Bipolar check-in #48

Totally agree. I am already counting down weeks until September when things usually start to cool off some. This year it's hard to know though as it is a very hot summer.

Last night we had a storm and I got to open my windows for a while. The fresh air was heavenly.

My mom loves the summer and dreads fall as a precursor to winter. I feel bad for her but I'm just so glad to be done being hot.

Me too !

Im not a fan of Winter when its awful cold and greys skys for weeks .... But I can always put more and more clothes on.. Summer??? only so much I can take off LOL

But this heat? Ick Ick Ick

I love having my windows open

I can’t wait for fall!!!!!!!!!

Coffee on the porch on a crisp cool morning, a warm pullover and yoga pants lol reading a book...oh I can’t wait

MD, been analyzing my illness a lot and have learned I am usually most angry when down-cycled. I do get dysphoric mania a little like Christina, but ongoing anger is usually sign of a down pole state. R u depressed?

[QUOTE=~Christina;6900167]Ya'll I am not wanting the normal flu season to hit on top of Covid but temps of 100 and heat indexes to 106-107??? That shyt has got to stop..

I have never handled heat well, Grew up in Florida and I would pass out from heat so easily. I get super rage-y and Hate to sweat and lets face it I am fat so ........................

Time for Fall .. I want coffee, Hoodies, scarves, Boots and sitting on my porch watching all the trees change color wrapped in a throw reading a book !

Yes I want that ... right now ![/QUOTE

Ugh. I went to work one day and forgot to crack window and came back 36 hrs later and dash was bent. Like, warped. From temp. Middle Tennessee summers are freaking GRUESOME!!!!!!!

Still haven’t been sleeping well. Most nights I do t go to sleep until after 1am. Today I just crashed and slept all day. Missed a call from the cardiologist to schedule an appt. I’m not feeling very well physically, likely due to med withdrawal. It took me awhile to get through the red tape of switching from my IOP back to my regular program fir my psychiatrist and as such I have run out of meds. I knew this was going to happen so I tapered off slowly, conserving to the last possible moment. Which should have been fine because I had my pdoc appt yesterday. But she cancelled and I couldn’t get back in until aug 7. I have pled my case but they refuse to give me anything to hold me over. I have emailed my old therapist from my IOP and pled my case to her, so hopefully my provider will agree to give me a two week prescription to hold me over.

Wait, ur prescriber will not cover u even tho u r out? This is in NJ? That is not acceptable care in the US.

I can’t even get a refill on my bc if I’m out w/o an appointment it really sucks..throws everything out of whack

Same, and being on antipsychotics makes the heat even worse. Fall is my favorite season for all the reasons you've named and can't wait!!

Yeah I’m pretty depressed. Just about this whole COVID situation and my weight gain from the increase in meds. I think the increase in Geodon is helping although the last few days I haven’t been sure. I said if any med caused weight gain it would be counterproductive. I also automatically am assuming if I get COVID I’m going to die. And it’s just been pretty stressful. My mom thinks I might have been set off by the guy coughing at the store yesterday. My moods seemed to have gone downhill right we left the store.

Wild, Take all your psych med bottles to a walk in clinic and they will " usually " give 2 weeks as long as none are scheduled drugs ... Dont wait another day..

Today has been pretty bad mood wise. I slept the day away and only got up to go to work. I had nightmares. I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin. I cancelled my therapy appointment for tomorrow. I just don’t want to talk to her. I don’t want to talk to anyone. I just want to sleep and be left alone. It’s a stark contrast to how I’ve been feeling. I don’t know what the change is.

I don’t plan on actually rescheduling the therapy appointment. I don’t know what to do, really. Besides, soon I won’t be able to afford it anyway.

I am at a loss.

What about the role of physical fatigue and mental fatigue playing a role?

Hugs!

That does not meet the standard of care in your community. It is medical malpractice. Full stop. So sorry.

U r in a very low-risk grp., MD.

So, turn up your depression measures? Med change(s)? Make some moves. Take action

Hugs!!

It probably is playing a major role, but it’s more than that. It’s like I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place. I can’t move up or out. I have no one in my corner and I don’t feel I have support. I have to live day to day and it’s exhausting. I don’t believe in not having dreams of achieving higher or looking past work-home-work-home-rest-work-home......

It’s frustrating. My mom is hounding me constantly now that she Knows where I am. All prospects of teaching are out the window, nightmares are controlling my daytime and I’m exhausted and irritated. It’s just a bad situation all around. No one has time to help me, including me:

I’m just fed up. It’s too much for too long, you know? (P.S just to be clear — NOT SUICIDAL).

Had an appointment with my NP. We’re going up to 300 on Wellbutrin as I’m quite apathetic. Hope it helps. This state is brutal. I’m not interested in anything...not even moving.

I’m all for Fall weather especially since the A/C went out on my car and I need to get it fixed. I need to float in the sunshine for the month of August to get me through the time change. I’m almost there. I agree it is terribly hot. The only bearable place is in the water and that’s like bath water.

Yes actually! Watching her watch medical dramas on tv just is too funny!

So today was good. i got on a wait list for a new low-income housing complex. Fat chance I'll be picked but I do qualify at least.

I sent an important fax today.

Played on facebook for a bit. Splurged on some macro filters for my camera. Not as great as a macro lens but those are $500! So I hope to have fun taking some macro photos soon.

Watered my mom's plants and grass this evening. Turned the sprinkler on and set a timer for 15 minutes and then watered the outside plants- mostly flowers.

Feeling better than yesterday. I wish I could sleep earlier than the wee hours of the morning.

Took Seroquel last night for sleep. Got desperate- didn't want to go to sleep at 6 a.m. again.

That sounds great! I love Fall. It's winter that just goes overoard. A little snow is fine but two feet all at once? Scraping my car in the morning is the worst! I mean scraping ice off not just brushing some fluffy dry snow off.

Hope the increase helps quickly ! Ugh no AC in the car is brutal hope you can get that fixed soon

No A/C in my car either. And yes it's brutal!

might not sleep tonight

Why? Its only 10:30.

just paranoid