[Victoria'smom]

I have to clean My nephews come in an hour for most of the night. I ordered new games to play but I don't think they'll be here in time (it says by 9 pm. So we'll see.)

Had a productive day so far. I got discharged from IOP this week and I don't really know what I'm going to do. I'm going to run out of Wellbutrin and I don't know who my psychiatrist will be yet so that's a problem. I'm just gonna go without and see how it goes.

[fern46]

Originally Posted by spikes

Had a productive day so far. I got discharged from IOP this week and I don't really know what I'm going to do. I'm going to run out of Wellbutrin and I don't know who my psychiatrist will be yet so that's a problem. I'm just gonna go without and see how it goes.

I had the same problem when I left IOP. It was two months before my new pdoc could see me. I called my IOP and asked my doc there to refill my meds since they had been treating me. They were cool about filling in the gap for me. Maybe yours would be willing to do the same?

[Blue_Bird]

I ended up sleeping all of last night and most of today, have no idea how that happened I just know I was exhausted. I never do that

[Wander]

Juggling too many balls. To try and combat my PTSD rage I started exercising. My Fibromyalgia had been quiet so I thought I would be fine. Wrong. Now I’m exhausted and in agony, and even more pissed off with no physical avenue to vent my rage. I’m broke and need to work but with my hip still healing and now the revelation that I can’t push myself physically I doubt I can return to work anytime soon.

Last night despair hit me. The rage and grief were overwhelming and I wanted to give up. This is no life. So I journaled and tried to talk myself back to hope. It worked a little but the rage continued so I had to punch out with Seroquel to keep myself safe. This morning I am feeling calmer and more hopeful but I’m still scared I’m at breaking point. The PTSD is bad.

[Blueberrybook]

Felt OK this morning though I walked too late past sunrise. The heat really got to me. Pretty much exhausted after that. At lunch, H said he feels like grilling for dinner, but we didn't have anything to grill. Then he says he wants to grill shrimp. OMG, I hate deveining those things! However, he told me since I looked tired, he'd do the deveining if I went to the store to pick some up, and by some miracle, they were even on sale. H wanted me to get fresh vegetables to skewer as well, but the premade fresh veggie skewers for grilling nearly cost the same as buying the separate vegetables, so I just got the premade skewers. At least H is doing most of dinner tonight. He's actually a far better cook than I am because he can keep his mind on task, and he is very meticulous.

After I got the groceries, I started feeling really cold again. Stupid anemia. Just when I feel I make some progress, I feel like I slip back. Had to change out of shorts into pants, put on a sweater. I did at least manage to sort through some electronic cables, earbuds, lots of tangles and check the cable to see if it still worked. I have some obscure USB chargers, belonging to old iPods or ancient Sony walkman mp3 players. Finally trashed my old computer floppy disks. I don't even have a computer with a drive to read them anymore, and none of them contained much beyond outdated backups of Windows (from 2004 or earlier) or pic art.

[MsSunflower]

I went to see a movie today with my Mom. Still having trouble focusing but the plot was fairly simple so it wasn't too bad. Still feeling down but making myself do things I know I normally enjoy like going to the movies. On a positive note I wore a pair of shorts in public for the first time since I was a kid. Finally got the confidence to buy a pair a few weeks ago. It was hot today and so nice to not wear full length pants. Hope you're all doing well

[bizi]

I decided to go the zantac route instead of the nexium which has some warnings/lawsuits going on. That is what jeff takes. He only takes it in the morning. I would probably take it twice a day.
I took my first dose before dinner and then take it before lunch.
Ate dinner a reasonable amount. 6 oz of salmon and half cup of brussel sprouts and half a cup of beets. I am not overly full but satisfied. This is how we ordinarily eat dinner. I have huge lunches....need to tell them to give me smaller portions.....I promise I won't bore you with any more details or followup info.

Since I decided to take the medicine...
it should be a no brainer now/non-issue.
bizi

[Moose72]

N3 and I went out for a 2 hour walk today. I took a shower when I got home and am in bed watchig "mr. Iglesias" on Netflix. Feet hurt!

