Bipolar Check-in #81

How much risperdal are you taking? I’m on 1 mg and it doesn’t make me tired even though my Pdoc just upped it for that!

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Originally Posted by Moose72 How much risperdal are you taking? I’m on 1 mg and it doesn’t make me tired even though my Pdoc just upped it for that!

I am on 2mg and working with my Hydroxyzine and Melatonin, I am out like a light. But I remember taking it during the day used to make me very sleepy in addition to the Lithium.

i take 2 mg in am and 2 mg in pm.

I’m doing good. Just got back from the cook out. It was weird, so many did not come. I wonder what the story is there? I know the ruckus the other day was over the only one hamburger per person until everyone has been served. But that’s just the way it should be there was about 10 of us last time that didn’t get either a hot dog or a hamburger. So I don’t see what the problem is. I heard there was a heated exchange but the person who started telling me this, I interrupted and changed the conversation. So I’ll never know. Just personalities.

I go tomorrow to the dentist. Oh joy! Other than that not much happening here.

I have shaky hands from nerves today. Not sure if I put that I've been looking for jobs advertised elsewhere. Problem is I live rural so closest schools will be half an hour away at least.....and the grass isn't always greener on the other side. I could be looking at entire cohorts out of hand instead of just a year level out of hand. It's such a tough decision.

My POTS symptoms started getting worse again this week, especially in the mornings, so I decided to fork out the money for another IV to see if that once again helps. The woman who started my IV asked if there were any changes to my medical history and then felt the need to say that's good, she hoped they hadn't put me on any more meds because I'm unfortunately already on a lot. Why say something like that? I hate to think what her reaction would have been if I had chosen to start the corticosteroid the neurologist prescribed.

I'm extremely tired today so that hasn't been ideal. But, my mood is still pretty good.

im so tired of practicum orientation modules. i am not zooming anymore. im very tired.

This dryness itches and burns. It’s gotta be meds considering how suddenly it started

are you still using the cream maybe you are allergic to it?

What is POTS?

I prayed to God to help me make healthy food choices today but i still ate junk. Discouraged.

I applied to a Primary School this morning.

Well I'm not officially rejected until they send a rejection email, right?

How cute! My mom crotcheted all kinda of things. She tried to teach me but I just couldn't get the hang of it. She crocheted angels for the Christmas tree, dollies, before I was born she had crocheted these really pretty dresses for a Styrofoam doll on them. They were stunning. All kinds of things. Proud of you for sticking with it!

I had a boring day. I listened to some music today but not a lot. I fell asleep on the couch and kept telling myself get up! But I just couldn't get uplast night. So I went to my bed to elevate my legs and watched the movie I am Elizabeth Smart. Oh so much she went through. But she married now and has a couple of children. So happy she was found.

I toook melatonin and finally slept peacefully

My therapist just cancelled 2 hours before we were supposed to meet. She rescheduled for tommorow. Should I be upset? Because I'm not. Preop I would have been livid and yelling at her. Now I'm just like "whatever" but idk if I'm being taken advantage of.

My new headphones are coming later today after my session would have been so a session wouldn't have even be very productive without me wearing headphones.

My surgery seriously saved my life. Yeah, I can't have kids but my mom has 2 grandsons and a grandaughter from my sister. So we're all good.

These Stress gummies are weird. How does a $12 OTC thing actally work without any side effects? Also the melatonins too.

Sorry for everyone struggling

My mood is stable though kind of flat but it's better than mania or depression. I did take a walk/jog this morning. I went before sunlight, and the moon was out, a full moon very bright yellow, so that was nice to see.

I don't really have anything planned today, going to try to relax, have some groceries being delivered this morning.

I do have a question for those of you who take melantonin that seems to help with sleep, what brand do you take? I'm not really liking the taste of the brand I have right now and it's almost out so I need to reorder (it's sublingual so dissolves under the tongue).

Yes I am. Seeing the dr later today

I take a "Nature's Bounty" brand for Melatonin @Blueberrybook - but it kind of has like a bland taste too. I kind of just swallow it with water. They make Melatonin gummies that taste better, I used to get them, but these bland ones are much cheaper.

Feeling a bit of anxiety this morning because my sleep was all messed up last night - it's getting to be a hit or miss sometimes with my CPAP - some nights it feels like it is just pushing out way too much air. I need to go back and have my neurologist check it, but her office never answers the phone or email, ugh.

Going to just concentrate on work the next two days and get buried in it. I have to pay for my dad's laptop I bought for his birthday and my eyeglasses and sunglasses prescription the end of this month - I wanted to put some money away, but I just have way too many expenses - that seems to be happening every month though.

Hope everyone has a productive Monday!!

it was maybe an emergency

Yeah it was she explained it. I understood it and was fine. I've been watching Hulu and its almost past our appointment anyways.

But why do I get charged full price if I cancel 2 hours before, even for an emergency?

Not fair but at my t
Office
I have to cancel
Before noon the day before
Or
I pay
Full
Charge of
$200

Ugh. Seeing new POS psychiatrist in less than two hours. Feel sick with anxiety and am considering taking 100mg of seroquel to calm down. I saw her once before. She took me off haldol and sertraline cold turkey and I ended up overdosing and IP. I've spoken to her once over the phone since then, in February when my now retired psychiatrist was on vacation, because I was having issues sleeping. She didn't take me seriously and I went hypo and then crashed afterwards. She also asked me if I'd been drinking! At three in the afternoon! What the hell. I don't drink. Anyway, so that's twice I've had bad encounters with this person. I'm not expecting this time to go any better. But it was between her and some moron who took me off diazepam cold turkey. I don't know which is worse.

Anyway, so I'm just listening to music and trying to calm down. Had a nice lunch out with the family. Husband and Daughter are currently at the park. I decided to stay home so I could try and chill. I think I'm going to need that seroquel! Wish me luck everyone! I definitely need it. Who knows what this woman is going to insist on doing to me!

I didn't take my pantropaloze today. I forgot. And besides once after walking on my treadmill, my stomach and nausea have been fine. But my anxiety has been amazing. I've only taken 2 valium, the second for maintence. Just to stay ahead of my anxiety. I haven't taken my Geodons yet. Lately I've needed everything by 11AM. I'm not freaking out about current events or anything and I'm not paranoid. Idk if pantropaloze can cause severe mental health symptoms or not.

I guess this is good as long as my stomach remains calm.

And I have headphones now

I got some werid *** cold all of a sudden. I'm sneezing like crazy and my nose is running.

Yet I can't cancel therapy or else I'll be CHargEd

I might get my $450 med a lot cheaper from my regular pharamacy. I talked with my doctor and he was able to get it for me. It won't be the autoinjector but it will be the same med. I really hope it won't be expensive. Kinda nervous about sticking myself in the stomach with an actual needle but I really don't have money to be on this type but its really helped out my moods.

I’m leaving for work in 5 minutes but thought I’d pop by and say hi!

Will post later on today. Have a great day all.