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#851
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We were young.. After a certain age, we're more responsible and don't see any humour (Although some people never grow up) - But it's a reaction to the absurdity. For you, it's a really hard lesson.. Don't think negatively about yourself for it.. Really, drugs start to suck the more you do them.. Some people (Like me), it took longer than it should have to realize.. You could always blame lack of proper education to kids about drugs other than "Just say no" - Cuz obviously that didn't work.. |
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#852
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One time I blacked out at a party (my junior year of high school) - and I think that experience alone caused my schizophrenia/schizoaffective/whatever I have. I just felt myself interiorizing so much, and then I was crying and some girl was like rubbing my head while I threw up into the toilet (sorry if TMI). That probably wasn't the worst experience I had though. The mental pain/anguish that came after that and several other traumatic events (I won't mention them now) was the worst part. It was just so weird. Like everyone else stayed "normal," whatever that means, while I was completely broken into pieces. Anyway I had started to go through that trauma history with the therapist who basically I had to stop with 'cause of whatever. And then they terminated me from the practice because I cancelled too many times. That came without warning. So that in itself was kind of a terrible experience.
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#853
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Stoicism is awesome, the only thing I can't really stomach about it though is the lack of attachment to people we love. I think it was Epictetus who said something about that. I felt like he was giving very little credence to relationships that are important to us.
Like I lost my best friend basically for reasons I already talked about on here, and it is destroying me. I feel so bad about it.
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#854
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#855
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I'm ready to suffer immense pain
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#856
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I might get a new job. It would use my Spanish ability too. Only thing is I'd have to move. We'll see.
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#857
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Good morning. Woke up around 6:40am. It’s 8am now. Just drinking a coffee and listening to music. Already fed the cats and cleaned/changed their litterbox.
I need to go to Family Dollar later to get some more cat litter. Have a lot of cleaning to do today so I’m gonna spend a majority of the day doing that. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#858
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You motivated me to use my facial cleanser and SPF face moisturizer Cogladaid, hadn't used them in a few months
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#859
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#860
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Got a lot of cleaning done so far. All I have left today is vacuuming, wipe down kitchen counters, and mop the bathroom and kitchen floors then I'm done with cleaning today.
Tomorrow I'll clean the shower and put the living room and bedroom curtains in the laundry. Sent from my M8L using Tapatalk
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#861
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Proud of myself because I really struggle with cleaning.
I hope you get some more sleep WA, I'm glad the new med is helping though ![]() Sent from my M8L using Tapatalk
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#862
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Went through my spice cabinet and got rid of all the expired spices. I had a huge variety of spices and over half of them were expired so I got rid of them and will replace them as needed over time.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#863
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Yeah I know there’s cat toys all over that’s just the way it is having two cats lol
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#864
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Thanks! And yeah, I am too. I just took a nap for a while and I feel a lot better...
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#865
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wow, sunflower seed butter is delicious
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#866
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Signed up for a rewards card for my grocery store
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#867
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I was dropping and breaking cups (2 times) at work and walking around with things in my hands, not knowing where I was going. I caught myself mumbling to myself - from intensely thinking too hard, fast. I'm so stressed out. I really have a lot of self-doubt.
Last night I felt like I was on LSD - I felt absolutely amazing - Probably the best anyone could ever feel without having access to and amplifying some divine euphoria dial by using the energy of the sun. But I knew that it would go away once I went to sleep, after I woke up - And I'd go back to like how I was 2 days ago, being severely suicidal (Replaying plans in my head) and in extreme apathy/emotional pain. This happens every 1-2/10 nights. Sometimes I'll go months without it happening. I wonder if it's the phenibut. Idk. |
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#868
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Drew this tonight. There’s lots of mistakes but it’s good I’m practicing
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#869
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Never had it - sounds good though. I have been eating tons of pumpkin seeds. They are very good as well.
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#870
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#871
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Have a bad headache. This is my 2nd one in 3 days. I’ve had it all day. I might take some ibuprofen. I’m trying to avoid taking it because I’m almost out of ibuprofen but I might just have to take the last two and buy some more tomorrow.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#872
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I am stopping the modafinil - apparently it causes the aripiprazole and the mirtazapine that I take to be less effective, or at least I suspect that is the case - explains why I have been super depressed lately.
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#873
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Everyday I wake up usually between 5 and 6:30am. It seems like once a week I end up sleeping till 10:30 or 11am unintentionally like my body forced me to or something. Like it happened today and it happened one week ago too. I guess maybe I need that occasionally.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#874
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I'm glad I got back into drawing. When I'm doing art, time passes and I don't realize it because I'm having fun and focused. It also relaxes me. I get into a kind of zone where the rest of the world disappears for a little while. It's nice
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#875
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I'm going to try making blueberry banana bread sometime within the next few weeks
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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