Last night I saw Bradley Cooper's "A Star is Born". He did an amazing job! Not only did he act in it, but he directed and produced it and wrote a lot of the music for it, some on his own and some with Lady Gaga. Lady Gaga was amazing, too! Obviously she wrote many songs and she was incredible in the role, especially considering it was her first major acting role. You couldn't help but love their characters, and I thought the music was outstanding. Obviously there are some emotionally charged and sad parts to the movie. At least one possible major trigger.

We had wanted to go to a matinee performance of the above, but it was mostly sold out. We had to go to the 7 pm showing. They had it playing in two of their cinema auditoriums, it is that popular. I have a rough time staying out that late because it forces me to take my evening medications late at night. I took them at about 10 pm instead of my usual 7 pm. I couldn't get to sleep until 2:30 am, which made it difficult to get up at my usual time.

Before the movie, they showed previews of two other upcoming music-oriented movies. One is a movie about Freddie Mercury of Queen and the other about Elton John. The Freddie Mercury movie looks particularly appealing.

[xRavenx]

Hi everyone, it's been a while.

I've been experiencing a lot of anxiety, and everyone in my life seems pretty stressed, which makes me even more so. My brother has been having a lot of problems and is going to the Psychiatrist for an evaluation today. He might have Bipolar and possible BDD. I've been doing the best I can to be there for him, while still caring for myself.
I had to take my Klonopin today, called my pdoc about some medication concerns, but then texted her and told her that I'm just really stressed, but she doesn't need to get back to me. Anyway, I'm probably going to start posting more again.
Hugs to everyone.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Last night I saw Bradley Cooper's "A Star is Born". He did an amazing job! Not only did he act in it, but he directed and produced it and wrote a lot of the music for it, some on his own and some with Lady Gaga. Lady Gaga was amazing, too! Obviously she wrote many songs and she was incredible in the role, especially considering it was her first major acting role. You couldn't help but love their characters, and I thought the music was outstanding. Obviously there are some emotionally charged and sad parts to the movie. At least one possible major trigger.

We had wanted to go to a matinee performance of the above, but it was mostly sold out. We had to go to the 7 pm showing. They had it playing in two of their cinema auditoriums, it is that popular. I have a rough time staying out that late because it forces me to take my evening medications late at night. I took them at about 10 pm instead of my usual 7 pm. I couldn't get to sleep until 2:30 am, which made it difficult to get up at my usual time.

Before the movie, they showed previews of two other upcoming music-oriented movies. One is a movie about Freddie Mercury of Queen and the other about Elton John. The Freddie Mercury movie looks particularly appealing.

Thanks so much for sharing about these! I am glad you'd enjoyed "A Star is Born." I am hoping to see all three, which is unusual as I generally have great difficulty finding movies I might like. I have been awaiting the Freddie Mercury film and I hope it's close to the truth about his life.

I also pay a price for delaying my night-time meds. Sorry about that! I am hoping it was worth it to see the film!

Thanks again!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by xRavenx

Hi everyone, it's been a while.

I've been experiencing a lot of anxiety, and everyone in my life seems pretty stressed, which makes me even more so. My brother has been having a lot of problems and is going to the Psychiatrist for an evaluation today. He might have Bipolar and possible BDD. I've been doing the best I can to be there for him, while still caring for myself.
I had to take my Klonopin today, called my pdoc about some medication concerns, but then texted her and told her that I'm just really stressed, but she doesn't need to get back to me. Anyway, I'm probably going to start posting more again.
Hugs to everyone.

(((((( xRavenx ))))))

Great to hear from you!
Sorry you've been feeling anxious.
How nice of you to support your brother.
You have been missed!
I hope to see you around!

WC

[xRavenx]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

(((((( xRavenx ))))))

Great to hear from you!
Sorry you've been feeling anxious.
How nice of you to support your brother.
You have been missed!
I hope to see you around!

WC

Thanks, WC! It's nice to be back, and I missed you and everyone!

[scatterbrained04]

Mood has been staying ok for the most part.

Kind of have some stuff going on pertaining to work and my happiness there. Upset about some stuff but I don't know if my emotions are legit or I'm just being a baby or what. Wish I had someone to vent to for an opinion, but I just don't.

