Bipolar check in #73

Christina, Gus is adorable! He’s very photogenic

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It’s good to get fresh air, I’m trying to do that more often as well. Sometimes I go sit outside even I go it’s 20-30 degrees Fahrenheit, just to kind of feel refreshed and grounded

I’m glad you’re doing better and glad you are recognizing your successes that’s awesome!

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25 Hi all. Three weeks IP, 7 IP sessions of ECT. I’m going to continue outpatient for awhile. I’m still depressed and if they had done bilaterally right off the bat I bet I’d be less depressed already. But no, don’t listen to the patient. I’ve forgotten a lot of things already. And my social worker never sent a note for work so I’m gonna have to call her and hope she calls me back. I can’t remember what time I’m supposed to be at work. For some reason 8:20 sticks in my head but so does 8:00. They did take me off most of my meds which is good. I’m down to lamictal haldol and seroquel for sleep. And cogentin but I’m not sure what for. It doesn’t help with the restlessness at all. I don’t remember if I had a tremor and that’s why I was on it or what. ECT really ****s up my memory. But hopefully it will work. It’s worked before.

It's so good to see you, wfc. Sooo frustrating when they don't listen to the patient. I really feel for you. It's surely pretty discouraging that you still feel depressed. Are they doing bilaterally yet?

Great that you found your ID and congratulations on your 1 year anniversary from SH-ing. That is HUGE

Therapy session today. I've been doing intense work in therapy lately and it feels well, hard, but liberating. More rainstorm hitting tonight. UGGGGH! As soon as it is finally sunny and warm I'm going to drive 25 miles to the American River, spend some time on the beach and have a swim. I want to have a camera by then so I can take pictures.

Hope your therapy session goes well it’s good your working through things

Spending time at the beach sounds nice, I haven’t been to the beach awhile. I’ve only ever been swimming in the Atlantic Ocean, it looks really pretty out there in the Pacific Ocean area though

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I know they’re definitely going to do bilateral tomorrow and they may have done it yesterday but I don’t remember. But for sure they are starting tomorrow.

Thank you for your congrats, it’s a very big deal considering what the previous couple of years was like! Now if I can just stay out of IP for an extended period of time…but if the ECT works like it has for me in the past that’s a very big possibility!

I wish I could share a picture of my sweet mawmaw. I miss her so much

My Emsam patches arrived! Now I can hope they work better than the pieced together patches I've been using. I was getting anxious as I was down to less than a week's supply but they came.


Really hope this works.

Me too, rainbow. You deserve some relief

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird Hope your therapy session goes well it’s good your working through things Spending time at the beach sounds nice, I haven’t been to the beach awhile. I’ve only ever been swimming in the Atlantic Ocean, it looks really pretty out there in the Pacific Ocean area though

Thank you, Birdie. The session went really well.

Yes, the Pacific is absolutely magnificent.

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow My Emsam patches arrived! Now I can hope they work better than the pieced together patches I've been using. I was getting anxious as I was down to less than a week's supply but they came. Really hope this works.

YAAAY!!! That is wonderful!

Well, my daughter walked right past me, only several feet away from me. This hurt. She has caused me allot of grief and emotional pain over the years. This time she went over the top. We have not spoken for about three months. Once she grows up, she may regret what has happened and call me to talk. I will just have to wait until this happens. This may take years.

My aunt made it through her lung cancer surgery. They removed 2 areas of her lung. Not sure what the next step will be.

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Talked to my brother tonight. He starts chemo and radiation next week. I'm scared for him - I mean I feel confident he has a good chance of beating the cancer, but I worry what it's going to be like for him being home all the time as he's prone to depression.

My mother is being her usual narcissistic self, so you would think my brother's cancer is about HER. Unfortunately she also has a habit of spreading misinformation. Apparently someone in her seniors' residence said he'd had radiation in that area and it was very painful. So she told my brother this like WTF? He doesn't need to dread it more than he is.

