Bipolar check-in #71

Well The last couple days Maddie has gone in the house so many times regardless of my taking her out !!!!! Like WTF

A few hours ago I found some behind my couch. I said to Steve are we sure we want to keep her ??!!?! He said he will put her up on Marketplace to rehome her but it was the “ tone” he said it in. I told him I know he really wants to keep her. But….

Honestly I don’t know if he’s going to try and rehome her now or not. ugh.

She’s a sweet girl but I still think Steve won’t truly pitch in to help fully. I dont want to be the bad guy and we both need to decide to keep or re home her. I’m going to wait and see if he does list to rehome tomorrow.

Anyway my mood is shyt but it’s not all about Maddie I’ve been struggling with depression for a while now.

Some days I just think FML

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Well Monday Im calling to transfer whatever meds we can. I'm trying to get h to go to urgent care for asthma medicine but he won't. I swear if it were me he'd be at the hospital no questions. My head's loud I want to sh, nothing new. H is giving me the xyz isn't happening rundown a couple times a day.

I feel upside-down. Trying to let go of that darn therapy session yesterday. Why didn't I open my mouth? Typical.

Anyway. I guess it's fortunate that I followed my intuition today and went to my primary care doctor. He's very kind and gentle. Old-fashioned. He said the infection is deep, it's not healing, so he had to (sorry, hope this doesn't creep anyone out)
numb it with a shot, excise it, do this and that. It's all seeming complicated and oh, geez, I know it's certainly not the worst thing! But I feel like it's a manifestation of my terrible depression of this season.

Go me. I have to pay a lovely visit to either urgent care or the ER every day to have the dressing dealt with, until Wednesday when I will be seen at the clinic again. Then I get to skip a day, and it's back to the clinic on Friday. Well, I didn't tell them, but I can't go on Tuesday because I have to take 2 cats to the vet (one for a routine procedure, the other has a cold, my diabetic girl, and she needs an antibiotic, I'm worried crazy about how to work something out $).

I absolutely cannot be sitting and waiting anywhere for hours so I'm late for taking care of Sidney (her insulin shots). So I'll do what I can. In the meantime, I am taking Keflex (antibiotic). Plus, there's an annual display of luminaries in David's neighborhood, one of the grand old historic neighborhoods in town, and it's on Sunday night. I want to see it; it's the only special thing I'm doing all season and I won't be missing it.

Anyway. You all probably know how I love getting my hair done. That was a birthday gift to myself. So I went in on Wednesday to my regular stylist. She and I usually have a fabulous time together, singing, laughing, joking around. But her birthday is coming soon, so of course, she was a bit odd. Subdued and withdrawn. I was a bit disappointed, I missed our usual fun time. But she always enjoys doing my hair, and she did this time, too. She pulled her phone out, scrolled through some stuff, said this, and showed me the picture I'll post below. Diana's hair styles have always worked well for me; my hair is thick and wavy and grows it various directions. Plus, I also have a long nose. So I said, "Perfect." And I LOVE this cut! It feels fab! My bangs are a bit longer, how I wanted them.

So I may have to deal with this ratty infection, but while I do I can do it with a nice hair style

And I guess my hair style has brought us UK weather: loads of RAIN!