[Wild Coyote]

It's cold and wet here today.
I am cuddled up under warm blankets and don't want to be cold again today.

A friend's message to me today really cheered me up! It had a reference to specific music. I love music! Thanks, dear friend!

Never under estimate how much good we can do by sending a quick message/text/email/call to someone we care about! It can make a huge difference!

I hope everyone is comfortable and enjoying the day!
Love to All!


WC

[TheSeaCat]

Finally made a stupid doctor's appointment for this stupid indigestion, granted all that I did was push a follow up a week. This caused a giant fight in the house between my father and I. He
doesn't understand my diagnosis and why so many different medications haven't worked for me.

He thinks I should just have the doctor put me on a heartburn medication instead of completely going of the Seroquel. Meanwhile I want to be on less medication not more medication. He thinks I am nitpicking the medications so I can just switch and try them all so I can put off finding a job. I want a job, but at the same time I don't want side effects or I want mild side effects that eventually go away. I couldn't handle muscle spasms and I certainly do not want to eat half a bottle of tums in a week and have bad belching like a frat guy. He thinks I'd be massively stupid to switch my medication. Meanwhile I feel depressed when he makes me feel like this is all my fault because I can't get along with my medication. He even went so far to say I might be exaggerating my side effects to make them seem worse than they are.

I want nothing more to go back to work, but I can't realistically go back to work without finding something that works. He doesn't understand that I'm still not right and every little thing upsets me here lately. I'm just irritated with everything here lately and I feel like I'm a thorn in my doctor's side. It feels like I do good for a month then the next month I feel like I've taken three steps back with everything. I'm also sick of this anxiety ever since those three panic attacks my Buspar feels like it's stopped working.

Sorry about my rant, I'm just really frustrated with this disease and how only the boyfriend and this forum is on my side. My father just refuses to listen to us, and refuses to even do a quick google search about Bipolar. He's never heard of a mixed episode and refuses to believe me about the medications and how a lot of people have to try a lot of medication to find one that works. It's hard because I can't find a psychiatrist that wants me and the my family doc is basically acting like my psychiatrist, and to make matters worse if I ever did find a psychiatrist that wanted me, my father doesn't think my disease is serious enough to evolve a psych. I'm just exhausted with him.

I hope everyone is doing well.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Finally made a stupid doctor's appointment for this stupid indigestion, granted all that I did was push a follow up a week. This caused a giant fight in the house between my father and I. He
doesn't understand my diagnosis and why so many different medications haven't worked for me.

He thinks I should just have the doctor put me on a heartburn medication instead of completely going of the Seroquel. Meanwhile I want to be on less medication not more medication. He thinks I am nitpicking the medications so I can just switch and try them all so I can put off finding a job. I want a job, but at the same time I don't want side effects or I want mild side effects that eventually go away. I couldn't handle muscle spasms and I certainly do not want to eat half a bottle of tums in a week and have bad belching like a frat guy. He thinks I'd be massively stupid to switch my medication. Meanwhile I feel depressed when he makes me feel like this is all my fault because I can't get along with my medication. He even went so far to say I might be exaggerating my side effects to make them seem worse than they are.

I want nothing more to go back to work, but I can't realistically go back to work without finding something that works. He doesn't understand that I'm still not right and every little thing upsets me here lately. I'm just irritated with everything here lately and I feel like I'm a thorn in my doctor's side. It feels like I do good for a month then the next month I feel like I've taken three steps back with everything. I'm also sick of this anxiety ever since those three panic attacks my Buspar feels like it's stopped working.

Sorry about my rant, I'm just really frustrated with this disease and how only the boyfriend and this forum is on my side. My father just refuses to listen to us, and refuses to even do a quick google search about Bipolar. He's never heard of a mixed episode and refuses to believe me about the medications and how a lot of people have to try a lot of medication to find one that works. It's hard because I can't find a psychiatrist that wants me and the my family doc is basically acting like my psychiatrist, and to make matters worse if I ever did find a psychiatrist that wanted me, my father doesn't think my disease is serious enough to evolve a psych. I'm just exhausted with him.