My brother also said that my mother told him I don't mind being in debt. I said no such thing. I simply refused to talk to her about my finances anymore. My husband and I struggled a great deal during Covid, when my hours were cut and he lost his job. We still managed to make our mortgage payments and recently paid our mortgage off. So yes, we have some debts that we had to incur, but we're okay and her constant negative gossip about our finances wears me down. She seems to think it was our fault that we lost money during Covid, even though she speaks sympathetically about others who went through similar struggles.


My brother and I always tell each other what she says because we don't want her to tell each other false things... but I'm thinking of asking my brother not to tell me - it really hurts my feelings no matter how full of b.s. I know she is.

@Samicat, I'm sorry to hear about your brother's cancer. Sadly, my brother also has cancer, if you hadn't read that before. Unfortunately, my brother is really fighting for his life and extreme chemo is making his life all the more miserable. Your brother sure is lucky if his cancer looks fairly easy to beat.

My dad is also in assisted living and was a narcissistic type person. He never really gossiped about me or my siblings, but everything was usually all about him. It's tough.

You know, congrats on paying off your mortgage. That's a major thing. Now you fully have a very secure good investment possesion. So many people don't.

For the last two. Nights I haven’t sleptZ ms

Everytime I try to go to sleep I can’t breathe and my heart starts racing. I know that sounds like anxiety but it’s so weird. Can a respiratory illness do this?

I feel much better this morning. I went to bed and was blessedly asleep in minutes. Woke up this morning to the driveway plowed out so I was able to get the trash out first thing.

Yesterday I was such a mess. No sleep and so inconsistent, antsy and irritable. There was good stuff on tv but the commercials almost did me in. Then while I was watching Alaska Daily the captions kept cutting out. I missed important dialogue. I was reading during commercials and missing stuff but so unable to sit though a commercial. All day I was just antsy and couldn’t settle. I didn’t sleep the night before but last night I was able to. Still sort of scattered though. Now that the garbage is out I feel like going back to bed.

WOW. Hope your hope comes true!

So good to hear!

Sorry to hear about how your mother treat you and your brother. I hope he will be able to cope well with the treatment!

I did it well in the morning, did things step by step. After that I felt tired. We we'll see. I hope to pull myself together again...Well, as the coping card said: "The success is in the doing (starting), not in the result."

Great news! My daughter is out of the hospital, back on her latuda which works wonders for both of us and even better is finally generic. So now it only costs her $15 a month! I’m so relieved.

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Originally Posted by Nammu Great news! My daughter is out of the hospital, back on her latuda which works wonders for both of us and even better is finally generic. So now it only costs her $15 a month! I’m so relieved.

Wonderful! That is truly good news.

I swear, if I hear one more person say "Well, we need it" I'm gonna puke on their shoes. We do not need any more rain! At this point it's causing more problems than it's helping. Grrr

We went to our property today. There was indeed quite a bit of progress. The estimate of two or three weeks is likely a sure thing. Maybe even just the two weeks.

Unfortunately, the renovation manager informed us of a theft of our property there. There was an underground cable that someone pulled all the way from the ground and stole. It's not a very costly cable, but it was supposed to be underground. Now the replacement will need to be routed through the house's attic. Plus, who did it? The renovation manager thinks it might have been one of the workers. He talked to them about it, but of course no one fessed up and its hard to blame any one of them without evidence to do so. So, if it was a worker, they continue on the project. If it was an outsider, then the question is whether they were just an ordinary thief, or a disgruntled person from the village who doesn't like outsiders. If the latter, I worry they could also strike again. We'll be glad when we're there to have a hopefully preventative presence. So sad that this happened! We just can't get a break and so wanted to move there feeling good and hopeful about neighbors. Not suspicious.

We might just get a security setup because of the above. As a deterrent. At least most thieves in CZ aren't packing heat like so many in America.