[IowaFarmGal]

Very busy day at work. I'm pretty tired, I was speaking gibberish after work and flipping through old memories. I brought Mom some flowers and cherry jelly hearts; and a valentine cake for my son. No chocolates this year.

Sorry you don't feel good Buttercup. My head is throbbing and I feel faintly sick.

Originally Posted by DreamAddiction37

He's turning 25 tomorrow...?

was a play on words, he's 25 years old, and for 25 years his birthday has been the day after Valentine's day...seemed self-explanatory to me but then again i wrote it, so

Hehe dont' mind me. As someone pointed out to me, that it was probably the aspie side of me compelled to correct where the literal meaning didn't make sense :/ Because (yes I'm compelled to say this) "...has been for the past x years" would imply that it was different at some point or will be someday to me. Plus you didn't point out that you meant it follows Vday you said his birthday is tomorrow and has been for ... :P Ok I'm being a troll I shall tape my proverbial mouth shut.

hehe I understand though not paying attention to Vday because of his birthday following... here's some popcorn for enduring my crazy grammatical rant

ha xD no i get it. i'm usually pretty grammar-ninja myself but lately i just haven't bothering with it too much. i'm on my "up" cycle. sucks. but i'm where i don't care and try not to because caring makes my "up" turn into a "down."

blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah...

yeah, i wasn't paying attention to my post, sorry xD i see why it was confusing now xD

My day on the computer is pretty much winding down and I guess it's time to join the real world for a while. I'm happy with the work I've gotten done, which is something right. I just hate nights. It's when the worse of my traits come out most of the time and when the anxiety and depression tend to take over. I guess I shouldn't dwell and get on with it!!

The loneliness has enveloped me and it's no one's fault but mine. I either won't or seemingly can't take the steps I need to get rid of it.

And who in their right minds would want to be bothered with me anyway?

Yes.....self pity party....oh well....

[ruby.lestrange]

I'm frustrated with my job today. I used to like it, but my boss keeps sending me crap work that pays nothing (I just spent nearly 3 hours editing one chapter of a REALLY badly written book - and made 6 euros). I want to quit, but I am tired of quitting jobs. I've never been able to hold one for very long, and I really wanted this to be different. I also like to have my own pocket money and not rely on SO, but the stress of this job is getting to me too much. I'm worried I'll do something rash and just quit, only to regret it later.

Grrr.

Today is a good day to ...... be alive (take on "Flatliners")

I'm here! Sorry I'm late.

-Fleeing Bellocq

Trying to bury my problems in my work. Don't know how well I'm doing.

[youwillrise]

so, yesterday was better

but today i woke up annoyed and angry and i cried a teensy bit before going to work. work was extremely busy and stressful and crazy...hopefully the afternoon will be calmer.

thank goodness the weekend is coming soon.

so much to talk about tomorrow during my counseling session.

i don't know what i did but i'm "down" again...

it hurts the worst when i realize how good i had been feeling, and then to realize how short that time was...

Been pretty glum and depressed all day and it doesn't want to lift.

[IowaFarmGal]

I felt pushed and rushed all day at work. I didn't feel good anyway. I had a couple hours to kill after work before my therapy. I ended up eating a turtle sundae, drinking a pepsi and reading my homework assignment and having my wiper blades changed. Advil helped.

my in-laws are coming over this afternoon and i'm just begging whatever higher powers there be to make traffic pretty heavy so they'll be late so my husband can get home before they show up and help me get this stupid house perfect...

meanwhile, my kids are underfoot of course and i just want to clean. this is a brand new thing for me. i hate cleaning, and i hate being put under pressure, and i'm getting it from all sides today...

my mood is going further and further south as the day progresses.

i'm just going to be glad when i can get everything up so i can vacuum. kids are so messy, haha.

[youwillrise]

im hanging in there today. not feeling great or anything, but not awful. im just really tired today. had a really anxious night and trouble getting to sleep, so i did some breathing exercises and turned on the back massager to relax me and i was able to get to sleep...except, i didnt sleep long enough.

had some really crappy dreams, too. lately ive had a few "bad" dreams. it's been a while since ive had dreams that i would consider "bad" ones. my dream recall isnt what it used to be, too...but these dreams were blaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

[avlady]

That's awful, i feel sorry for your daughter!!!!

Lost four hours of work due to technical issues. I hope they pay me for it regardless; money is too friggin' tight right now. Mindset: I'm holding my own for now. We'll see.

[youwillrise]

got back from my session...this one was really hard for me. the psych said that i looked distressed. i had a harder time getting my words out than previous times. i dunno.

I started off the day excited for the whole relaxing weekend to myself but I've slowly grown more and more irritated. That's kind of the story of my life. I don't know why I let silly little things irritate me. Part of it is that I'm lonely but when I'm irritated it's not like I could be around other people anyway so...whatever.

the day of stress is finally over...

the house is clean, the in-laws came and went...

over-all okay day but i feel so overwhelmed yet...

just want to scream.

Present.

woke up feeling better today. realized what a sweet awesome dog we have. trying to decide if i want to go to church. church is...not fun for me.

[youwillrise]

today is eh...

i woke up about an hour and a half ago. ive been laying in bed. thinking about things. some good/fun stuff and some no-so-good. i just want to lay here and rest some more.

[BrokenNBeautiful]

I HATE weekends.

So gd triggering.

I had to tell Arvind, AGAIN, I don't wanna have s*x.

Carol

Feeling okay, but kind of alone and not sure what to do with myself (weekends/days off are kind of like that for me). I'm wanting to ask my friend to hang out tomorrow night and feeling anxious about it for some stupid reason. I always feel this way when asking this friend to do something. The worst he can say is no, and then we'll just do something another time. But I guess I feel like, when he says no, that I'm a big loser and he's so much more popular than I am and he just knows that I'm boring and have nothing else going on. ARGH, why do I have to think too much??