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#226
Dec 21, 2011, 01:47 PM
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To the koko:
What's so great is that at an early age you have gained so much insight and have learned to put things back together after they come apart and to do that repeatedly. To me, you sound like someone about whom one can readily feel hopeful. One of the main problems with chronic disorders is that they are chronic. Yes, that was a kind of tautology, but it is a reality that gets forgotten - by others, and even by ourselves. There is no such thing - IMO - as not having anymore relapses. That is discouraging, but maybe less so if it is accepted. You seem to have the stance that the thing to do is to work on recovery following an interval of being in the unwell part of the cycle. That is what it is all about. You have a wise doctor to suggest you use a forum for support. No one ever suggested that to me. I stumbled upon this site. You think clearly and write well and take responsibility. You are the kind of person who will be able to gain a lot, and contribute a lot, coming to PC. It's good to read that you are currently able to say, " . . . so far so good." This community will be just as accepting of you when times come wherein you feel less well. With treatment and you own commitment to managing, those times can be less frequent and less severely chaotic than they would be otherwise. At your age, I was still refusing treatment. Glad to hear that you are in a good space now. I hope you will keep posting and do so, even if and when you feel really challenged by the times when it just seems to get difficult all over again. |
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#227
Dec 21, 2011, 01:54 PM
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Hi, i am cin1. i have had emotional problems for 31 years, spent five years in a private hospital, diagnosed as schizophrenic , don't think they knew of bi-polar back then. did pretty well for years, then five years ago i quit my meds and ended up in a hospital. they diagnosed me as bi-polar. i am doing ok. i find this site helpful.
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#229
Dec 29, 2011, 01:27 AM
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Hi Everyone my name is Tuti. I was diagnosed bipolar about 10 years ago. I had a fantastic Doc. who kept trying meds. until we hit the right combination or cocktail as I like to call it. I have been very lucky and blessed in my life. I have had the same husband for 32 years and we have been through heck and back with my illness and he still loves me. I have been hospitalized twice and do not work anymore. I can't. The depression and anxiety overcome me and make me unable to function. I feel guilty because I can't always function the way I feel that I should be able to function. I often times feel that it is unfair to my husband. I feel that I am a burden. I feel that I can't contribute. But I carry on and do what I can to participate in our life together. I came to join this group because I was hoping that I am not alone out there and that maybe someone else might understand some of what I go through. I am still positive that there are good days ahead. We just have to look for them.
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#230
Dec 29, 2011, 01:50 AM
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#231
Jan 03, 2012, 05:58 AM
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Hi!
I'm never been one for forums but I have some things I would like to discuss and hear opinions about. I have recently been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. My psychiatrist says that technically it is Bipolar I disorder - I have had severe mania and psychotic depression - however he does not like to classify, viewing the disorder as something that they do not fully understand the cause of mental disorders and thus, in his opinion, it is out of the boundaries of classification and should be used as an overall descriptive term. Looking back I think it all started when I was about 7 with my first depressive episode. This is probably the only time that I was seriously suicidal. I have worked out that so far in my 23 years of life I work on around a seven year cycle. Depression at 7, 14, 21. Mania starting a few years later and not quite as clockwork... well you get the picture... In between those extremes I have had more minor cycling though nothing that I believe affects me in too adverse a way. I was diagnosed after coming down from a manic episode, and realising, for the first time (I feel so selfish!), that my behaviour had affected the people I love. I told my endocrinologist about it (I have type 1 diabetes), and he pointed out to me that what I described to him was mania and he referred me to a psychiatrist who diagnosed me. He wanted me to try lithium. However, I was near the end of completing a Master of Science and I did not want to change now that I was returning to normal. I am also terrified of getting fat (a side effect of years of dance training haha). And 5 injections a day is enough drugs for me. I struggle with the idea of preventative meds, especially when I am not rapid cycling. My psychiatrist respected my decision and I decided that once I completed my masters I would look into seeing a psychologist to work on day to day life stuff. So, I have completed my Masters and I have been excepted into a top PhD program with a top scholarship. I am so excited. The only thing that could stop me now would be an extreme episode which had quite the effect on me during my Masters. Although even minor depressive episodes are a worry, I guess. I promised myself that I would see a psychologist now. However, I'm scared. I have been to see psychologists before and before the end I have known exactly how to get out of seeing them again. I had a very traumatic childhood, but as you may have guessed, I have moved on from that and I don't want to be forced to bring it up. I want to deal with the NOW. You know... tracking my moods, being organised, being sure of what is going on in my life... Stability! Should I even go see a psychologist? What should I say to them to be clear about how I feel. I don't want to offend them, but I want to be frank and clear. Suggestions? Sorry this was such a long post!!!!! |
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#233
Jan 04, 2012, 06:46 AM
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Never apologize for a long post - it's hard to summarize a lifetime of battles with mental illness into one paragraph! I think you hit the nail on the head when you say you just want to be frank and clear. I too got tired of the therapists, psychologists, etc because I am SO OVER talking about childhood and traumas, parents, family EEEKKKK! I want someone to help me cope with daily life, not dissect me over and over again. Help me with organization, managing my finances, new skills that I can use to get me thru my worst days, etc...
