The BPD Check-In Thread #6

dancinglady · Oct 09, 2015, 05:39 PM

[QUOTE=ushichan;4715493]Knowing my passion for outer space, my mom bought me a book on early theories and present space travel!!! It's great, it definitely keeps me distracted!
But I'm still sick. I'm past the 3 month mark of when I first got sick, and recently it's been getting worse quicker. Luckily my best friend is looking out for me, helping me communicate with my mom about what I need and such.
Unfortunately she lives so far away...

I've been working on my first DBT skill lately and as of two days ago, I'm officially free of psychotic symptoms!!! First time in 3 years that I've gone without at least a quiet voice in my head!

Sounds like you are one of the lucky ones with support from friends and a mom that is trying to help and understand.

loveyouhun · Oct 09, 2015, 09:06 PM

I'm doing OK but I hate pushing people away. A lot going on and I'm emotional, mentally drained. My sister-in-law passed away recently. I feel like I'm not getting the moral support from my family.

cryingontheinside · Oct 10, 2015, 09:04 AM

Never been more bored in my life. Oh life sucks . why do I exist

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technigal · Oct 11, 2015, 02:28 PM

Happy Turkey Day to my fellow Canadians.

Oct 11, 2015, 04:28 PM

Still sick. It's getting progressively worse... No one knows what's going on. But my mom refuses to take me to the doctor until a few days after I run out of antibiotic. Why? I have no idea. But I need to see a doctor, I want to feel better.

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Oct 13, 2015, 02:52 AM

Still sick. Still getting worse. I'm seeing my doctor tomorrow (FINALLY!) and hopefully they'll have an idea of what's happening. I went to an ENT today and he suggested a CT scan because of how long my sickness has lasted, and how unresponsive it is to its supposed treatment. Maybe I'll get a more thorough exam tomorrow, as opposed to the doctor just hearing my words and giving me meds.

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cryingontheinside · Oct 13, 2015, 12:54 PM

Lonely and bored 😫

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cryingontheinside · Oct 14, 2015, 01:42 AM

Feeling more positive today

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Oct 14, 2015, 01:45 AM

Had the worst mood swings today... My friends picked a fight with me and the one person I thought I could trust called me a "little ******", so that got my heart rate up and then my sister (knowing all of this) picked a fight with me so naturally I lashed out really hard and was so close to doing something stupid. Then I started looking at pictures of dogs and my mood shifted back to positive within 30 minutes. I feel myself getting a bit angry again, though...

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Oct 14, 2015, 01:46 AM

Also, I'm going to have to have surgery on my sinuses because of my chronic sinusitis. This mainly occurs in old people, as does bad joints... I guess I really am an old soul, heh.

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dancinglady · Oct 14, 2015, 01:32 PM

[QUOTE=ushichan;4722856]Had the worst mood swings today... My friends picked a fight with me and the one person I thought I could trust called me a "little ******", so that got my heart rate up and then my sister (knowing all of this) picked a fight with me so naturally I lashed out really hard and was so close to doing something stupid. Then I started looking at pictures of dogs and my mood shifted back to positive within 30 minutes. I feel myself getting a bit angry again, though...

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Sounds like you ended up using DBT skills and were successful. Congrats.

technigal · Oct 14, 2015, 02:21 PM

Had a root canal done yesterday. Feeling pretty good today.

Kek de la Doge · Oct 14, 2015, 03:25 PM

feeling like **** and just hoping it would end. whats the point anyway.

cryingontheinside · Oct 15, 2015, 09:56 AM

Feel like crap. Though alot about suicide last night. Tried to phone a help line called sane but couldnt get through . I hate me.

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Oct 15, 2015, 11:51 AM

I love it when my friends call me immature because I can't go to a cotillion because I literally can't stand up because I'm so weak. :^)
I hate them, I hate all of them, I hate everyone except for Megan. They all don't even bother to try to understand. They hate me and I know it. GDI, I'm so sick of everything.

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ThunderGoddess · Oct 16, 2015, 05:20 PM

Just overall feeling pretty sad today tried to use some dbt skills it helped here and there but I keep coming back to sad. I keep thinking I know what other people think and it's such crap . ... ... . I feel like everyone hates me but maybe the truth is just that I hate me.

cryingontheinside · Oct 17, 2015, 07:21 AM

After being really depressed I'm actually feeling pretty good today . I'll enjoy it while it lasts

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ThunderGoddess · Oct 18, 2015, 10:45 AM

Right there with ya cryingontheinside feeling good today and going to enjoy it!

cryingontheinside · Oct 19, 2015, 10:04 AM

Up and down like a yoyo!!!!! Woke up was ok then had to go out I was self loathing then I felt amazing then full of anxiety and panic and now I feel quite good but anxiety is creeping in in the background its never far away and my mood can change in an instant !!!

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cryingontheinside · Oct 19, 2015, 10:05 AM

I ran out of medication..
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My meds usually help stabilize me a little ........I'm going to search my flat for any old medication I may have misplaced

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WibblyWobbly · Oct 20, 2015, 12:08 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

I ran out of medication..
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My meds usually help stabilize me a little ........I'm going to search my flat for any old medication I may have misplaced

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I do that a lot. I never throw my old meds out anymore because when I need them, I really need them!

Oct 20, 2015, 11:30 AM

I had the worst meltdown last night... It was over my "friends," and I started talking to my best friend about them and I was crying and I did some stupid stuff. This morning I'm better, but I'm still sick, which really sucks. My new antibiotics were supposed to work by now...

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