could you really consider what i do cutting?

well....some of you guys know when im really bad....i cut about 170 times a day....but when im not so bad i cut about 50 times a day or every other day....see..i can skip a day....and even though i bleed...does it really consider me a cutter...its a pretty superficial injury....and its not deep..and only bleeds alittle ....but see ..its really not that bad...not as bad as everyone else...i mean...can you really consider me a cutter....ok so i use a razor...but...its not like i do it all day long...i mean...sometimes i do....but thats only when im really bad...and when im not so bad its pretty much like eating...you have to eat...but...you can skip a meal or two...and still be ok....i hope that makes sense...i mean i am starting to think i really shouldnt consider myself a cutter....i mean...its not sooo bad....everyone else is in so much more worse off condition then me....(thats not an insult...i promise..i just mean im not the worst case scenerio...and alot of others have it worse than i do) ..i dont know..im starting to question the validity of me being a cutter....maybe because i dont feel the pain all the time....that probably doesnt make me a cutter does it....or the fact that i dont bleed tons...unless i continue to wipe it away....that doesnt make me a cutter than does it....i dont know im kinda confused...

(((((((((inny)))))))

just wanted to let you know I read your post and even though I don't have a response to your questions, I do care.

thanks that means alot ((((((((((((((((dee)))))))))))))

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its not like i do it all day long...i mean...sometimes i do....but thats only when im really bad...and when im not so bad its pretty much like eating...you have to eat...

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if you feel that it is like eating.... I would say that there is definitly issues. I think maybe you know this though.

May I ask why you do it? I just asked because there are so many reasons that people do it. It is just that you said it does not hurt... I am sorry if that is too personal to ask.....
And I want you to know that I find no reason less valid or serious than another... even when it for attention.

I also hurt myself, though I have not done so in several months, I was threatened by my boyfriend in a way I could not chance doing it ever again.

Anyway I just wanted to answer your question... and it is yes I honestly do believe you would be considered by most anyone a "cutter".

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I never liked "cutter" as a label. I've heard that label used with so much hate (by someone who didn't know at the time that I was one). "Self-injurer" seems like a more civilized term, although it is still a label, and why should we let one thing that we do define who we are? We are people who hurt ourselves, are we not? Emphasize first on the "person" part, and then on the "hurt." The hurt is always secondary, or even much further down the list of characteristics that describe you. You are a person with a lot of talents and intelligence and love and other intense emotions, who hurts a lot inside and tries to cope by using external pain.

Remembering that you are first and most importantly a person, if it still matters to categorize your coping method, a definition of self-injury is any physical harm that you do to yourself in attempt to manage emotional pain or distress, which causes damage that can be seen for 15 minutes. And, if it really matters to further categorize that damage, then I would say that injury caused with a blade would be called cutting.

But I have to ask, why does it matter? And what answer did you hope to receive? Do you want to be considered a cutter? Does it matter how bad it is in comparison to others?

Did you know that behavior can be addictive? The qualities of addiction are: <ul type="square">[*]Compulsive use[*]Loss of control[*]Continued use despite adverse consequences[/list]Do you think that these apply?

Now, more importantly, what are you going to do about it? I know that people don't change until they are ready to change. How will you know when you are ready to change?

I hope that this doesn't sound too harsh. I am just concerned about you, and I hope that you will reach the point where you want to get better and learn to cope with life constructively before you end up damaging yourself more severely, either physically, emotionally, or socially.

Take care of you. If you don't, then who will?

Rap

sometimes it is for the pain...when i do feel ...sometimes its to see the blood...

its like a punishment for me i guess...since i feel like a bad person....i feel like i deserve it....

im sorry Rap...i hope i didnt offend you....ive been doing this action a long time...but i never knew of labels...i was never educated...or helped...and everyone else may be human..and a person..i dont really feel like a person...or human ...but i hope your not mad at me....i didnt mean any offense and i guess those things do apply to me....

((((jaberwocky))))))
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thanks for your help you guys...i really appreciate it
love,
inny

(((((((( Inny ))))))))))

No, you didn't offend me, and I'm not mad at you. I just wanted to help you see that there is so much more to you than one behavioral addiction that you suffer from. You are human, and a person, and you are worth treating nicely and caring about and helping. I know that can be hard to hear, and even harder to believe or to tell yourself.

Love,
Rap

I don't use the the term cutter or self-injurer or anything like that. For those of us who SI, we are individuals who cut ourselves, people who self-harm, etc. It doesn't matter what we call it or what we do or do not consider ourselves-- the behavior is still the same, and that's what we deal with. I know for me, it is hard to even say the word "cut" in therapy. It would be very hard to consider myself a "cutter." Sometimes to label or say the word makes it real. Fact is, it's real no matter what.

i know it might sound weird...but it is impossible for me to actually say it out loud...i can say it so boldly online...well because i really dont "say" it....and i use hand language to tell my bf what i am feeling when it comes to that..i cant even talk to him about it out loud...i cant even write it in a text...for some reason if i say it online..its like almost a dream huh..not real...and if i say something..."not real" i almost believe it...and sometimes i do believe it....this i way to hard...

<font color="#000088">I do agree with the fact that the labels are harming to people, and for some reason, some people actually like the label of being a "cutter".But I agree that it's better to just call it self-injurers. But to answer your question about if what you are doing would be considered cutting,I would definately say yes! But there are many others that do it to,so you're not alone in this,so it doesn't mean that you are not a person, or not human. There are more self-injurers out there than you could imagine. I used to cut quite often as well,and it really doesn't matter who cuts worse than who,just the fact that they do it puts them in danger for their lives.But you are human even if it doesn't hurt,because sometimes when we are upset and our adrenaline gets pumping pretty fast,we don't feel pain like we usually would. And cutting is very addictive, that may be why it feels to you like it's just like eating your meals each day.It may have just become a habit to you,as well as a coping mechanism. But Don't ever thing you're not a person,you are,and I think you are a great person with problems like we all have to deal with.You are a good person,and we all have our problems,but be really careful with the cutting,it's risky,safety wise! Just me looking out for you!
(((((InACorner)))))
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do i consider what you do cutting...in a word...yes

sweetie, our bodies weren't meant to be cut on or bruised or burned. whether your cut is the slightest cut or one that needs stitches...it is an injury to your precious body!

i know that's not easy to accept...i don't accept it!! when i SI it is because i loathe myself and i want to hurt my body and my self.

if you cut yourself even just a little...then call it what you want...cutting, self injuring, or hurting yourself....that's what you are doing.

and you are not alone!!! ((((((((((InACorner))))))))))))))