They ARE out there, but hard to find. Keep us posted!
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#234
Jan 04, 2012, 04:16 PM
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 I'll give you a heads-up, in case you haven't figured it out already, that doing a PhD is extremely demanding and extremely stressful. Just my $0.02, but I would strongly suggest getting yourself as stable as possible before you start your program. Even a minor depression can tank you pretty quickly with the level of expectations that are placed on PhD students. I wish I had been diagnosed before I started my program; it would have made things so much easier on me. I've done well nonetheless, but with way more struggle than was really necessary.
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#235
Jan 07, 2012, 11:57 PM
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Hi everyone, I'm new here. My symptoms started when I was a sophomore in college and I was diagnosed with depression. They cleared up extremely quickly after I started taking Prozac, which I was on for about a year. Two years after that, I became extremely depressed again with some delusions and lost a major fellowship because of that, which really scarred me. I was given Prozac again because the psychiatrist thought I had depression, but that induced a severe manic episode last weeks, which caused me to do A LOT of embarrassing things and eventually end up in the ER. That was a year and a half ago and it has been a long struggle to regain my confidence after the damage I did to my future career/reputation, but I am finally starting to feel better, after having fit in well and gotten a 4.0 in my first semester in a pretty competitive graduate school. I'm still angry at some of the discriminating (is that a word?) attitudes towards me from a few people who witnessed my manic episode and found out about my condition. That's probably my biggest challenge right now.
I think this is a wonderful site, and want to say thanks to the doctor who started it. I hope I can get some useful advice here from people who have had similar experiences and that I can be helpful to others as well. I think with my two years of hell, I have hopefully racked up some street cred.... |
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#236
Jan 08, 2012, 03:10 PM
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Hi, I just found this forum today while searching for Bipolar support groups. I have struggled with depression and anxiety issues for over a decade. I was diagnosed as type II Bipolar about two years ago. My son and I moved out on our own about a year ago and life was going great. So I stopped taking all of my medication, feeling good coupled with the high cost of filling the prescriptions for my medications led me to this decision. However, lately I have noticed that I have 2-3 nights a week where I don't sleep at all and when I do sleep, I manage to get about 3 hours of sleep a night. I find myself up scrubbing the walls or making chili at 3 00 AM. I am getting increasingly short tempered with my four-year-old. While I am going to be making an appointment with a doctor to get back on my medications and to start getting some actual sleep, I am looking for a group that offers encouragement, and support or that can answer questions I may have. I look forward to getting to know you all.
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#237
Jan 15, 2012, 02:53 PM
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I need help urgently! I have been on Prozac for 20 years for depression. Last week I was diagnosed with bipolar 1. I have an appt with my old phychiatrist Tuesday to start on meds but I dont trust her at all. I have an appt with a new dr. but it is a month away. I am having extreme axiety over starting Bipolar meds. Should i go ahead and start them or wait to see the other dr in a month. Is it dangerouse to wait. I just don't think i am ready to handle all of this
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#238
Jan 15, 2012, 05:50 PM
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I am tired of trying to hide. I have struggled with BD for 25 years. I decided to take medication again after a serious suicide attempt and psychiatric hospitalization. I am trying to learn how to accept this condition and work with it. I enjoy the creative manias. The severe depression has gotten worse and lasts longer as I get older. I am here trying to learn as much as I can about this condition from others experiencing this. For most of my adult life I have been afraid to admit something is wrong. I have always been ferociously independent. I am trying to learn how to seek help when I need it.