I hope everyone is doing well.

I am very sorry your father refuses to understand your trials.

So many people do not understand! It's tough to find a way to educate others enough for them to be supportive to us.

Stand on your own Truth, no matter what. You have a good idea of how you are doing and what you need.

Vent away! We are here to support you!


WC

[~Christina]

I do indeed think I am sliding neatly into a depression.

I want off my meds ( won’t quit but I want to )

I finally got out of bed today and fought all day to not go back. Just been online or vaguely watching TV.

I see my Pdoc next month , I’m not really wanting a Med change as we went up and down a few months ago and I went towards mania quick

Balancing act ! I feel like I ride a unicycle, wobble back and forth , not really going anywhere , sigh.

I’m still posting and selfcare also my house is clean so I’m not too awful bad ..... yet.

Love you Bipolar

[Pookyl]

My head is quieter so I’ve lowered my Seroquel by 100mg which means it’s back down to the dosage I’m normally on. I’m keeping an eye on things because I’m doing a couple of things that are setting off a few alarm bells. I would say what and why except I can’t get the trigger box to work - everything in the box remains visible.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Last night I saw Bradley Cooper's "A Star is Born". He did an amazing job! Not only did he act in it, but he directed and produced it and wrote a lot of the music for it, some on his own and some with Lady Gaga. Lady Gaga was amazing, too! Obviously she wrote many songs and she was incredible in the role, especially considering it was her first major acting role. You couldn't help but love their characters, and I thought the music was outstanding. Obviously there are some emotionally charged and sad parts to the movie. At least one possible major trigger.

We had wanted to go to a matinee performance of the above, but it was mostly sold out. We had to go to the 7 pm showing. They had it playing in two of their cinema auditoriums, it is that popular. I have a rough time staying out that late because it forces me to take my evening medications late at night. I took them at about 10 pm instead of my usual 7 pm. I couldn't get to sleep until 2:30 am, which made it difficult to get up at my usual time.

Before the movie, they showed previews of two other upcoming music-oriented movies. One is a movie about Freddie Mercury of Queen and the other about Elton John. The Freddie Mercury movie looks particularly appealing.

I was on the fence about seeing that movie but now I’m in. Thanks for letting us know how good it is.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I do indeed think I am sliding neatly into a depression.

I want off my meds ( won’t quit but I want to )

I finally got out of bed today and fought all day to not go back. Just been online or vaguely watching TV.

I see my Pdoc next month , I’m not really wanting a Med change as we went up and down a few months ago and I went towards mania quick

Balancing act ! I feel like I ride a unicycle, wobble back and forth , not really going anywhere , sigh.

I’m still posting and selfcare also my house is clean so I’m not too awful bad ..... yet.

Love you Bipolar

I hope you are able to pull out of it and feel better soon. Sending positive vibes.

We could be neighbors...I’m from Tennessee as well.

Best wishes.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Pookyl

My head is quieter so I’ve lowered my Seroquel by 100mg which means it’s back down to the dosage I’m normally on. I’m keeping an eye on things because I’m doing a couple of things that are setting off a few alarm bells. I would say what and why except I can’t get the trigger box to work - everything in the box remains visible.

I’m glad you are keeping an eye on the things causing alarm bells. Please take good care of yourself and if you need to vent or talk about the triggers please feel free to DM me. I’m not easily triggered. Best wishes and supportive vibes coming your way.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I hope you are able to pull out of it and feel better soon. Sending positive vibes.


We could be neighbors...I’m from Tennessee as well.


Best wishes.

Thanks so much !!!

I’m south of Nashville, finally set to get some Fall weather , terrible heat too long !

[Moose72]

I know im depressed now. I just cant do this. Today i came home to paperwork on my door from the landlord. I have two other sets to do. Im so overwhelmed!!! And now Noah missed piano AND play practice by refusing to go! Hes going to be fired from the play Im sure. This is the last week of rehearsals too. hes just laying in bed and wont say more than one syllable words. Im at my wit's end!! My case manager said shed help me with the paperwork but so far she hasnt called me back. I want to go IP but that would probably make everything worse. I mean look at my ******* signature- all those episose close together! Im at a breaking point.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Thanks so much !!!

