was sleeping because it hurts
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#698
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Afraid to go to sleep tonight
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#699
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#700
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I am just scared I'm going to die if I go to sleep
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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