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#239
Jan 15, 2012, 06:53 PM
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#240
Jan 18, 2012, 09:20 PM
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Hello. I was diagnosed with BP II about 6 years ago and have been on a lot of different meds. Right now on Neurontin and Lamictal. Last year about this time when I started having worsening depression the MD added Abilify. I didn't stick with it because I was ravenous all the time, gaining weight, and couldnt afford it, even ordered from Canada.
Last year the pdoc said she would have to go back to some of the older meds if things didnt get undercontrol. I have an appt set up with a great mood treatment center, for day after tomorrow. As a nurse, I have always just accepted the medical treatment for the disorder. I have never given any thought to or had any interest in other methods or thoughts of treatment like therapy, self help books, support groups, spiritual aspects, etc. I am just now starting some things like reading, forums, and went to a support grp last week. I added some herbal/vitamin type stuff to my meds- Omega 3, Krill, D, and 5mthf. I got so much more than I thought I would from the support grp I went to last week that I am going again tomorrow night. Really, that night after the grp and the next day was the best I felt in a long while. |
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Jan 21, 2012, 03:00 PM
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#244
Jan 21, 2012, 03:59 PM
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By the way I acted in the hospital, I think I am Bipolar. Years ago, a doctor told me I was. Since then, doctors don't say that. They don't know me as well, though.
I think I am either Bipolar, or I have a flaming personality disorder. I do believe I am misdiagnosed. It's not just depression, which I am diagnosed with. Whatever it is, Lamictal didn't help it. I hope that those above who have newly posted that they are diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder do get symptom relief from their medications. If your diagnosis is correct, then at least you are off to a decent start. |
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#245
Jan 22, 2012, 08:35 AM
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Welcome Mack and Layla! You will find great support here. I access this forum every day and can be honest and not feel I will be rejected. It is a very safe place to share and meet people.
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#246
Jan 26, 2012, 02:26 AM
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Hey there everyone, I'm new to the forum. I was diagnoised as Bipolar for the first time 4 years ago. I took myself off my meds and I have been in a depression for a few months now and am back in therapy and am going to see a psychiatrist next week to get back on some meds. I am here to talk to others to hopefully stick it out til I find a pattern that works and makes me enjoy all of life again. I have very low motivation for anything involving just myself these days. Hope to make some connections with people who understand the struggles!
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#247
Jan 26, 2012, 06:32 AM
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Hello everbody. My name is Jim and i am here to help me better understand my wife, and help her and be supportive. I really not sure what to say sorry. I am looking and have been reading different books and things online. I also have been looking for support groups for bipolar in my area and it dont seem that there is any. Anyone know of places that i can go to find out if there are any in my area. I do live in wis. Any info would be great, and i am open to anything that anyone has to say. thanks again Jim
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#248
Jan 26, 2012, 12:14 PM
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#249
Jan 26, 2012, 12:22 PM
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Hello everyone! My name is Angi and I'm with Bipolar Disorder type 1. In addition, I'm a nursing student, married to a wonderful man (love of my life), share 5 kids together, live out in the country after many years of city and suburban life, and two dogs. My current medication regiment is: Seroquel 350 mg at night with Trzadone 50 mg-100 mg as needed, Seroquel 25 mg throughout the day as needed for manic episodes, and 200 mg Lamotrigine. I'm in therapy and doing well. I should post in the success stories.
Without depression I'm bubbly, positive, an overachiever, busy, caring, hard worker, experiment, think outside the box and often am defiant. I'm always pushing the limits and trying to change things for the better. I tend to not follow the crowd and bring up the what ifs? I hope to bring about some positive changes in the world one day.  My husband and I both want to go to med school when the kids are all grown up. He wants to go ER and the EMS Director route and I'm playing with the idea of research. I picture myself on stage in front of hundreds of people lecturing about Bipolar Awareness and updated information. I'm greatly looking forward to making some new friends. I only have my sister who is also Bipolar. Everyone once doesn't understand.
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#250
Jan 31, 2012, 08:06 PM
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Hello everyone, I go by trooper 59, and have been diagnosed as BP for about 6 yrs.
I really struggled with sticking to the med regimen, but after being "pink slipped" and spending some time in a MH facility I got compliant. The meds I'm on now seem to really help but I no longer attend any groups so this will be good for me to have somebody to talk to that knows where I'm at. |
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I am new to this sight and never even been on a chat sight but i need advice I took a psych test today and am waiting on diagnosis because for years I have been told i have depression and then sever depression and ptsd and recently ADHD so i am on alot of meds and they are thinking i am bipolar now so I guess i just feel like a big pile of mess right now! any advice? thank you
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