[Nammu]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Just had to fire this off...I'm at work, completely overwhelmed, totally stressed and wanna cry!

Don't forget to breathe

As some of you know I battle daily horrible chronic pain. Most people just do t understand what it's like. I used to try to explain it but I've come to realize that unless you have it, you can't possibly fathom what it's like. It's pure hell. I'm looked down on for something I can't fix. I'm treated like I would get better if I just did more. People are so cruel with their judgements....if they knew how cruel they would stop but everyone walks around thinking they work harder and have it harder than the next person I think. I'm sorry I'm whining....I'm just so tired of it. I woke up in horrific pain....I felt like I was being tortured on a cellular level....every square inch hurts, inside and outside....even the hair growing from my scalp hurts. I'm feeling defeated.....how am I going to make it through this life? One day or moment at a time I'm told. I'm just so, so tired. I'm grateful to have my sanity but the torture never ends. I feel a zillion years old. My body has turned against me. At least I have my mind today....I'm trying to look on the bright side but it hurts!!!

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

My best friend since childhood has been cheated on in the past and now doesn't trust any man, she also always has to have a man in her life

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

As some of you know I battle daily horrible chronic pain. Most people just do t understand what it's like. I used to try to explain it but I've come to realize that unless you have it, you can't possibly fathom what it's like. It's pure hell. I'm looked down on for something I can't fix. I'm treated like I would get better if I just did more. People are so cruel with their judgements....if they knew how cruel they would stop but everyone walks around thinking they work harder and have it harder than the next person I think. I'm sorry I'm whining....I'm just so tired of it. I woke up in horrific pain....I felt like I was being tortured on a cellular level....every square inch hurts, inside and outside....even the hair growing from my scalp hurts. I'm feeling defeated.....how am I going to make it through this life? One day or moment at a time I'm told. I'm just so, so tired. I'm grateful to have my sanity but the torture never ends. I feel a zillion years old. My body has turned against me. At least I have my mind today....I'm trying to look on the bright side but it hurts!!!

It's a tough road you travel, I know.
I am so sorry that you, too, have this challenge.
I think you are right, people really don't understand unless they've had the daily severe chronic pain experience. Unfortunately, there is a lot of judgement. Some days, I cannot take it. It's too much pain.
I, too, wonder how I am going to make it through.

(((((( ElsaMars ))))))

You have my respect and admiration,
WC

[hopeless2015]

Elsa and WC I'm sorry you both suffer so, sending hugs. I wish there was some way to make you both feel better!

[Naynay99]

Doing okay.
Had a decent in service day today.
Mood is good I think.
Just living day by day, hoping fiercely that the D doesn't come back, and impatiently waiting for something spectacular to happen to shake up the monotony of my current life.
Sending you all positive thoughts.

[liveforsummer]

Elsa and WC I'm so sorry for your suffering and if we could only all show our fellow human compassion instead of judgement it would truly be a better world.
Be strong

[Unrigged64072835]

Hugs for those who are suffering.

Another rough day. I turned in two of my homework assignments. The last one is rather long so I'll save that for tomorrow. Laid down at 11 AM because of anxiety and didn't wake up until 2:30 PM. Missed making cookies, taking a shower, and prepping the roast chicken for dinner. Thankfully I had enough stuff for another recipe so I did that instead. It was strange because I don't usually fall asleep. Forgot to check my blood sugar as well.

Moods are still down but I'm trying not to beat myself up.

[liveforsummer]

Made it through the work day. Starting to get anxious as next 2 weeks will be busy as coworker away so picking up some of her work, have guests coming for the weekend and will be hosting a party too. Last time I took a lot on I ended up mixed (though didn't realize that's what that was at the time) and in my worst depression of my life.

[scatterbrained04]

My day has been ok. A little less stressful, as no patients in office today. Offered a job to someone, and they accepted and start Monday. Had the time to teach another new hire some things. Kept losing track of what I was working on today. Not sure if I should be concerned or if it's just because I kept being interrupted.

Have been taking my Latuda at dinner last couple days, but I got the restless leg thing last night. So back to bedtime it goes. Depression seems to be getting a lot better with the Trileptal and Latuda increases. So yay!

[lilypup]

Just a really bad day. Didn't sleep at all and just couldn't get started today. Stayed in bed and on the couch today. Sort of a lost day.

