[Moose72]

I don't think I'll make it to Friday Lunch this week. N2 has a dr's appointment at 10:45 and lunch is at 11:30. Might work. We'll see. I'll just be late.

[hopeless2015]

Up, showered and getting ready for work, I really wanted to just stay in bed but I also don't want to go down that path of staying in bed for days. So off to work I go in a few. I might have to take an extra anxiety pill to get myself out of the house but whatever works.

[Moose72]

N3 missed the bus again. Dragging his feet. I'm still tired after last night. No rest for the wicked. Gotta take N2 to the dr. *sigh*

[bizi]

slept ok but hips still bother my sleep using a pillow between my legs. We need a new bed, ours is 16 years old. I am thinking a number bed, very expensive but I think I could use a firmer mattress and hubby wants a pillow top like soft one like we have now. So a number bed is appropriate.
Increasing my seroquel as we taper off the klonipin.
Down to .25mg of klonipin, it has been an easy taper so far, keep fingers crossed. Got the results of my DNA genetic testing. She prescribed a folate RX as a result of the tests. She said it may improve my mood as it helps the other meds work better. Will take it for 3 months and see if it does. At $40 a month, it is rather expensive if it doesn't help.
bizi

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bizi

slept ok but hips still bother my sleep using a pillow between my legs. We need a new bed, ours is 16 years old. I am thinking a number bed, very expensive but I think I could use a firmer mattress and hubby wants a pillow top like soft one like we have now. So a number bed is appropriate.
Increasing my seroquel as we taper off the klonipin.
Down to .25mg of klonipin, it has been an easy taper so far, keep fingers crossed. Got the results of my DNA genetic testing. She prescribed a folate RX as a result of the tests. She said it may improve my mood as it helps the other meds work better. Will take it for 3 months and see if it does. At $40 a month, it is rather expensive if it doesn't help.
bizi

Sounds like you have the MTHFR gene mutation. It's important you supplement folate. If you want to learn more about it, just search "MTHFR."
There has been a lot of discussion on this at NeuroTalk as well. I also have this gene mutation. Many do.
Enjoy your vacation, bizi!

WC

P.S. I love the "Sleep Numbers" beds. I think they are a good investment.
There are all ranges of prices. I am most comfortable on air mattresses.

[liveforsummer]

Just got in from a proper run which I haven't done in months, showered and ready to go. Starting to get that anxious niggling feeling as soo much to do today and this weekend. Off to grocery store shortly then will start the weekend food prep while trying to stop myself from going off the rails!
Breath.....

[Wild Coyote]

One of my MI diagnoses is c-PTSD. I was triggered a couple of days ago when reading on other forums. (This is one of the reasons I stick mainly with this forum.) I've been chilling for a couple of days, waiting for my brain to cool off.

Love and Healing to All!


WC

[gina_re]

I have accepted my bipolar diagnosis. It made so much sense to what I had experiencing. But lately, I question it because both my doctors have failed me. Is there something wrong with me that I cannot see? Why do I feel like they don't believe me and can't help me? What do I have to do to prove that I am in emotional pain. I don't even know which one I need more, my pdoc or tdoc. I'm just lost and want to disappear. I'm beyond frustrated.

[hopeless2015]

Hugs WC!
I'm glad I got up and out of bed this morning. Still feeling a little down but really not as bad as yesterday. I've had some situational stuff going on that I think is causing this right now. I'll push through this today and then I have the weekend

[Moose72]

I guess I can put my fears on hold for the weekend. Maybe. Thinking I need a T again. Wish I had Klonopin.

[jacky8807]

been making sure I get lots of good sleep to recalibrate.
I know one thing for sure.....
I will never
ever
EVER allow somebody to make me feel bad about myself again
that person even made me feel guilty about my psychotic break years,ago

On God's green earth NEVER AGAIN! and it feels good!

[jacky8807]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

One of my MI diagnoses is c-PTSD. I was triggered a couple of days ago when reading on other forums. (This is one of the reasons I stick mainly with this forum.) I've been chilling for a couple of days, waiting for my brain to cool off.

Love and Healing to All!