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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom Well Monday Im calling to transfer whatever meds we can. I'm trying to get h to go to urgent care for asthma medicine but he won't. I swear if it were me he'd be at the hospital no questions. My head's loud I want to sh, nothing new. H is giving me the xyz isn't happening rundown a couple times a day.

~~~~~~~~~~ I'm sending you love.

Oh, babe. I hate like all hell to say it, but... @~Christinait sounds like Maddie may be a bit much. You are really sounding burdened. And not just once or twice, but for a while, now, repeatedly.

As for the depression itself. Yeah, I know it's BD and the depression will go away eventually, but are you sure you need to wait it out? Maybe a med change would be better than a crappy winter?

She sounds like quite the handful. Strange she hasn’t caught on yet. Be nice if Steve stepped up and had a man to dog talk with Maddie about going outside.

Oh I hope you are getting your er fix to help with the depression. I watched Star Trek tonight and it helped . ST is my er.

Seriously hang in there

Well mum’s doing ok. They’re admitting her. Hopefully locally, it depends on finding a bed. Otherwise it will be a long hour ride to the other hospital. There’s nothing worse than feeling under the weather and having to travel by ambulance. They have the worse shocks. In a way I’m relieved they are keeping her. Someone will be monitoring her breathing. I won’t have to keep watching her to make sure she’s breathing

Fabulous hairstyle, I’ll bet you rock it.

Oo so sorry about your shoulder. It’s a pain living alone and not being able to do something like changing a dressing! Heal quickly

@*Beth*, what happened to your shoulder? I must have missed something.

@Nammu, I'm glad they are keeping your mom. It's just better to be monitored and you need to take care of yourself and not try to do that all night yourself. I know it's hard that she's there but they can monitor and provide oxygen and whatever.


She may be able to get home health after this which would bring her PT to her if that makes it easier (assuming she's somewhat weaker after being sick). It's maybe something to ask the hospital about.


for each of of you

Oh yeah. After heart attack she had pt here. That was really nice. It’s less than ten minutes to the PT office but half the time she gets motion sick, so having it at home would be an improvement. Good idea rainbow, thanks

Just really emphasize that she was having trouble before this and really needs to recover at home for a while. They have to meet "homebound" status and if she can't consistently get to therapy because of motion sickness that alone should qualify her, but add weakness to that and I'm sure it would qualify. Home health is what I did at the end of my career and it's awesome in situations like your mom's.

My mawmaw has pneumonia on top
Of Covid and her white count is super high

Oh, I'm in such a twirl lately I don't even remember if I posted about it. I got a deep infection on my shoulder/back. It started to be painful over the week-end so I went to urgent care & the doctor prescribed Keflex. By yesterday the pain was so bad it hurt to move my right arm. I called my primary care clinic and went in today. And so it began.

And I just checked it and I don't know how I'm going to deal with this all the way until Wednesday. This is crazy. I truly don't know what to do.

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Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87 My mawmaw has pneumonia on top Of Covid and her white count is super high

You and your family are also in my prayers tonight

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Originally Posted by Nammu Fabulous hairstyle, I’ll bet you rock it. Oo so sorry about your shoulder. It’s a pain living alone and not being able to do something like changing a dressing! Heal quickly

Thanks, Nammu

Praying for you and your family!

Thank you. My mom will most likely be positive next and I’m scared I’m gonna get it again but I had to help them

Yeah, ya gotta help family. Sending positive vibes your grandparents way.

It’s their job. It’s literally what they’re there for - regardless of what else is going on with covid etc.

I did a bit of nursing at uni and the first thing we were taught was that to the patient their sore finger or runny nose is just as important and worrying to them as another patient with a broken arm or chest pain. I know that’s a simple way of putting it but basically we were taught that every patient is there because they have an issue and are worried and to treat them that way. No issue is too small etc.

I hope you went and got help!

Its just more working out related stuff. I used different weights then I normally do yesterday. Today is a rest day for me so I should be fine. Idk. I guess its just like that saying "no pain no gain" or some **** like that.

Yesterday, I had a work related issue that took five and a half hours of my time and I still couldn't solve it! My customers are making the hour long trek to my other store to continue the process. I expended so much mental energy on this task, I dreamed I was still doing it! At any rate, I did a little research when I woke up, so I have a few avenues to explore for solutions.

Had to chat with my boss because of the absurdly long length of time (most of my shift and all of my breaks) it took to get them nowhere. She was sympathetic, but said don't make a habit of it. Fair enough.

I really hope I can get them situated!

I was getting coffee and I didn't hear it but the guy working the window said "uh oh someone got shot." Then I saw a bunch of flashing lights and an ambulance. Also some dude walked right up to our car and knocked on the drive thru window to ask if the inside was open. I thought he was a door dash driver or something. All of this would have freaked me out 3 years ago but now I'm just like "whatever. As long as it doesn't involve me" I have never heard of any hate crimes in the area. Just gang related stuff mainly. Not safe the way it was in my old state thats for sure. But its not that bad here.

Today I don't have any plans. I keep meaning to buy eggnog though. I slept in 2 shifts last night but I slept at least. My anxiety is mild to moderate and my moods and depression are fine.

I ate a Lunchable and an Oikos yogurt and a vegan coconut yogurt while I was up at 1:30 and I felt like this weird glutton for some reason despite that not being a lot of food I don't think. And considering I barely ate anything for dinner. Idk. It was just an odd feeling I had this morning. I haven't eaten since, I've just had coffee.

Mum is in a regular covid room at the hospital. They are concerned for her heart. She’s on oxygen but not a ventilator. She’s getting an 3 day IV covid protocol . I just feel bad no one can be with her. We are all under quarantine. I found some flowers to send so she knows we’re thinking of her. But all in all she did well over night.

Thinking of you and your family, Nammu.

Holy shyt, Md. I would've been freaking out.

Aurelius I've had those dreams where work follows you home. Not fun.

Christina I hope you can do whatever is best for Maddie. Hope your depression eases soon.

Mm hang in there. Sending much love

Beth- Hope the infection clears up soon. Sorry your T was being the way she was. She should've been more thoughtful. Is Keflex the one that makes your pee orange?

Hallie- I'm thinking of you and your mawmaw. Hope she recovers and quickly

Hugs and loves to anyone I've missed

They’re still worried about mawmaw but said she’s doing a bit better today.!!!!! Both of them will need to go to rehab but that’s a good thing bc neither are capable of living alone as she I blind and he is just confused a lot and falls all the time