[jpb4815]

sick, chest cold, slept all day. Could stay in bed but I just got up and made my kids dinner. let them go back out to play until dark. Might be the last nice weekend of the year. God I miss being a kid, life was so much simpler.
Thinking maybe I am a bit depressed over recent separation with my wife. I could just sit in my closet and cry if it weren't for the kids.

[mindwrench]

Having a mixed episode. Been all over the map today. I drove to the liquor store but they were real busy, and all those people going in and out were looking at me in my truck thinking, he's going to self medicate and abuse alcohol. I haven't drank in years. I felt so guilty for being in the parking lot. I left and came back, but still couldn't face the people in the liquor store so I left and went to walmart, picked up a few things and started racing my way to the self checkouts as I was shifting from coping, to panic mode. I made it out of the store and hurried home. I hate this roller coaster mental state.

It's a sh!##y rainy day here. I didn't realize how much i hate the rain. I sure am glad i didn't move to Vancouver permanently. I would have hated the weather there. I did take a nap which i was sorry to see but i also did a load of dishes and got to the grocery store for a few things. I also killed in online Scrabble -- won all four games in a row!

[xRavenx]

Feeling very irritable today. I drank yesterday foolishly to escape the depression I was feeling and relax socially, but it backfired, and I missed my meds. I don't even like myself when I am drinking. I did get another massage today since my neck has been killing me, and it was the high point of my day. I need to take better care of myself. Still very depressed and overwhelmed, but trying to cope and work through it. Sept 30 (my med appointment) cannot come soon enough, but I'm desperately looking forward to my therapy appointment Monday.

[Nammu]

Spent yesterday and today helping my daughter with her garage sell. She made almost 300 dollars! And she didn't even sell the big furniture. She did get a couple numbers to call about selling it.

Haven't done much at all today, feel fine just bored. I'm hoping one of my sisters can take me out to practice driving bc the lessons are expensive. She's just really busy with her boys and getting them to sports and she has work. My other sister Kim said she's afraid to take me out bc she's afraid it could ruin our relationship, lol. We haven't always gotten along. Need to hurry and get my license and a car so I can start doing the things I want to do. Ugh!

I have so much planned. Gonna start with classes and joining the Unitarian Universalist church and hopefully meet some like minded ppl. Also gonna join the YMCA and start exercising. See about going back to college. Do some activism hopefully. Oh so much I wanna do! Feels good being stable...

[Crazy Hitch]

Was sick in hospital Monday to Friday this week - kidney infection. Blugh!

[dangerousanimals]

My friend never got back to me, so I didn't visit--they have a complicated living situation and seemed a little down, so I hope nothing major is going on at their place.
Today I did so much reorganizing and cleaning and throwing out stuff in an agitated manner. Not tired now. I don't think my meds increase put the brakes on this elevated mood. Usually when I'm like this I start isolating myself, but this time I've been throwing away newspaper clippings and other stuff that I'd saved. I wish I could properly assess if I'm going to miss these things.

No silly puppet references today; I'm tired of this disease and wouldn't mind dying in my late 40's after a series of farewell strategic exploits against the Church of Scientology, the Kardashians and the Alt-Right, not necessarily in that order. I will set a high bar for going out hard.

With the exception of a 2-hour nap, I've stayed up all night because I don't feel tired. (I think it's because I got waaaay too much sleep the day before.)

The good news is that I managed to get a lot of work done in that time. I finished up most of what I needed to do, then took a break to play on my computer and stuff. Will go back to work shortly.

yesterday afternoon i had, what I thought, were mild suicidal thoughts.

anyway they esculated to much more intense thoughts/ feelings, and i ended up yesterday all over the place

today in my head it is loud. very loud.

otherwise i'm okay. nopt actually done much today and need to get my *** up from the chair and do stuff

[Gs550]

Seem to be a bit more neutral in mood after yesterday. I think running all the errands I did (it took 4 hours!) then finding a new show to watch (I've been desperately bored and absolutely nothing intrigued me on Netflix or Hulu) and deciding to take up knitting again helped get rid of the intense antsy anxious feelings I had.

Wifi at home went down last night. Have cellular for phone, but won't be using much.

I'd put off emailing my psych about something (for about 2 months as I haven't been able to afford to go to an appt. to just mention it in person) because of (needless) anxiety. Spent probably a couple hours composing (thought fairly short). Went to send. Didn't go. Several tries. Scrolling had frozen, then worked briefly, so, already in panic mode started handwriting content. Almost got done when (apparent) "send" kicked in. The only place it went was cyberspace. Nowhere to be found. It just disappeared. Fortunately, I got most of it written down, but was kind of PO'd since I'd finally stopped putting it off, and then THIS. Frustrating. I reined in though and was amazingly calm shortly afterwards. It launch me! (Would have if hadn't written most out, but let's overlook that) Yea!!

Won't be around much at all till wifi is sorted.

Mood's been kind of down (going on before wifi thing, nothing to do with).