I’m south of Nashville, finally set to get some Fall weather , terrible heat too long !

That’s you and me both. I’m in a city on the TN-GA line and am fed up with this heat.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Pookyl

My head is quieter so I’ve lowered my Seroquel by 100mg which means it’s back down to the dosage I’m normally on. I’m keeping an eye on things because I’m doing a couple of things that are setting off a few alarm bells. I would say what and why except I can’t get the trigger box to work - everything in the box remains visible.

The trigger code does that to me too a lot.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I do indeed think I am sliding neatly into a depression.

I want off my meds ( won’t quit but I want to )

I finally got out of bed today and fought all day to not go back. Just been online or vaguely watching TV.

I see my Pdoc next month , I’m not really wanting a Med change as we went up and down a few months ago and I went towards mania quick

Balancing act ! I feel like I ride a unicycle, wobble back and forth , not really going anywhere , sigh.

I’m still posting and selfcare also my house is clean so I’m not too awful bad ..... yet.

Love you Bipolar

Love you, ~Christina!

I hope you feel better tomorrow.


WC

[Moreta]

I saw my new GP today to go over my CT scan and weight loss stuff. The CT scan showed that I have spinal stenosis in my low back now. Fun. She told me I'm getting old. haha. Thanks for reminding me. I'll be 34 in 10 days. I was hoping I'd feel better by 34. Oh well.

As far as the weight loss stuff, she put me on phentermine. Basically amphetamine. How to treat your ADHD on the sly ask for weight loss meds. MAN my FOCUS has been amazing today. I feel like massaging data in Excel. Haha. hey man, got any of that data? I don't think I'm going to take this stuff every day because my tolerance of stimulants builds up quick. But seriously I have 80 more lbs to lose. Already lost 75 lbs.

Going to start phasing out sugar tomorrow. The horror. I was doing good without sugar before June but then started the horrible time of coming off tramadol and one of the ways to combat opiate withdrawal is to load up on sugar. I need to be better with my diet too. Maybe not eat potatoes with EVERY meal. haha. man I love potatoes. I get my potatoes at the farmers market. I get purple ones and they're amazeballs. They're small potatoes. I need to chill with the dairy too, but I love it. It makes all my joints hurt though. Real milk from grass fed cows is amazing. Thinking about it makes me want to go get a cup of it. Haha. Maybe I should make a protein shake with it. I still haven't had dinner and I didn't eat lunch. I will try to do better tomorrow. At least eat more for breakfast. I wasn't that hungry this morning so just had a protein shake and a sausage patty. Yes, whole diet is to basically load up on protein and veggies. I'm allergic to so many things that's about all I'm left with to eat. TBH I'm losing this weight so maybe my ****ing back will stop hurting and my cholesterol will get to an acceptable level. My cholesterol has always been in the 250s and the LDL 180+. Now my cholesterol is 224 and LDL is 158 so getting close to more normal numbers. My fasting blood glucose went down a lot already so that's cool. It's always been 99-100 for years. Last test it was 82. I'd rather not get diabetes. I know that's something that can happen with taking antipsychotics. I really don't give a **** what i look like. I just want to be healthy and not feel like death all the time. I'm hoping by 35 I feel better, maybe I'll be able to get a part time job and make some money by then.

Anyways, I'll stop rambling. <3

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I do indeed think I am sliding neatly into a depression.

I want off my meds ( won’t quit but I want to )

I finally got out of bed today and fought all day to not go back. Just been online or vaguely watching TV.

I see my Pdoc next month , I’m not really wanting a Med change as we went up and down a few months ago and I went towards mania quick

Balancing act ! I feel like I ride a unicycle, wobble back and forth , not really going anywhere , sigh.

I’m still posting and selfcare also my house is clean so I’m not too awful bad ..... yet.

Love you Bipolar

Love your unicycle analogy - and you. Youre always there for me and know the right things to say.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Moreta

I saw my new GP today to go over my CT scan and weight loss stuff. The CT scan showed that I have spinal stenosis in my low back now. Fun. She told me I'm getting old. haha. Thanks for reminding me. I'll be 34 in 10 days. I was hoping I'd feel better by 34. Oh well.

