Trying to quit smoking....

I AM SO PROUD! I suggest Gum (lots of it!) and games online, push ups, reading, lolypops. Anything to keep you off and save your body! SO SO SO SO SO proud of you! BRAVO!!! Keep it up!

Thanks guys.
Yeeeeaaaaaaaa!!! You made it for 2 hours! I know how hard that must have been...but you did it!
I still havent opened up the pack of cigarettes and I'm not pigging out too badly.
Thanks Sarah for the support!

Okay, now I'm stuffing my face.
Have you ever tried those "Munchies" Kid's mix?
It has Doritoes, cheese balls, white cheddar pop corn and pretzel all in the same bag. It's really good and kinda healthy 'cause it's got 8 vitamins and minerals-140 calories per serving and it has no trans fat and no cholestrerol but it does have 20 g of carbohydrate. Oh well.
Yum, really good stuff to get fat with.

Oh, it's got captain crunch cereal in it too which is really good. When you eat the cereal and the popcorn together-it tastes like caramel covered popcorn.

Ok I'm ratting myself out. I made it every two hours all day until now, I cheated. I went an hour hahaha. Aaaah. I'm getting ready to go my two AA meetings and my Friday night fellowshiping. It's my favorite night of the week. People at the meetings know I'm timing my smokes, so I'll have to stick to it. I was kicking myself last night at pool league because I was smoking more and my AA friend said not to kick myself, because I'm doing well anyway, a few more is no where near a bad as I was. Tonight will be interesting again, since we all go to this diner and sit outside. I'm just so proud of us for the effort we're making!

Im ratting myself out too, Ray. I played with an unlit cig for awhile and then I lit it up and inhaled it but I did not enjoy it at all.
So I put it right out.

I am so very proud of all of you!!!!

Hurray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Hugs,

Jan

Thanks Jan!
I woke up in a really funked out mood today. I realized that I have a lot of aquaitances but no real friends I got all sad and depressed so I went to my cigarettes for comfort. I smoked one already today- a whole one.

I did pretty well yesterday at my meetings and the diner. I didn't time the smokes, but diciplined myself, not lighting up right after a meeting, right after food. Had 15 total yesterday. So far my best is down to 12.

Jax - You're doing so well. Look how much you've cut back, and you're still fighting it. Keep it up!

Hey, I smoked one yesterday. I am doing great. I have other problems though. I am glad I am beginning to really get air in me. For the first time, I am feeling air going in and out of my face. It feels great to get alot of the air and I forgot what air was about until yesterday which was much better than smoking 15. I try today when I go out with L. my boyfriend to just keep it low number today. Maybe It will work out. Love Robin

Hi Ray and Razel,
I'm glad the two of you are doing so well.
((((((Rayaandi and Razeljenny)))))))

I originally made a new post for this, but some people pointed me here. I didn't realize there was already a "quitting smoking" thread-- Sorry!! So, this is a re-post from my orignal post.

Well, I had originally decided that I was going to quit smoking last night at midnight, but I have rrevised the quit date yet again! The weekend is here, and that means that my husband is home with me all weekend. I know that if I quit now, the first three days are going to be hell, and that will mean me being a major *****. I hardly see him through the week, because he works third shift, so when he is at work I am asleep, and when he is asleep I am awake. Since I don't see much of him during the week, I don't want to spend the entire weekend fighting with him (most of it would be just being irritable). This realization has made me come to the conclusion that I am going to wait until Monday, when he goes back to work, to quit smoking.

Before I was diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder, my relationship with my husband, who is a wonderful man, suffered greatly. I was constantly nagging him and yelling at him because he wasn't doing things right. In my mind, the way he was cleaning or cooking was not right,(I am a germ-phobic person), and was going to cause us to get sick and die. I was really bad. I would secretly watch him clean and make sure that he did things in the proper order (clean the sink, then mirror, then toilet, put away the cleaning supplies, put the wash rag in the dirty clothes, dispose of gloves, wash hands and arms three times.)If he didn't, I would go behind him and re-clean it. I know it was tiring for me, but when I think about how bad it must have been for him, I want to cry. It was almost as though I was making him have OCD too.

I went to the doctor and was diagnosed, and my husband, who was always wonderful and always tried to help me finally understoopd why I was acting the way I was. I couldn't help it. When we go tthe diagnosis, he sat down and cried. He apologized to me for all of the times that he told me that I needed to get over it and let him clean his way. He apologized for all of the times that he yelled at me for staying up for three hours checking the door locks and the stove to make sure it was off. He apologized for how much I have to suffer because of this illness, and told me that if he could he'd take it for me. HE WAS APOLOGIZING TO ME??!?! I should have been apologizing to him-- and I was. For everything that I had put him through.