[hopeless2015]

Lazy Sunday at home. Frozen pizza for lunch, got dishwasher going and need to start some laundry. I really need to get the bathroom cleaned up....got all day to get that done though. Feeling ok.

[raspberrytorte]

I'm feeling much better today. Took a walk. Cleaned my room. Painted my nails. Plan on reading for the rest of the afternoon. Fantastic day!

[Wild Coyote]

Spending the day trying to calm down.

I'd gotten a bit too excited on Friday and Saturday. I'd realized I was starting to show/feel hypomanic traits. I LOVE Fall weather!

On Friday, I had traveled 200 miles, round trip, had stopped in 4 towns, had attended 6 major community events, one international event (where I met people from across the U.S. - introduced myself, welcoming them to my home state, of course!) I was repeatedly asked if I was, perhaps, a State politician?

The bands had started playing at the last two events -- uh oh!
I was having a very hard time not (overly) inciting the crowd to show much more appreciation for the very talented bands' music!
I love a good time, no alcohol or weed needed.

On Saturday, I'd stayed in town, but went to another international event -- thousands of people! I had to go -- to meet the visiting strangers I had met 100 miles away the day before-- as I had talked them into attending this event, even gave them directions. Had fun... again!

Oooops. Time to calm down. Spent today calming down.


WC

[Unrigged64072835]

We finally got to see a formal garden this morning. It was still dewy and humid, and most of the flowers were gone, but we still enjoyed ourselves and I have a few pics to process and upload to Flickr.

We also cleaned up most of the house this afternoon. Still have a bit left to do tomorrow.

[Nammu]

Beautiful, beautiful gorgeous day in Minnesota. Woke up with a throbbing headache so took some aspirin and went back to bed till noon. Had a can of caffeine and that did the trick. Spent most of the afternoon reading outside. Then took mum to get groceries. Looking forward to to watching Star Trek this evening.

Originally Posted by Lefty the Salesman

No silly puppet references today; I'm tired of this disease and wouldn't mind dying in my late 40's after a series of farewell strategic exploits against the Church of Scientology, the Kardashians and the Alt-Right, not necessarily in that order. I will set a high bar for going out hard.

Oh I hear you on that, lol. But please no checking out early...

[bizi]

I looked thru the homes for sale section of the paper for open houses to go look and see neighbor hoods etc. I toured thru 4 homes.
Everything had terrible locations.
We are thinking about getting a newer home. Ours is 47 years old...and makes me nervous. I love our neighborhood and house but am afraid of major repairs.
Took an hour nap.

I actually did some work outside today. I took the hose and hosed down the patio. Then I cleaned off the bird cage and rehung it and wiped down 2 small white tables that were black and green from mildew.
yesterday I went to tuesday mornings store and bought a new area floor covering. It is 5x7 and made of bamboo and stained brown.
It looks great on the patio.

I still have to deal with all of the empty pots and planters, years of neglect. Overall, it does look better now though!

Had left over pepper pork stew for dinner and instant miso soup which was pretty good!
After dinner I did some filing for work and made a deposit.
Then we watched an episode of seinfeld which was very funny!
It really was a good day.
bizi

[Standup2me]

Summer is leaving us. She waves goodbye, while autumn sneaks in a tiny hello.
Winter will soon be here, demanding respect, and getting it,
The Earth Mother controls it , not us
We are just here to serve her

[Pikku Myy]

Same as Wild Coyote... calming down. Blahhhhh, blahhhhh and blahhh

Sh#t... Another night with 2 hrs of sleep and hallucinations.

This time I'm seeing logos "fall off" of bags and boxes. I'm also watching things move across the floor

My pdoc is going to blame Strattera. I just know it!

Damn. No more ADHD meds for me

[mindwrench]

I'd really like to sleep one of these days. I'm not afraid right now, and haven't had a panic attack in over 30 hours.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Spending the day trying to calm down.

I'd gotten a bit too excited on Friday and Saturday. I'd realized I was starting to show/feel hypomanic traits. I LOVE Fall weather!

On Friday, I had traveled 200 miles, round trip, had stopped in 4 towns, had attended 6 major community events, one international event (where I met people from across the U.S. - introduced myself, welcoming them to my home state, of course!) I was repeatedly asked if I was, perhaps, a State politician?

The bands had started playing at the last two events -- uh oh!
I was having a very hard time not (overly) inciting the crowd to show much more appreciation for the very talented bands' music!
I love a good time, no alcohol or weed needed.

On Saturday, I'd stayed in town, but went to another international event -- thousands of people! I had to go -- to meet the visiting strangers I had met 100 miles away the day before-- as I had talked them into attending this event, even gave them directions. Had fun... again!

Oooops. Time to calm down. Spent today calming down.


WC

Wide awake thru the night. Feet and both Achilles tendons are screaming in pain from fasciitis/ tendonitis. Overdid it. Eeek! Continuing to apply the brakes.