As far as the weight loss stuff, she put me on phentermine. Basically amphetamine. How to treat your ADHD on the sly ask for weight loss meds. MAN my FOCUS has been amazing today. I feel like massaging data in Excel. Haha. hey man, got any of that data? I don't think I'm going to take this stuff every day because my tolerance of stimulants builds up quick. But seriously I have 80 more lbs to lose. Already lost 75 lbs.

Going to start phasing out sugar tomorrow. The horror. I was doing good without sugar before June but then started the horrible time of coming off tramadol and one of the ways to combat opiate withdrawal is to load up on sugar. I need to be better with my diet too. Maybe not eat potatoes with EVERY meal. haha. man I love potatoes. I get my potatoes at the farmers market. I get purple ones and they're amazeballs. They're small potatoes. I need to chill with the dairy too, but I love it. It makes all my joints hurt though. Real milk from grass fed cows is amazing. Thinking about it makes me want to go get a cup of it. Haha. Maybe I should make a protein shake with it. I still haven't had dinner and I didn't eat lunch. I will try to do better tomorrow. At least eat more for breakfast. I wasn't that hungry this morning so just had a protein shake and a sausage patty. Yes, whole diet is to basically load up on protein and veggies. I'm allergic to so many things that's about all I'm left with to eat. TBH I'm losing this weight so maybe my ****ing back will stop hurting and my cholesterol will get to an acceptable level. My cholesterol has always been in the 250s and the LDL 180+. Now my cholesterol is 224 and LDL is 158 so getting close to more normal numbers. My fasting blood glucose went down a lot already so that's cool. It's always been 99-100 for years. Last test it was 82. I'd rather not get diabetes. I know that's something that can happen with taking antipsychotics. I really don't give a **** what i look like. I just want to be healthy and not feel like death all the time. I'm hoping by 35 I feel better, maybe I'll be able to get a part time job and make some money by then.

Anyways, I'll stop rambling. <3

I am sorry you are having health challenges!

Does sugar help with opiate withdrawal? I just cut my morphine by 1/3. I have lots of symptoms because I currently have a respiratory virus. I keep having these terrible chills/sweats/nausea and I suspect it has to do with the withdrawal. Only time will tell.

You will be doing better by the time you hit 35! You are setting the stage now! (Oh to be 35 again!)

Good luck with your weight loss goals!

Thanks for sharing!


WC

[Moreta]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am sorry you are having health challenges!

Does sugar help with opiate withdrawal? I just cut my morphine by 1/3. I have lots of symptoms because I currently have a respiratory virus. I keep having these terrible chills/sweats/nausea and I suspect it has to do with the withdrawal. Only time will tell.

You will be doing better by the time you hit 35! You are setting the stage now! (Oh to be 35 again!)

Good luck with your weight loss goals!

Thanks for sharing!


WC

Sugar does help. Try drinking OJ or tea with a **** ton of sugar. I think it works on the same receptors in the brain or something. And yes that's opiate withdrawal symptoms. Opiates are supposed to be reduced 10% every week according to the CDC but drs don't seem to know that. When i finally just said **** it and just stopped taking them there was a lot of laying on the floor screaming for like a week. Took about 3 weeks to feel semi normal after that because I also stopped taking soma at the same time. wooo that was a doozy. I don't recommend that. I did lay in the bed for like those 3 weeks watching conspiracy theory documentaries and shows. oh no the NWO is gonna wipe us all out . The monotone voices on the documentaries was calming. Meditating really helped too. good luck

Originally Posted by Moreta

Try drinking OJ or tea with a **** ton of sugar.

Is that an English or metric **** ton?

[Moreta]

Originally Posted by Frank Crankshaft

Is that an English or metric **** ton?

"The British ton is the long ton, which is 2240 pounds, and the U.S. ton is the short ton which is 2000 pounds. Both tons are actually defined in the same way. 1 ton is equal to 20 hundredweight. It is just the definition of the hundredweight that differs between countries."

I'll go with the british ton since it's bigger.