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

As some of you know I battle daily horrible chronic pain. Most people just do t understand what it's like. I used to try to explain it but I've come to realize that unless you have it, you can't possibly fathom what it's like. It's pure hell. I'm looked down on for something I can't fix. I'm treated like I would get better if I just did more. People are so cruel with their judgements....if they knew how cruel they would stop but everyone walks around thinking they work harder and have it harder than the next person I think. I'm sorry I'm whining....I'm just so tired of it. I woke up in horrific pain....I felt like I was being tortured on a cellular level....every square inch hurts, inside and outside....even the hair growing from my scalp hurts. I'm feeling defeated.....how am I going to make it through this life? One day or moment at a time I'm told. I'm just so, so tired. I'm grateful to have my sanity but the torture never ends. I feel a zillion years old. My body has turned against me. At least I have my mind today....I'm trying to look on the bright side but it hurts!!!

I have it too with my back. I'm so sorry you have it too. Hugs. I even hired someone to come clean today even though I really can't afford it bc I'm hurting more lately bc I've been more active the last couple of weeks. My brother is coming here from California next week and I just couldn't let him see what a mess my apt is. And you add on the bp and depressions we deal with, it's so hard.

My sister's are mad that I'm spending money on a house keeper. But I've been waking up in so much pain I see no other way. I only have ibuprofen and muscle relaxer for the pain. They help a little. I could probably get hydros again but I don't want to have to need them. It just sucks. Hugs to you Elsa and wc!

[pirilin]

I'm not doing well. Terrible anxiety. Like never before. I think I tapered the wellbutrin too fast. Please, have me in your prayers. Thank you.

[Moose72]

Can you un taper it for a bit so you feel better?

Originally Posted by pirilin

I'm not doing well. Terrible anxiety. Like never before. I think I tapered the wellbutrin too fast. Please, have me in your prayers. Thank you.

You are in my prayers Prillin. Please take good care....you are special and deserve better. (((Hugs)))

Originally Posted by rose1985

I have it too with my back. I'm so sorry you have it too. Hugs. I even hired someone to come clean today even though I really can't afford it bc I'm hurting more lately bc I've been more active the last couple of weeks. My brother is coming here from California next week and I just couldn't let him see what a mess my apt is. And you add on the bp and depressions we deal with, it's so hard.

My sister's are mad that I'm spending money on a house keeper. But I've been waking up in so much pain I see no other way. I only have ibuprofen and muscle relaxer for the pain. They help a little. I could probably get hydros again but I don't want to have to need them. It just sucks. Hugs to you Elsa and wc!

I'm so sorry Rose. I'm deeply sorry. If I had it to do over again I would have had a housekeeper weekly when I was working. It might have saved me years of pain and torment. I was too embarrassed to admit I needed one. I should have been proud to employ someone as should you. Tell your sibling you are feeding the economy and employing someone....you should be so proud of that! My inlaws got us a housekeeper recently as both my husband and I are disabled and have a hard time with scrubbing the bathtub and floors. It was really nice of them but I also felt judged by the housekeeper and they seemed to do things to intentionally make me feel worse which was less than ideal. I imagine they did so because my inlaws are technically their employer, not me. But beggars can't be choosers and I'm grateful for the help, even if it comes with a tad bit of an attitude. (((Hugs)))

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by lilypup

Just a really bad day. Didn't sleep at all and just couldn't get started today. Stayed in bed and on the couch today. Sort of a lost day.

I'm having a bad day as well. I hope we both feel better tomorrow. Thinking of you.

[bizi]

Love the forum!
getting ready to do some laundry and practice my yukulele and then do my exercises before bed.
bizi

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by pirilin

I'm not doing well. Terrible anxiety. Like never before. I think I tapered the wellbutrin too fast. Please, have me in your prayers. Thank you.

You are in my prayers. I hope you feel better soon. Best wishes.

[liveforsummer]

Good night all, sleep well and I hope everyone has a better tomorrow.

[lola0987]

New job is great. Got compliments on how I was doing. Way less stressed. Think I made right choice to quit old job. Now I just have to finish working at old job. Feel good there is an end in sight.

[xRavenx]

I'm feeling sick. My ongoing sinus problems make it even worse, and I have so much congestion that everything is dripping to my stomach. I really can't keep missing work though. When I feel this way, my meds actually give me a bad feeling. For instance, I get dizzier on Seroquel during these times. Hopefully tomorrow won't be that bad.

[Cocosurviving]

My day was decent. I slept in then ran some errands with one of my daughters. I took my mom a birthday card.

The woman I hired to clean, stole all my meds! I filed a police report. I'm not gonna sleep tonight. This is awful! I need my meds! I keep them in a Ziploc bag and hid them in my sons room. They're gone.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by rose1985

The woman I hired to clean, stole all my meds! I filed a police report. I'm not gonna sleep tonight. This is awful! I need my meds! I keep them in a Ziploc bag and hid them in my sons room. They're gone.

Oh no!

I'm at a loss for words!
Damn!


WC