[LadyShadow]

Other than sleeping too much, my symptoms are pretty much under control. The job hunt has been hard, but I am not killing myself because I am waiting for the right job to come along. I spoke to my sister's boyfriend and we are on good terms; the last thing left is to make up with my sister which shouldn't be too bad.

I haven't cried in a while, which is good because I used to cry all the time.

Hope everyone is in good spirits and enjoying the summer so far.

[~Christina]

I’d like my pain to F off anytime now

[sadveiledbride]

I'm feeling very sad and alone.

I felt extremely unwell for part of Friday, then I was unwell for half of yesterday. Luckily, yesterday afternoon and evening were much better, as is this morning so far. I see my psychiatrist tomorrow afternoon. I will tell him exacting what has been happening, which is minor mood issues with mostly several days of very happy/pleasant stability. Despite the mood issues, I think he'll keep my medications as they are. I know what to do if mood issues crop up again. My therapist already offered that I could see her even more often than once per week, if something major crops up. I have to figure out what to do about my French class. Many here have read a lot about that, so I won't write about it again...at least until closer to the next one.

Our neighbor is officially moving away tomorrow. She was never a close friend, but it is sad to see her go since we did occasionally socialize with her. I hope the people that eventually buy her house are friendly. I really do. The neighbors on the other side of us barely even say hello. The owner is a graduate student at the university whose wealthy parents bought the house for her. Basically it's a "dormitory" for graduate students. They're never there. At least they're quiet.

[Moose72]

Im wanting to exercise again today. Maybe I can ride my bike tomorrow. Every other day riding/walking is what I did last time i lost weight. Its gorgeous out right now.

[Sunflower123]

Hanging out at a large local market that is only open on Sundays with my daughter. She bought me a beautiful huge bouquet of flowers for next to nothing. The sunflowers are my favorite.

After this, we’re going to the art museum to peruse an exhibit of Impressionist’s paintings. It’s my favorite style.

Finally, going to jump in the pool and float for a while to get away from this heat.

It’s a good day.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

[bizi]

@Jennifer 1967

Sounds like a nice day!
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[hopeless2015]

Going to see Foreigner in concert tonight..I'm so excited!!!!

[sadveiledbride]

Just woke up, was exhausted. Going to get my guitar fixed today and am a bit sad for whatever reason, maybe it's just the upcoming week or the fact I had a bit of a bad night. Oh well, so it goes.

[Moose72]

Meeting a friend in a few minutes. Posted in my blog- that always feels good. (Always make 4 or 5 revisions on posts!) Feeling good sitting in the a/c. Planning on another long walk with n3 tomorrow. No excuses!!

[bizi]

Originally Posted by sadveiledbride

Have had a relatively ****** day so far, feeling very depressive and tired. Perhaps I'll sleep soon. I received some not great news recently so still getting over that.

@sadveiledbride I hope you are sleeping better and eating healthy food to keep nourished. Hoping that your bad news lessens it effect on you.
Just wanted to offer a hug
(((((HUG)))))
bizi

[Moose72]

I got invited to dinner this Saturday. My newish buddy asked if I'd like to join her and her long-time friend for a "fancier" dinner. What's great is not only will we have a fun time, she said she'd make up the price of my meal over $20. What a great friend. She knows Im broke as a rule.

[Sunflower123]

The exhibit was good. We finished the day with ice cream and playing in the rain as it started storming and we couldn’t go to the pool. That’s the last of the depression. Hopefully, for a long time. Now for a relaxing movie.

Hugs to all.

[Guiness187055]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Going to see Foreigner in concert tonight..I'm so excited!!!!

Nice have fun!!!

[MsSunflower]

Weekend wasn't too bad. Mostly took it easy today. I'm volunteering tomorrow for a food program to learn how one runs. I'll be volunteering weekly for one starting sometime in July so this is kind of training for when that happens. Having some of my usual anxiety but the new med I'm on is helping. Mostly just hoping I'll have enough energy as my energy level has been quite low lately.

[sadveiledbride]

Feeling pretty lonely and irritated. This upcoming week is anxiety filling and I just want to lay down and feel alright for once.