[Blue_Bird]

I was able to get some sleep finally. Had my intro to social work class today, it went well. I got the review sheet for our final exam. I feel, quiet today, like in my mind. Thoughts aren't racing and no voices. I'm sure finally sleeping and staying busy have helped.

[Blueberrybook]

Just a quick check-in. Ran a ton today. Then, I had a lot of errands to run, including grocery shopping, which I absolutely hate. Got the groceries put away on half a chocolate bar with nuts (though it was the fancy kind of chocolate).

Finally got a shower, started laundry. All my chores are running behind. Started lunch at 2:15, was able to eat Greek yogurt but am struggling with half a bowl of soup. I know I need more calories than that. Maybe full from the chocolate?

IDK, I have a GI appt. the day after Christmas. He did tell me my ulcer surgery had to be altered some because of not having enough fat in the normal area (too much muscle) and part of my surgery was like a gastric sleeve, which is just what a person with an ED needs.

Some days, I'm normal hungry, others starving, and some just feeling really full. I will eat nearly the same things, so I don't know what does it. Maybe the amount I run? My cycle?

Mood is so-so. Yesterday was the anniversary of the bad early December event. I had a few anger outbursts, and when my daughter was out of the room had a chance to tell H, who remembered it happened sometime before Christmas but not when. He was very supportive about it, extra patient with me.

Going back to my date with the soup bowl.

[liveforsummer]

Good day. Bought new Christmas lights. It’s snowing lightly so it’s pretty despite my total unpreparedness for Christmas. Or maybe it’s just denial of the stress to come lol!
Strange evening yday. Sitting on floor beside my bed having already taken my zoplicone. I knew I was getting drowsy and should get into bed but I didn’t want to, I felt so content just sitting there. Weird but ok

Happy Monday everyone!

[wildflowerchild25]

Had a pretty good day today. Not as irritable and not depressed. I slept well last night, fell asleep around 11:30 which is still late for me but not like one am. I can still get seven hours of sleep.

Didn’t do much at work, was in a classroom that didn’t really need my help. It was nice but boring. Day dragged on. But I got my Christmas lights up when I came home. They look pretty. I’m glad I got them up. Usually they’re up the day after Thanksgiving but since we were in Tennessee and it rained all weekend I had to wait till today.

I have therapy tomorrow for the first time in three weeks. I’m glad. I want to talk to her about my irritability, sleep issues, and appetite issues. I hope she can reassure me that I’ll be fine. Like I said I do feel good today so I’m hoping my sleeping and eating will get back to normal soon.

[Wild Coyote]

Wet, cold, raw day today.

Rough day with med side-effects again. Could not function. Will be eliminating a med right away.

Love to All!

WC

Oh WC! We need a magic wand for you! Pronto! I hope you feel better soon-- you have really been up against it!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Hi guys it felt so weird being able to sleep in on a workday, I have to go for my Echocardiogram and a 48 hour Holter Monitor which I cannot shower with which is going to be such an annoyance come tomorrow night. Anyway I just wanted to briefly check in before my shower this morning. I still got to go to work after the test but I had overtime last week so I have to cut hours this week, which worked out perfectly for this test and my
appointment with my primary next Monday, what is with Monday’s being perfect for doctor’s appointments.

Hugs to everyone and I’ll see you later tonight

I hope your tests are helpful.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by nikon

i had an up and down day. i haven't felt really down or anything, but work is stressful. i don't usually work full time but am working the whole week, and right now it feels like an eternity stretching out in front of me. i'm not looking forward to christmas itself, because we always have a family lunch and there are always underlying tensions. i don't like spending time with my family. just wish i could spend all holidays with friends instead.

I am sorry work is so stressful for you.
The holidays can be stressful, too. I understand about family tension on the holiday. I am glad when the day is over with.


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Oh WC! We need a magic wand for you! Pronto! I hope you feel better soon-- you have really been up against it!

Thanks, Innerzone!

Something is "shifting" and cannot tolerate even a small dose of a med I had been tolerating well for quite awhile. Am watching, as may be a change in mood. I hope I am not on a major downswing.

Glad you were able to get some art/craft supplies! Sounds like fun!


WC

[Moose72]

My rent just went up by $138! We have section 8 and that's a lot. My daughter wont be happy because it was her increased income that triggered this.

[Pookyl]

Originally Posted by Moose72

My rent just went up by $138! We have section 8 and that's a lot. My daughter wont be happy because it was her increased income that triggered this.

Ouch! That is a lot.

[tecomsin]

Originally Posted by Moose72

My rent just went up by $138! We have section 8 and that's a lot. My daughter wont be happy because it was her increased income that triggered this.

Ouch. That's really tough. Talk about perverse incentives.

[tecomsin]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Wet, cold, raw day today.

Rough day with med side-effects again. Could not function. Will be eliminating a med right away.

Love to All!

WC

I hope you feel better soon, WC. Take care!

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Hi guys it felt so weird being able to sleep in on a workday, I have to go for my Echocardiogram and a 48 hour Holter Monitor which I cannot shower with which is going to be such an annoyance come tomorrow night. Anyway I just wanted to briefly check in before my shower this morning. I still got to go to work after the test but I had overtime last week so I have to cut hours this week, which worked out perfectly for this test and my

appointment with my primary next Monday, what is with Monday’s being perfect for doctor’s appointments.


Hugs to everyone and I’ll see you later tonight

I’m glad your Dr is ordering the specifics testing needed for you to get some answers , the holster monitor is a breeze I just put in my pocket will working, as for no shower I just washed up with a washcloth.

