[Rose76]

Busy day. I cooked a good dinner. So I'm tired now. To bed. As long as I stay busy, I don't feel depressed.

[Deilla]

Had a good start to the day. Feeling optimistic. Will try to have a good attitude today and relax as much as I can.

I showered and did laundry today, so at least everything is clean

even if it is still very painful and depressing that I've not got a clue where I am or what I'm doing with life

[Rose76]

I am unhappy about criticism I get from my bf. I am depressed.

Dinner will taste good. I'll feel better after I eat.

Feeling restless the whole day...probably bc of my psych meds. I have stopped taking prozac and amisulpride(anti-psychotic) as I was getting severe side-effects from them and I m reducing the dosage of the remaining meds(lamictal, buspar and others)....hopefully everything will be fine. I feel sad and anxious and somewhat hopeless.....

A real nice, sunny day this morning, for a change! I'm not used to it. I kind of miss those cloudy rainy Saturday mornings. Woke up feeling pretty awful emotionally. Feel a little bit better after breakfast and listening to music. Had some weird dreams. Today is the start of my week-long vacation. I'll be doing the usual Saturday stuff today.

[Rose76]

Too demoralized to do a dang thing.

He say's "What are u making for dinner?" I just was wondering how "Grub hub" works. I'm sick of the kitchen.

A summery kind of day today. Totally clear skies and close to 80 degrees, just like yesterday. Last night I went into downtown to take a walk. I do that once in a while for a change. The place was kind of silly but it's a little bit adventurous. It's not something I want to do a lot. Also last night, as I was walking, my stomach got a bit upset. I haven't had an upset stomach in years. I had it a little bit this morning, but it's going away.

My friend mentioned last night that he might come to my area this afternoon. I'm very surprised because he just had eye surgery and it's very hard for him to see. I hope he comes, but I'm not betting on it.

[Rose76]

Depressed today.

Originally Posted by will19

A summery kind of day today. Totally clear skies and close to 80 degrees, just like yesterday. Last night I went into downtown to take a walk. I do that once in a while for a change. The place was kind of silly but it's a little bit adventurous. It's not something I want to do a lot. Also last night, as I was walking, my stomach got a bit upset. I haven't had an upset stomach in years. I had it a little bit this morning, but it's going away.

My friend mentioned last night that he might come to my area this afternoon. I'm very surprised because he just had eye surgery and it's very hard for him to see. I hope he comes, but I'm not betting on it.

I am glad your upset stomach is going away

those are never fun

I never like sundays.

they are the day that shouldn't exist

did quite a bit today like my alexa games and watched a comedian (though the comedian was ****)

I guess I feel somewhere in the middle with my mood, I didn't exactly waste the day, but what I did do wasn't really gaining the results I wanted

(bad comedian, low score on the alexa games, bad meal, etc)

[Mountaindewed]

The weather has been in the mid 40’s and sunny these past few days. Therefore for the most part I’ve been feeling pretty good (not manic or euphoric though) and I haven’t been feeling much depression at all.

I knew it would blow over once the weather got warmer. It’s been this way every year for at least 8 years. My doctor was hesitant. I’m not sure he believed me. But I knew it would. It happens every year and then I’m good until mid October when the SAD starts up again.

[sefirot ocelot]

Well I've calmed down after what seemed too odd for me. It was hysterical to me looking back though. What am I to do when there are no prospect out there for someone like me? I have no real talents or skills. I went into biology at a community college and I forgot all the chemistry I ever learned. My family treats me like dirt and scum. The only nice thing in my life was my grandparents, and they are all dead now. I don't even have a job. And I literally don't understand human emotions or people at all. Na. That is the only thing I'm good at.

[Deilla]

Feeling hopeful this morning, like I might have a good day. I'm trying to stay busy. I think I need more sleep though. Will do a few chores today then relax.

Today is the first "real" day of my vacation. I call it "real" because it's Monday. It feels different being at home today than it does on Saturday and Sunday. A nice sunny day outside but a bit cooler than it has been. It's supposed to get back into wintery type weather in the middle of the week with rain and cooler.

Last night my sister called and it was late for her (11:15PM). I didn't expect her to call. It went alright, but she sounded tense. She's trying to sell her house and get another place to live. Pretty much the same position I'm in now.

Nothing much lined up for me today. I guess I'm just a kind of person who never knows how to relax and do nothing. But that's what vacations are supposed to for, right? Yesterday I purchased a new flat screen TV. I had my old TV for 25 years and it was an "old school" kind. Got frustrated setting up the new TV, especially since I don't have cable. I was dreading having to set the thing up since I'm not good at electronics and mechanical things. It all went well now and I absolutely love it. I don't know what I've been missing by not watching flat screen TV.

And now I plan to go to a recycling center of some kind to get rid of my old TV and microwave. I have a lot to do tomorrow as it will be a full day for me. I have a couple of meetings scheduled about possibly moving, as I had talked about on here before.

[Deilla]

Having a difficult morning today. I'm trying to work on a project but half my files are missing. I'm a little tired. But I'm anxious and want to be up. I don't know. Maybe some meditation will help me. It's worth a try. Or a little chair yoga.

[Fuzzybear]

Hugs to all

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Hugs to all

Hugs to you too fuzzy.

Feeling restless and anxious and sad...

Woke up this morning and it was not sunny. I looked out the window after getting up and it's foggy. A lot to do today, but no plans, so far, for the rest of the week. I feel like I should get something going because the purpose of having this week off for me is to get my moving out of my place going.

I plan to visit a couple of museums in the morning. They are free admission. I've done it before and pretty much like it. Sometimes they have school field trips and I'm not crazy about that. In the afternoon, I have a couple of meetings. One is to meet with the RE Agent for questions and later on a meeting with a financial advisor.

[Deilla]

Got a call from my insurance company. It upset me. They constantly pressuring me to use the mail pharmacy. That doesn't work for all my scripts. Maybe a few. And then I've got to get the doctor to do something special for me to get it to work. It's so stressful. And if I forget and I'm close to running out, I'm screwed. I wish they would leave me alone about it. I'm not that organized.

Today is the half-way point of my week off. I don't have any feelings of sadness. Nothing planned so far today, but I'm going to just look at some complexes. I hope it will be a good day because it's very cloudy, cold, and looks like it's going to rain. A complete change from summery weather we had earlier this week.

I had a great day yesterday. Except that I couldn't get into the museums because all of the parking spaces were taken. And I went just before they opened. There was a big crowd, so that didn't appeal to me. I felt disappointed when I ended up not able to go to the museums, but I've done it before.

[Fuzzybear]

Rejected, abandoned, cynical, jaded

[Fuzzybear]

Where is my “tribe” - it’s with the Bears

[Deilla]

Feeling lonely, frustrated, tired and anxious. It's time for bed. I think I will feel better after some sleep.