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I was able to get some sleep finally. Had my intro to social work class today, it went well. I got the review sheet for our final exam. I feel, quiet today, like in my mind. Thoughts aren't racing and no voices. I'm sure finally sleeping and staying busy have helped.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#352
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Just a quick check-in. Ran a ton today. Then, I had a lot of errands to run, including grocery shopping, which I absolutely hate. Got the groceries put away on half a chocolate bar with nuts (though it was the fancy kind of chocolate).
Finally got a shower, started laundry. All my chores are running behind. Started lunch at 2:15, was able to eat Greek yogurt but am struggling with half a bowl of soup. I know I need more calories than that. Maybe full from the chocolate? IDK, I have a GI appt. the day after Christmas. He did tell me my ulcer surgery had to be altered some because of not having enough fat in the normal area (too much muscle) and part of my surgery was like a gastric sleeve, which is just what a person with an ED needs. Some days, I'm normal hungry, others starving, and some just feeling really full. I will eat nearly the same things, so I don't know what does it. Maybe the amount I run? My cycle? Mood is so-so. Yesterday was the anniversary of the bad early December event. I had a few anger outbursts, and when my daughter was out of the room had a chance to tell H, who remembered it happened sometime before Christmas but not when. He was very supportive about it, extra patient with me. Going back to my date with the soup bowl.
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#353
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Good day. Bought new Christmas lights. It’s snowing lightly so it’s pretty despite my total unpreparedness for Christmas. Or maybe it’s just denial of the stress to come lol!
Strange evening yday. Sitting on floor beside my bed having already taken my zoplicone. I knew I was getting drowsy and should get into bed but I didn’t want to, I felt so content just sitting there. Weird but ok ![]() Happy Monday everyone! |
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#354
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Had a pretty good day today. Not as irritable and not depressed. I slept well last night, fell asleep around 11:30 which is still late for me but not like one am. I can still get seven hours of sleep.
Didn’t do much at work, was in a classroom that didn’t really need my help. It was nice but boring. Day dragged on. But I got my Christmas lights up when I came home. They look pretty. I’m glad I got them up. Usually they’re up the day after Thanksgiving but since we were in Tennessee and it rained all weekend I had to wait till today. I have therapy tomorrow for the first time in three weeks. I’m glad. I want to talk to her about my irritability, sleep issues, and appetite issues. I hope she can reassure me that I’ll be fine. Like I said I do feel good today so I’m hoping my sleeping and eating will get back to normal soon.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#355
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Wet, cold, raw day today.
Rough day with med side-effects again. Could not function. ![]() Love to All! ![]() WC
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#356
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Oh WC! We need a magic wand for you! Pronto!
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May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. ![]() |
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#358
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![]() The holidays can be stressful, too. I understand about family tension on the holiday. I am glad when the day is over with. ![]() WC
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#359
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![]() Something is "shifting" and cannot tolerate even a small dose of a med I had been tolerating well for quite awhile. Am watching, as may be a change in mood. I hope I am not on a major downswing. Glad you were able to get some art/craft supplies! Sounds like fun! ![]() ![]() WC
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My rent just went up by $138! We have section 8 and that's a lot. My daughter wont be happy because it was her increased income that triggered this.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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Ouch! That is a lot.
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Pookyl ———————————————————————————— BP1, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, Claustrophobia Psych meds: Saphris, Seroquel XR, regular Seroquel. PRN Diazepam and Zopiclone |
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Ouch. That's really tough. Talk about perverse incentives.
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I hope you feel better soon, WC. Take care!
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I’m glad your Dr is ordering the specifics testing needed for you to get some answers , the holster monitor is a breeze I just put in my pocket will working, as for no shower I just washed up with a washcloth. The only part of the echo was I had a tech there training a new one which was fine , gotta “do to learn “so it took longer, the new girl was doing great tho I love Monday Doctor appts , they are fresh, but by Friday’s they are getting burned out lol Glad you will get answers soon ![]()
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#365
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Maybe just put the book away and try again at another time ? Hope your sleep improves
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Glad you sleep well ! Great news ![]() I hope you have a great last T appt. maybe get some closure?
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Glad you had a good day ![]()
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Hi guys I have been horribly irritable all day today, fun day for everyone. My father is incredibly annoying the only person I haven't wanted to snap at was M. They wanted contrast for the Echo which I was not expecting. I do so like being poked with needles super early in the morning, granted I have been poked and prodded so much this year and it's still not over with since I have to see my primary next week for the fun three year exam.
![]() For the icing to my irritability cake the person who did my Holter Monitor totally didn't do it right and whatever tape she used irritated the crap out of my skin and dear sweet M had to fix the tape issue, since it was a giant irritant, not to mention she put the wires over my clothes, when they go under and you tape up the excess wires so you don't pull them out. M was good and annoyed when he saw just how lackluster it was done. I also have to carry around a giant 80's style pager on my hip that does not like my dress pants and keeps trying to slide off the waist. The truly most annoying thing about today was the sweater I wore, I thought it would cover up everything and nobody would be able to see the tape, it didn't. I hoped I wouldn't have to deal with a patient complaint and not leave my office since it was so visible, how about three complaints right in a row; followed by rude comments about my age and what the hell was wrong with my knockers. That was said by a really old dude that I really had to bite my tongue on. So forgive me if I am snappy tonight, I am irritable with everything and everyone besides M and R and obviously here. Also one of the older docs in the clinic teased that he had the same sized pager in the early 90's. I can only imagine how much fun sleeping and a lack of shower is going to affect me. Thank you Wild, Nikon, and Christina for the the well wishes. ![]() Hugs to everyone ![]()
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#369
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It’s been cold her but not a flurry. Maybe the stress won’t be too much ! Yes I have sat and enjoy the feeling with some meds over the years for sleep. ![]()
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#370
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So happy you had a good day ! Much needed! I plan to drive around when we get to Florida seeing all the lights , no one around here put lights up ... cows don’t care about them lol I see Richard next week then it will be month until our next appt between my being out of town and him being out , will be hard , but I went 11 months without him so a month I’ll just have to manage! I’m glad you have numerous things to discuss ! ![]()
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You need to catch a break ![]() Hope dropping a Med will improve things greatly. ![]()
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Sorry this happened will your daughter need to pitch in more since her income caused the increase ? Bills suck
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Generalized Anxiety Disorder Depression Symptoms of PTSD Trintellix 10mg once daily Buspar 10mg three times daily |
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#374
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Here’s my update today ..I..
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My life has become a flume ride through the dark.
Bronze Maitreya, Buddha of the future, dated 486 (Northern Wei dynasty, 386 to 534), China, 55" high, The Met. The cascading garments are textbook Northern Wei. Maitreya has huge hands, and you know what that means. |
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