The only part of the echo was I had a tech there training a new one which was fine , gotta “do to learn “so it took longer, the new girl was doing great tho

I love Monday Doctor appts , they are fresh, but by Friday’s they are getting burned out lol

Glad you will get answers soon

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I started my new book yesterday- first thoughts.. am I stuck with this **** for the next however long it will take me to read it?. I don't like what I read so far


sleep didn't happen again though I knew it wouldn't


mood was okay, but not really a productive day (not really anything I needed to do, but managed to fill the time). nothing special is what I'm saying


an average start to the week

Maybe just put the book away and try again at another time ?

Hope your sleep improves

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Slept fine on seroquel 100. Saw T. Talked about doing things even though I don't want to. Next Monday is my last T appointment. Was supposed to be short term. Today I felt like I didnt have much to say. Hope my last week is better.

Glad you sleep well ! Great news

I hope you have a great last T appt. maybe get some closure?

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I was able to get some sleep finally. Had my intro to social work class today, it went well. I got the review sheet for our final exam. I feel, quiet today, like in my mind. Thoughts aren't racing and no voices. I'm sure finally sleeping and staying busy have helped.

Glad you had a good day

[TheSeaCat]

Hi guys I have been horribly irritable all day today, fun day for everyone. My father is incredibly annoying the only person I haven't wanted to snap at was M. They wanted contrast for the Echo which I was not expecting. I do so like being poked with needles super early in the morning, granted I have been poked and prodded so much this year and it's still not over with since I have to see my primary next week for the fun three year exam. I am sick of seeing doctor after doctor and test after test. I just want one week where I don't have to take off of work for a doctor or a test. My saving grace was a lot of overtime last week.

For the icing to my irritability cake the person who did my Holter Monitor totally didn't do it right and whatever tape she used irritated the crap out of my skin and dear sweet M had to fix the tape issue, since it was a giant irritant, not to mention she put the wires over my clothes, when they go under and you tape up the excess wires so you don't pull them out. M was good and annoyed when he saw just how lackluster it was done. I also have to carry around a giant 80's style pager on my hip that does not like my dress pants and keeps trying to slide off the waist.

The truly most annoying thing about today was the sweater I wore, I thought it would cover up everything and nobody would be able to see the tape, it didn't. I hoped I wouldn't have to deal with a patient complaint and not leave my office since it was so visible, how about three complaints right in a row; followed by rude comments about my age and what the hell was wrong with my knockers. That was said by a really old dude that I really had to bite my tongue on.

So forgive me if I am snappy tonight, I am irritable with everything and everyone besides M and R and obviously here. Also one of the older docs in the clinic teased that he had the same sized pager in the early 90's. I can only imagine how much fun sleeping and a lack of shower is going to affect me.

Thank you Wild, Nikon, and Christina for the the well wishes.

Hugs to everyone

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Good day. Bought new Christmas lights. It’s snowing lightly so it’s pretty despite my total unpreparedness for Christmas. Or maybe it’s just denial of the stress to come lol!

Strange evening yday. Sitting on floor beside my bed having already taken my zoplicone. I knew I was getting drowsy and should get into bed but I didn’t want to, I felt so content just sitting there. Weird but ok


Happy Monday everyone!

It’s been cold her but not a flurry.

Maybe the stress won’t be too much !

Yes I have sat and enjoy the feeling with some meds over the years for sleep.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Had a pretty good day today. Not as irritable and not depressed. I slept well last night, fell asleep around 11:30 which is still late for me but not like one am. I can still get seven hours of sleep.


Didn’t do much at work, was in a classroom that didn’t really need my help. It was nice but boring. Day dragged on. But I got my Christmas lights up when I came home. They look pretty. I’m glad I got them up. Usually they’re up the day after Thanksgiving but since we were in Tennessee and it rained all weekend I had to wait till today.


I have therapy tomorrow for the first time in three weeks. I’m glad. I want to talk to her about my irritability, sleep issues, and appetite issues. I hope she can reassure me that I’ll be fine. Like I said I do feel good today so I’m hoping my sleeping and eating will get back to normal soon.

So happy you had a good day ! Much needed!

I plan to drive around when we get to Florida seeing all the lights , no one around here put lights up ... cows don’t care about them lol

I see Richard next week then it will be month until our next appt between my being out of town and him being out , will be hard , but I went 11 months without him so a month I’ll just have to manage!

I’m glad you have numerous things to discuss !

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Wet, cold, raw day today.


Rough day with med side-effects again. Could not function. Will be eliminating a med right away.


Love to All!



WC

You need to catch a break

Hope dropping a Med will improve things greatly.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Moose72

My rent just went up by $138! We have section 8 and that's a lot. My daughter wont be happy because it was her increased income that triggered this.

Sorry this happened will your daughter need to pitch in more since her income caused the increase ?

Bills suck

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Wet, cold, raw day today.

Rough day with med side-effects again. Could not function. Will be eliminating a med right away.

Love to All!

WC

I'm sorry you are having a rough day with medication side effects, I hope the elimination helps.

[~Christina]

Here’s my update today ..I..

[Lefty Seven]

My life has become a flume ride through the dark.



Bronze Maitreya, Buddha of the future, dated 486 (Northern Wei dynasty, 386 to 534), China, 55" high, The Met. The cascading garments are textbook Northern Wei. Maitreya has huge hands, and you know what that means.