Now that he understands my OCD, and the rituals that I have to preform because of it, he helps me. He knows how I liked things done, and even though in his mind it is ridiculous, he does it my way so that I don't worry. He lets me go and rearrange everything in the house if I want to, he'll even offer to stay up after he has worked all night and help me. He says "If it makes you feel better, let's get it done."

So you see, my OCD has put enough of a strain on our relationship in the past...I don't want my not smoking to do the same thing. He says that he understands that I will be cranky at first, but I don't care...I love him and I don't want to make him suffer. He is so good to me, and when most men would have run for the hills, he sat up at night worrying about me and why I was acting strangely (before I was diagnosed with OCD). He's one in a BILLION, and I'm keeping him.

Soooo, to make a long story short, I am putting off quitting until he goes back to work to spare him from my moods .

I'm quitting on 9/11/2006 Cold Turkey!!!

You sound like you have a wonderful husband, Randysangel.

I'm REALLY fallling off the wagon today. (scrunchie face)
I just got finished smoking my third cigarette.
I dont know what is wrong with me today.
Really feeling funked out-I feel fat, I feel alone, I feel like smoking---A LOT!!!!
Maybe it's because I didn't exercise yesterday.
I like Denise Austin. She makes me feel better. I know it sounds really stupid but I like it when she reassures me that I'm worth it and that I'm a good person. How pathetic is that?
I'll be sure to execise today. I can't now 'cause not only am I smoking a lot but I've also pigged out big time with nacho chips. My stomache is so stinking huge I have to unbutton and unzip my jeans.
I also went on a shopping spree. I got clothes I really needed though. All of my clothes had bleach stains (from work), stains, holes or were too big or small.
Today has been a really bummer day all around except my time here at PC. I love the people here. Everyone is so nice. (((((( ))))))
I'll do better tonight and tomorrow.
Denise Austin, here I come...

Guess what? I smoked 6-yes, 6!!!!! Oh, I'm not going to have that deep breath feeling when I wake up tomorrow morning. Nope!
I do feel better though cause I did exercise. I'm really starting to get into it. Great, now I'll be one of those annoying exercise freaks!

Haha, 6 ain't bad at all. I've had 10. Ah...getting ready to go for a swim after a big dinner with the family.

Hi Ray,
I hope your swim went well last night.
I'm doing pretty good today. I've only smoked one and a half today. I'm not feeling so funked out.
I hope everyone is doing okay. (((((((everyone trying to kill the nicotine beast)))))))

Hi Friends...I didn't do very well this Fri or Sat. That is my bad time because I am off and have all this time to just smoke.
I didn't post this weekend because I didn't want to let you all down.
I am trying to smoke half cigs now. I am just trying to get back on track.
I did shoot some hoops today (boy o boy I am out of shape!) But, it made me realize that I want my body to feel good and smoking really slows me down.

Somewhere this weekend I lost my discipline with the timing. Still didn't smoke as much as I was, but smoking more, for sure. I just ran out, so I'm gonna try not to run to the store. Now when I don't have any I don't panic, I just don't think about it so much.

Raynaadi...how did you do not running out for smokes> Are you okay?

I want to stop altogether now. I'm tired of goofing around with this. Either I'm committed to stop or I'm not. And I am. I will have to learn not to eat so much if I don't want to gain weight-I can't use that as an excuse to smoke anymore.
I got one foot in the door of being a non-smoker and I keep pulling it out again. What am I afraid of?
I'm going to stop smoking altogether tomorrow. I may have to start rolling around instead of walking but my lungs will be smokefree.
Arg! - I can do this!

Twisted_Soul, I was doing well not running out and then a phone call stressed me out so I gave in. I definetly smoked too much yesterday. I'm back to the timing today. Glory doesn't lay in never falling, glory lays in getting back up when we fall.

Preach on Sister Raynaadi!
Your spunk and determination on inspiring to me!

Thanks!

Go Jax....we are here for ya!

Thanks Twisted, we'll see how this goes.
Rayaandi- stress always gets to me, too. That's when my worst nicotine cravings hit.

I've been smoke free now for about 6 weeks.I still want one sometimes.what keeps me from lighting up?I want to quit,worse than I want to smoke. that and prayer have kept me smoke free. when i feel tension,or any of my trigger feelings,I take deep breaths,and observe myself and my stress,I then feel a type of empathy for me where I want to support myself and that really helps.

It's awfully quiet in here. Hmmm. Yep, you guessed it. I really, really messed up. ARG! I'll have to try again. Hope everyone is doing okay. If you fall 7 times then get up 8! Right Raynaadi? Right!