[bizi]

jenn, is there another drum circle that you can go to? or are they doing it some more?It sounds like such a good experience for you.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[Blue_Bird]

Took a shower, have Christmas scented wax melting (I think it's mistletoe or something, I have a few different kinds) and reading

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Went to my last drum circle tonight. We did a meditation where we visualized going to our favorite nature spot and met a 90 year old wise woman who turned out to be the 90 year old us. What questions would you ask her? What messages would she impart to you? It was a great experience. Mine told me I’m going to be okay, I’ve got this and I’m going to make it. It was cathartic.

Made mom and myself healthy smoothies this morning for breakfast.

Using designated worry times which is keeping me from freaking out totally while my daughter is incommunicado on a camping trip to the remote part of Cumberland Island.

The drumming circle and the exercise you have mentioned are really cool!
I have participated in both. I miss the drumming circle.
I hope you can go back or can find another experience like this somewhere!
It is truly very cathartic!

I also use designated worry times. Doing this has helped so much and has trained me to not worry so much. I now worry so much less.

Much Love,

WC

Going to my therapist today (it has been a long time--my last appointment was October 1st). I do need to go. I have been having a lot of paranoia since my family started fighting last week about what to do about our son during the holidays. We have made up. I have figured out what to do but the whole incident makes me have doubts about my husband. I need both therapy and designated worry times in a safe place. Sometimes my husband hates when I worry about our son. If I say my worries out loud, he will say I shouldn't see our son because I am not capable of helping him. I have to be diligent about taking medications in order to keep my cool with our son but I can't stop helping him because as far as I can tell--I am the only one helping him. We didn't talk on the phone or speak yesterday--now I am worried about him.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Nowinners

Going to my therapist today (it has been a long time--my last appointment was October 1st). I do need to go. I have been having a lot of paranoia since my family started fighting last week about what to do about our son during the holidays. We have made up. I have figured out what to do but the whole incident makes me have doubts about my husband. I need both therapy and designated worry times in a safe place. Sometimes my husband hates when I worry about our son. If I say my worries out loud, he will say I shouldn't see our son because I am not capable of helping him. I have to be diligent about taking medications in order to keep my cool with our son but I can't stop helping him because as far as I can tell--I am the only one helping him. We didn't talk on the phone or speak yesterday--now I am worried about him.

Of course you want to see, and be in contact with, your son!
I really don't feel your H is being realistic.

I'd had a very troubled brother. I talked with him every day for many years. My mom struggled a bit when my stepfather would get after her for being involved with my brother. What's a mother to do? She'd finally just did what she'd felt led to do anyway. (My brother is now deceased and although staying in touch was stressful at times, I do not regret being there for him.)

I am sorry you are in this bind.
I hope your H will come to accept your need to be a mother and a friend to your son.


WC

basic hygiene

keeping hydrated

basic hygiene

watched muppet's christmas carol

showered

basic hygiene

[Blue_Bird]

Last night I was feeling really panicky so I put on my scented wax melter, and colored while listening to music and chewing peppermint gum. It was helpful to keep me from spacing out into a complete panic attack.

*Yesterday, cleaned room (projects were getting a bit out of hand) and did some drawing. Watched and listened to comedy (Eddie Izzard, Rowan Atkinson).
*Today, took shower, picked up a super-cheap Downton Abbey dvd to have on hand, then got in a good walk and ate breakfast out(!) at a local punk bar. Delicious! Now on way to grocery store (eh, not so fun, but I only need a couple things. Maybe even something special to eat on xmas. Will be by self, in hedonistic mode, lol).

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

*Yesterday, cleaned room (projects were getting a bit out of hand) and did some drawing. Watched and listened to comedy (Eddie Izzard, Rowan Atkinson).
*Today, took shower, picked up a super-cheap Downton Abbey dvd to have on hand, then got in a good walk and ate breakfast out(!) at a local punk bar. Delicious! Now on way to grocery store (eh, not so fun, but I only need a couple things. Maybe even something special to eat on xmas. Will be by self, in hedonistic mode, lol).

I also enjoy Downton Abbey. I have watched it all of the way through at least twice. A part of me would like to be alone (or without such a crowd) on the holiday. I hope you enjoy the holiday!

WC

[Blue_Bird]

I called my sister to talk last night when I wasn't feeling good, I think that's the first time I've ever called anyone or reached out somewhere to talk on the phone for something like that. Normally I just stay by myself and try to deal with it because I don't want to bother people

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I also enjoy Downton Abbey. I have watched it all of the way through at least twice. A part of me would like to be alone (or without such a crowd) on the holiday. I hope you enjoy the holiday!

WC

Yeah, I've seen the series at least 4 times through. Beautiful. I've got a handful of highly re-watchable dvds. I was actually hoping to find some more Eddie Izzard. (Not even close, eh?(!) )

The holiday. Hmm. Well, I'll have the house to myself, so surely there will be singing and loudish music. I wouldn't mind a *little* something going on, but this is what it is. That's fine.

basic hygiene

actually came on here today when I was upset, not take my anger out on other things (which could end up being less healthy)

hygiene

tried out my new beyonce perfume (though I don't like it much)

[Blue_Bird]

I went to sleep even though I didn't want to because I know it's important for stability

My diet has been severely awful these past five days. Today for lunch, instead of some high fat lunch options I ate an Italian vegetable soup with barley. I'll confess that I also ate some cookies, but at least I ate some veggies.

My parrot has been especially happy lately. I've played with him a lot. That makes me happier.

[Wild Coyote]

I am very tired after hosting a crowd for Christmas Day!

Allowed myself to rest once house guests had left.

Will likely go to bed early tonight.

Love to All!

WC

[downandlonely]

Went to the gym and exercised for a bit.

got nails repainted blue.

hygiene

[Wild Coyote]

Completed all basic hygiene.

Exhausted and in pain. Resting today except for getting household meals.
Have been eating very healthy despite lots of sweets in the house.


WC

[Sunflower123]

Relaxing with a good book today after all the holiday hoopla. I have my soft blanket and socks and my dog curled up next to me.

I showered and even put deodorant on.

[TheSeaCat]

Went to work
Went to doctor
Had lunch meeting without bosses hand to hold
Went hiking with M and Bear
Came home took a shower
Best of all I get to see my hair stylist tomorrow after work for touch up