[fishin fool]

I'm still hangin around

[bizi]

I just ordered a DNA kit to test my family heritage. excited!
bizi

Originally Posted by bizi

I just ordered a DNA kit to test my family heritage. excited!
bizi

Where from? I want to do the same thing. My husbands mother did it and it was facinating and unexpected. I'd like to know what hidden gems decorate my tree.

[OctobersBlackRose]

Not feeling well today, couldn't hold dinner down, and I'm supposed to eat with my Geodon, oops.

[hopeless2015]

Only worked a half day, have a terrible sinus headache, hopefully the sinus meds well knock it out soon

[scatterbrained04]

Anxiety a little high. Financial worries.

What do you do when you need to work a 2nd job but can't due to being a single parent?

I just had a phone appointment with my doctor and we agreed to keep my medication at its current dose and he agreed that it sounds like things are going in the right direction for me. I have my first appointment with a new therapist coming up on Thursday. I'm nervous but excited and hope we can make some progress together. All good things are happening for the most part. My doctor showed genuine concern over the election results and people's understandable reactions. He validated my concern about my son and said that their hospital was a hotbed of reactions after the results and people were noticeably and understandably distraught. It was a comforting conversation and while he did say he'd like to increase my Haldol he felt we were safe going with the low dose of 5mg for now. It was a good convo.

[Wander]

Saw pdoc yesterday and we agreed to keep my meds as they are; 1250mg Lithium, 30mg Ritalin and PRN CLonazepam (up to 6mg day) and Olanzapine (Zyprexa) - 10 - 30mg day. At the moment I only take 2mg Clonaz a day and 0 - 30mg of Olanzapine depending on agitation and sleeplessness. Once I stablise I will ease up on PRN's and increase Ritalin back to 60mg a day.

Slept 6 hours last night on 10mg of Olanzapine. Feeling good so far, positive and a little euphoric - it is 9.45am here. Have hope today will be a good one. Still not as manic as I was a few days ago. Maybe only hypomanic now. Episode may be coming to an end. Kinda makes me sad as I was off the charts euphoric having all sensory experiences better tham an orgasm (sorry tmi...)

Now Listening to Nina Simone and chilling while I surf the net and talk to you wonderful people.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

Where from? I want to do the same thing. My husbands mother did it and it was facinating and unexpected. I'd like to know what hidden gems decorate my tree.

www.myheritage.com
is the site
bizi
It will take a couple of weeks to get my kit.

[Sad Mermaid]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

Stressing over money. Just realized I only have $20 for groceries this week for 2 people Everything keeps getting more difficult for me financially. I think I'd be a lot happier person if I had plenty of money. Even with bipolar. I need a 2nd job. I want a 2nd job. But I'm a single mom, so I have no one to take care of my son so that I can work one I don't know what to do. I really should quit seeing my pdoc and taking meds to free up some money.

Be careful. You may lose the one job you have if you quit getting the prescriptions that keep you afloat now.

life pretty much dull and empty at the moment

the day starts

it all gets wasted

the day ends

I don't sleep

then it starts again

I need to get my christmas music out this week (I've not done it yet, the horror!). this year I have, among other things, a christmas gift for you from phil spector, which is actually a lovely album with some good arangements on it

I've not decided if I'm doing decorations.. 1 minit I am, and then the next I can't be bothered. though i'm alone for christmas, I guess it would be nice to have something even if it's little

giving my dvd 1 more day to arive (it's all ready 3 days late), and if not, i'm contacting amazon about it. these things happen, only last month I had to get a refund on something that never showed up

spent yesterday evening watching the entire family guy series 16. that was fun!

it's really cool today. not too cold, but a lovely breeze

[Wander]

Gone crazy. Mood tanked but still very manic in some ways. SI strong. Agitated, irritable and thoughts race. Making plans but tomorrow is my sister s bday. Hopefully this mood state eases overnight like it did last time. Was given 10mg Olanzapine to no avail so just given 20mg more and hope to sleep soon tho still wired. Very scared. This darkness is too much for me. I hope the light returns tomorrow.

[Coconutzo]

Originally Posted by Wander

Gone crazy. Mood tanked but still very manic in some ways. SI strong. Agitated, irritable and thoughts race. Making plans but tomorrow is my sister s bday. Hopefully this mood state eases overnight like it did last time. Was given 10mg Olanzapine to no avail so just given 20mg more and hope to sleep soon tho still wired. Very scared. This darkness is too much for me. I hope the light returns tomorrow.

(((Hugs)))
Stay safe.

Originally Posted by Wander

Gone crazy. Mood tanked but still very manic in some ways. SI strong. Agitated, irritable and thoughts race. Making plans but tomorrow is my sister s bday. Hopefully this mood state eases overnight like it did last time. Was given 10mg Olanzapine to no avail so just given 20mg more and hope to sleep soon tho still wired. Very scared. This darkness is too much for me. I hope the light returns tomorrow.

Please be safe. You will be in my thoughts. I'm not really depressed yet but I'm sleeping non stop. So sick.....my energy.....my intestines are inflames from throat to bottom. It's a mess but I'm getting lots of rest and no depressive thoughts other than some circumstantial stuff I have no control over and that hardly qualifies me for depressed but I am going through some heightened emotional stuff though too but I don't think it's mania or maybe the sickness is holding down the mania or perhaps the sickness has me feeling more emotional or all of the above? The options are endless. I hurt bad but my husband purchased me a lovely heated throw and it's been very comforting in my current condition. I'm still sweating but I feel like I'm trying g to sweat something out so don't mind and the heated blanket feels so good on my weary bones.

Wander I'm just getting up now -- rest assured you will be in my thoughts all through the day! Stay safe.

[Unrigged64072835]

I hope you're staying safe, Wander.

Very slow day. Didn't get much done. Slept a lot. Not feeling good and have been a bit cranky at some of my friends.

[OctobersBlackRose]

Managed to keep dinner down today. Finished the dishes, now listening to music to distract me from everything at the moment.

[Moose72]

At the mall with daughter and two of her friends . No money for a Starbucks. Darn. I don't even know what I did all day besides blog and talk with my friend Caleb.

[jtassar93]

Felt extremely tired all day from my new seroquel. At least I finally slept! Made a phone call by myself! Still bothered by hallucinations and delusions. SI is still there as well as SH (I didn't want to say it, hope you know what I mean) overall a bleh day.

[hopeless2015]

Stayed home with a terrible sinus headache again, hope I'm not getting a sinus infection....miserable. I've taken half a box of severe sinus medication since yesterday afternoon

[pirilin]

I'm here.

Stomach is still screwed up....I think it's a combo of the puddings I've been eating, the Geodon which caused diarrhea and now the Haldol is causing constiptation I fear. Just. Can't. Win.

Besides the stomach and wide spread pain I'm suffering currently my mood is good. I have goals and plans and see a brighter future where I can channel my challenges into triumphs. Use my weaknesses as strengths. There has got to be a way. Like I need my own special blend of reverse Kryponite.

it is so cold today!

must be the coldest day in autumn so far

I am listening to some really, really, crazy music

a group from japan called toy-box who, apparently.. well, I don't know what they do

but their music is sort of jumpy and fast

[hopeless2015]

Feeling better today, felt like **** the last 2 days. Back at work, now to catch up again

[gayleggg]

I'm tired of feeling depressed. Sometimes I think about stopping my mood stabilizer in hopes of mania just for a little while so I can feel alive for a change.

This depression is really getting to me. I don't feel like doing anything or going anyplace. I just lay on the couch and watch tv. Not much fun.