Welcome back WC, you've been missed and needed around these parts.

Welcome back wild coyote!

[hopeless2015]

Welcome back WC good to see you!

Welcome back WC! I think a lot of people, myself included, have missed you.

Sorry things have been rough for you lately.

[Wild Coyote]

I have truly missed everyone, too!

Although it's been a challenging time, it's also a very hopeful time, as specialists had told me I could never again walk any distance. I have found a PT therapist/chiropractor willing to challenge those ideas along with me.

My mood had been fairly stable, too, which has helped with the whole healing process.

I hope to catch up and to continue to participate here.

Love and Healing to All!


WC

[Nammu]

Hello wild coyote, welcome back

[hopeless2015]

I'm glad it's Friday and I'm feeling much better than I was earlier this week. Getting stuff done at work today and it feels good

for some reason, this morning I kept thinking about how much i'd screwed up and how I wish I could just erase everything and start again

and this afternoon.. well, I think my latest thread says it all.

had nothing to do, so

[Coffeee]

I'm sorry to hear you are still having a rough go of it Shattered Sanity. I'm sure your mistakes loom larger than they actually are right now. Lots of hugs and love for you <3

[Coffeee]

I'm doing OK, had some depression hypomania hangover stuff that's still going on. Enjoying the rain which matches my mood. Not doing anything today until tonight, going dancing and to a late movie. No idea how to drag myself into getting ready for that!

I read a series of well-written Honolulu Civil Beat articles last night that essentially portray Oahu as a "financial hellhole". I have long agreed with that assessment, so I'm ratcheting up the gabapentin under the supervision of my pdoc, whom I saw yesterday, to counter my anxiety. You can take me now, Lord, for despite all you have given me, I fear that I cannot afford the future. Reviewing possible exit strategies, my wife will not accompany me on a putative retirement evacuation to Panama. None of this will have been worth worrying about if we provoke Russia into sending us one of their new SS-18s. Everybody have a nice day!

[bioChE]

Bring on the nuke hailstorm from Russia!

Just kidding, that would be a serious drag. It's Friday, so I'll think happier thoughts.

I lost touch with reality last night.

*Triggered* I think is the correct term. I slept 8.5 hours and feel considerably more in touch with the world. Not sure I'm manic but it's still possible.

Embarrassed and confused is also a correct term. I'm better but still very confused on some things. I've decided not to think about them until I'm thinking more rationally. I'm very "evidence" based....I care about the truth and the facts. I should be immune but when I get that way, if the puzzle pieces don't fit, I force them. Don't intentionally....it's just how my mind works. I'm not a scary person and wouldn't harm a fly.

[Fuzzybear]

Welcome back Wild Coyote

[OctobersBlackRose]

Went to the cider mill today, got lost in a corn maze it was fun, cold but fun.

Now home, listening to music even though I have a headache, trying to figure out what to do for my birthday tomorrow if my plans fall through.

[Unrigged64072835]

Went to IKEA and picked up another bookcase/curio cabinet for the rest of our wedding stuff. It used to sit on the fireplace mantle but was displaced when we turned the sunroom into my home office. My husband bought some interesting pottery when we visited a nearby artisan village. Other than that not much has been happening. It was nice to get out of the house for a while.

Welcome back, Wild Coyote. I missed you. Glad the PT is working out for you.

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Went to IKEA and picked up another bookcase/curio cabinet for the rest of our wedding stuff.

Why IKEA Causes So Much Relationship Tension

The stylish, idealized home in the store’s showroom “literally becomes a map of a relationship nightmare,” says one psychologist.

Working hard to keep my head up. Went to book club last night. Had a financial meeting today.

Trying to move faster than depression. Trying to process my Mother's death at the same time. Spending many, many hours sleeping. Nightmares.

[Altarian]

Fighting the demons right now so i don't have another issue like i did last time they went without me. i'm sitting at home alone while my wife and children are visiting her parents for the weekend.

Landed a big contract today, a fat catch that will feed us through the winter and should have me swinging from the vines, but I'm numb to the windfall. My boss is pumped. She leaves for Japan on Monday, and is looking forward to the work when she returns. I shaved and got a haircut, so my Unabomber costume is officially cancelled, as is Halloween itself.

A powerful Japanese family has moved into the neighborhood, and will be attending a barbecue hosted by one of my wife's friends tomorrow, to which we have been invited. Problem is, I can't speak Japanese beyond basic pleasantries when deeply depressed and doped up, and I've already spoken with the new family when I was hypomanic and fluent in June.

My wife has suggested that I discuss military engineering with the henpecked Caucasian husband of the hostess, who is a engineering contractor who works for the army. She has ordered me to stand down from any and all conversation in Japanese, lest I utter something unforgivable or completely nonsensical. Better to keep my mouth shut and seem stupid than open it and leave no question. Who's the henpecked Caucasian now? The Japanese term for 'manic depression' incidentally also means 'a social showstopper' and 'really bad for business'.

[Pikku Myy]

I just want Saturday to be already over.

[Nammu]

Waiting for my daughter to come over with my grandson all dressed up for the downtown holloween party for little kids.

Idk why I'm so depressed, but it's been like that for about a week, right after my psychotic mixed episode went away.

I bought some things to make me happy, I guess. Not really working though. Might be because of this nasty headache.

Slept well....more nightmares but I'm getting used to them and able to shake it off quicker it seems. Still waking up juiced, jazzed, panicked, excited, shakey and a sprinkling of confused to add some flavor. Stir it all together and I'm either manic or having PTSD symptoms. I've got some breaking bad quality meth coursing through my veins....Walter White must have snuck in while I was sleeping and administered it intravenously. If I could only direct all this energy into something productive, I'd thank him for the free drugs but as it stands it's mainly just causing my head and thought to spin like an out of control wheel of freakin fortune spinner.

[Altarian]

Well i got out of bed and went to work today. now to make it the next 24 or so hours until my wife and kids return home. Trying to decide what to eat. Options are Pizza Hut, Taco Johns, Dairy Queen, the casino's restaurant.