Roll Call 174

My mom called me yesterday because she got the check in th mail. I took 15 months to pay her back but she's happy. She also said she would cosign for a place to live but all the places are super expensive, espcially right now during college move ins. More than anything though, i think I need to find a place out of state. I'm so sick of living in the shadows of my university. None of them understand what I went through.

My anxiety has been so bad lately. I think it's from withdrawing from sugar in sweets.

I've had 666 followers on twitter for way to long. starting to feel the heat. lol

I took the Vyvanse at 11:20am yesterday morning so it caught me off guard when it wore off at 9pm before I went to bed last night - I started to get depersonalization and a song was stuck in my head really bad - It was like it was actually playing.

I took melatonin, atenolol, zopiclone and olanzepine which knocked me out - Struggled to get out of bed this morning but managed to drink a coffee and make it there by 9am. I've never been late once in the two months that I've worked there! I worked 5 hours today - It was the busiest I've ever seen it today.

I'll sleep in tomorrow until 11am and don't work until Friday. On Tuesday, I have an appointment with a new psychiatrist (The psychiatrist that I saw in the hospital was just an emergency psychiatrist). My mom is pissed because they can't just get me to see random psychiatrists all the time. I see my regular doctor on Wednesday to just check up and talk.

So far I'm doing good. I'm still taking my meds as prescribed and have been off of phenibut and alprazolam for a week.

I wrote down two things that I can do today - Which is learning about meditation and to read something.. Although I'm exhausted and worried that I'll get anxiety if I lie down because I've been standing up for so long.

Not this time because it’s my 30th birthday, it’s been 10 years basically. So I have to go in person and get every single thing updated. I made an appt for that but it’s not for another two weeks. Can’t go in whenever atm and wait in a lobby right now, due to covid.

It’s ok y’all. Thank you I had a peanut butter and jelly sandwich to tie me over.

I had that tonight too lol

Food bank or church? I wld give you food if I lived there. I run out every month. Love.

Find somewhere that fits your values. If you are liberal, any west coast city. If you are red. You know where to go.

Hugs.

I need something to relax at the end of the day. I'm restless.

Rainy as hell out cloudy drizzle really good for anxiety cuz I can stay inside and drink tea.

Same thing I like to do!

Grilling bbq chicken. Feeling uneasy

I’m starting to feel better slowly

I need the ACNH guide from amazon

im gonna try to admit to hospital tomorrow

I have accomplished a lot today. Ran on the treadmill, did yoga, talked to a friend, and talked to someone for a volunteer position thing I might do. All in all it was a good day.

That’s great to hear!!!

It’s going to be a shytstorm today. I wasnt planning on any of this. Too much to go into. I don’t think y’all will understand due to being misunderstood in previous posts. Plus I don’t need advice anyway. If anything, I need comfort from my anxiety. But anyway it has to do with my mom.

I may sound angry but it’s because I’m already dealing with my mom on the issue now. So now I’m flipping out. I really just god idk.

It’s awesome! You should definitely get it.

I need it! I don’t know what it all has. But i need it

Can’t wait for the ACNH Fall Update!!!

Hugs and love, dear!!!!

Who is an ACNH?

Animal crossing: new horizons

It’s like the ACNH bible it has everything 😃 it’s over 400 pages