WC

sorry you got triggered Wild C.
stick with us cool kids over here!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by jacky8807

been making sure I get lots of good sleep to recalibrate.
I know one thing for sure.....
I will never
ever
EVER allow somebody to make me feel bad about myself again
that person even made me feel guilty about my psychotic break years,ago

On God's green earth NEVER AGAIN! and it feels good!

It's a tough one! We all feel hurt and many of us feel bad about ourselves when we are attacked like that. It can be mind-bending and heart-breaking.

I do think we can get to a place where we don't take it on from unfair critics.
We get to where we see them for who they are. They have to be miserable within to have it pour out of them so readily. They are trying to make themselves feel better by spewing their misery out onto others.

Yes, you are wonderful, just as you are!


WC

[liveforsummer]

Ok so I'm procrastinating with my to do list! Still lots to do but having a mini break. This mornings jitters got really bad at the grocery store, felt borderline panic attack and haven't had that in years. Talked myself out of it and feeling more in control again phew. This weekend is not going to be about me its all about our families new grads

[Unrigged64072835]

Hugs to those that need them.

Didn't do much today. Reading books on my Kindle app. I did do some more discussion posts on my poetry class forum so hopefully that will please the instructor. Feel like writing but not sure what. Too late to do laundry so I'll do it tomorrow. Did get the dishes put away, though. Daughter is working late tonight so may do a dinner just for us. Or my husband will.

Mood is kind of flat. Taking the extra Artane may be slowing me down. I don't have the face twitching as much.

[Nammu]

Feeling bored and antsy, there's nothing I want to do tho. If I had all the money I could want I still don't know what I'd do. Don't feel like watching tv or reading or going anyplace just .......just.......just.......bored and antsy. Hmmm playing board games that sounds like fun, but need people for that. Maybe go for a helicopter ride...yeah that sounds fun.

[Moose72]

I know what to do. So much fixing on this apartment- they found several old work orders here- I'm taking a nap before I have to get my daughter from drivers Ed. Left over pizza for dinner. Can't stand the idea of grocery shopping even though we desperately need too.

[liveforsummer]

still procrastinating...face timed my mom.....ate some ice cream...ok I will not go on my lap top until I've vacuumed, made the salsa dip and cleaned up the kitchen....

[pirilin]

I'm feeling very lonely. I only have my wife now, and she works the whole day.
I'm bored with everything. I''m getting high blood pressure. Next step is depression, which already have. The last step is, the last step. Sorry. I needed to vent. God Bless.

[Moose72]

Ok at least I took out the garbage. My stepdad is coming over now to help with the hoses and washing machine. N3 is going to help too. I did get a bit of a nap. Wasn't satisfying though. I have to get n2 from driver's ed soon too.

[hopeless2015]

30 minutes left of the workday, I'm shot for the day but I can piddle my way through the last half hour.

[Moose72]

It's 5. I have to get n2 soon. My nap didn't help so I want to go to bed but bedtimes in 3 hours. Hardly a point. I'd be up late then.

And I'm mad. Reading about others here on gabapentin and Klonopin and knowing the bad anxieties I've gone through with no help at all why shouldn't I ask my Pdoc for one of those? Because she'd think I was drug seeking? Meh.

[liveforsummer]

I'm done, no energy left other than to make supper. This evening will be time well spent with Netflix....Blood Line? House of Cards? Homeland? Decisions, decisions...have a good evening all

[Nammu]

I found somethings to do. Fargo needed returning to the library and mum needed milk( she drinks cow milk and I drink soy milk, so yeah she needed it. ) forgot the bridge is out and had to take detours when there's a perfectly good back way that works better.

while I was meandering around the store I remembered we needed pancake mix, syrup and other high processed bad for you food. Did get some salmon though.....that was healthy.....kind of. It's so amazing to me that all those people and the traffic doesn't bother me at all...stability rocks some times.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

I'm done, no energy left other than to make supper. This evening will be time well spent with Netflix....Blood Line? House of Cards? Homeland? Decisions, decisions...have a good evening all

I haven't watched Netflix in a while. I had been watching The (American) Office. They sure had a lot of episodes.