Roll Call 167 :)

An hour left of work. No call from T yet. See this is why I would have just wanted her to wait until Saturday now. I'm waiting and waiting for something to happen that isn't happening! I tried calling her on my lunch break but she didn't answer. She's probably in session. So now we are playing phone tag.

Thanks SP. I'm overreacting and I know it and I can't seem to stop!

that's it. I can't deal with the weight gain on the APs anymore. I'm talking to my doctor on Thursday about stopping them. Hopefully she agrees. I'll deal with whatever symptoms if any come back by myself. I should be fine on just my mood stabilizer and ADs.

I've been putting neosporin on my acne spots and it seems to be helping. They haven't cleared up completely but they aren't as red and sore. I need to ask my PCP for something better than the cream she prescribes me.

I use Clidamycin/Benzoyl Peroxide Gel. I've been using it for 6 years. My acne started when I was 12. So I've had it for half my life.

It works as if I don't have acne. It's 60 dollars a tube and I use one every 3 weeks but my disability covers it. Insurance did before.

Is it prescription?

Yeah any doctor can prescribe it

It's not like a pill form just cream. I would never take a pill for it cuz they dry up the kidneys and such.

Thanks Desoxyn!

Do you think your antipsychotic could be increased?

Perhaps that would help your level of functioning. I know psychosis has been debilitating in the past to me. I remember distinctly when I was taking Abilify it didn't help with the psychosis. Of course that could be different for you. I remember Zyprexa being the best for psychosis for me. That or Risperdal...


Also, do you think you could go to the grocery even briefly to get enough stuff for a few days?

When I do start feeling down before I’m totally down I do some cbt stuff to raise my mood. First if you’ve never tried it I recommend the woebot it’s an app that does cbt using a chat bot......it was free last time I used it. Second I recommend the pick three technique this is behavioral.

You pick three things that are fun to you or used to feel fun and do them all at once. You’ll need to pick three different senses to appeal to. So let’s say you goto a beach, you’ve got the sound of the surf for ears, build a sand castle for touch and bring a picnic for taste. If you’re on your bike, make sure to bring some favorite tunes and maybe a snack. If you’re at home you might want a scented candle or incense with some music and a coloring book. Get the idea? Somehow combining the senses together like this is a huge mood boost. Now it’s best to do this as you slide into depression not while you’re at rock bottom...basically it works as a preventative.

one of the kids almost burn the house down at 2:30 this morning

Oh my gosh--I hope you guys are all right.

lol... in one days we almost had the place burn down twice AGAIN.. the same kid was playing with the candles and lighting them up and burning things with it. I think the 8 year old is gonna be a pyromaniac... Can't trust him alone...