Weight loss and exercise #2

Just under 157 this morning. I can't read too much into it because I was at the gym until around 9 PM and 50 minutes on the ARCTrainer produced a lot of sweat. I don't think I am rehydrated yet. Probably around a pound light. I am tempted to move a late night snack I logged as today back and just let it ride as over. I logged 600 calories of exercise yesterday, which seems like a lot but between the TRX and the gym trip it might be low.

EDIT - More thinking; I am going to try to make that late night snack fit into today. If I am serious about losing back down under 155, I have to stop rationalizing.

Looking up a few posts. It seems like I am in continuing monologue mode. Sometimes I post here to think "out loud". It keeps me honest to try to explain the thought process behind my choices.

167 pounds today. Not good. I did not meet my quota yesterday of 2500. I had consumed 2130 calories. I guess this is better than previous times of not meeting my target. I cannot imagine what it will be like when I start exercising again. I did start eating earlier in the morning. Maybe I can fit in a small meal with my regular eating habits. I still need higher calorie foods. I do not have any money to purchase additional groceries until the end of the upcoming week. But I do have icecream and chocolate syrup.

Update: 12 PM I have had a buttered bagel.

I went to Burger King yesterday for lunch and then I had pizza for dinner. The day before that was not good either. So because of that I was expecting to be a few pounds heavier on the scale this morning. Since my weight can go up drastically so fast. surprisingly I was only 155.2 which was only 4oz more then the last time I weighed myself on Thursday. I’m really glad about that. I thought for sure I’d be 158 or so.

I’m back on track today. I have eaten 690 calories and I have 510 left for the day.

I have really been having trouble limiting snacks lately. A couple of times I have forgotten to take my meds first thing with breakfast and again at lunch and end up snacking because of sour stomach and make poor choices and/or there is a treat out that looks too tempting. I have rolled forward and not given up on any yet. I need to remember meds tomorrow and work on not snacking and having a really light day to catch up. I had a good workout his morning but with what was rolled forward and some poor choices today, I will end up rolling some forward into tomorrow. I almost hope tomorrows weigh in bounces back up enough to scare me.

I did good today. I didn’t buy any fast food. I’ve already had 860 calories spread throughout the day and not just one meal. I have 340 calories left for dinner and then I’ll be at my goal. My weigh in is tomorrow.

I have really dug a deep hole for tomorrow and it will be a day of little or no exercise. I am guessing 158 or even 159 in the morning.

Yoga will be wednesday evening this week instead of this morning.This morning I have to see my doctor about a trapped nerve ,possible tendonitis,I had a pain in my arm saturday and my arms are swollen and I have been getting numbness and pins and needles.Some of the problem is in my neck nerves cos when I massage my neck the numbness and pins and needles disappear.These symptoms have been worrying me all week last week and last weekend.Yesterday I started fearing that I'd become paralysed.I rang the NHS helpline to assess me,they didn't say it was urgent,just to see a doctor in the next three days.So that is my news,no progress has been made on my losing weight,in fact I have gained four or five pounds,so disappointing again.

2183 calories consumed for Sunday. 2190 for Monday. I am down to 166 pounds. Here we go again. I will be eating mashed potatos for today.

I was 159.0 this morning. I don't usually track tenths anymore, but it made me feel a little better that it wasn't super close to the limit. I rolled forward crazy calories and I am committed to pretty much toughing it out today. I have had just over 400 calories so far (almost 3 here) and will have 200 more - a protein bar for dinner. It would be unhealthy to do this for more than a couple of days; I am only doing it one. Assuming I make it, that will mean the last four days average goal. That will get me back to even, which is a slight deficit so I should be slowly losing. Gym in the morning and if I can find someone else to go I may paddle in the afternoon; it should be 72 and mostly sunny.

Next weigh in Thursday AM.

I am at 155 exactly. So a couple oz less then on Sunday. Today I had a string cheese at 9 that had 80 calories and then a slice of pizza at 10:30 that 580 calories or so. Maybe a 100 more. I’m not totally sure. Dinner will be a piece of chicken that has 110 calories. That leaves me around 330- 430 left for the day. I’m kind of stressed so I might just have a stuffed pepper for a snack. That has 200 calories. I might be a bit under, but again I’m not totally sure on that slice of pizza and I’m really nervous and stressed right now. My next weigh in is Sunday morning. I’m hoping to be 153.8.

Well, I'm over...
By 10 calories! I think I can stick it out for today. I am logging 1610 calories for the day, but only 640 were actually consumed today. I rolled over 970. That's why I decided to take drastic action. The trick is keeping from going crazy tomorrow. Lately gym days, when I earn some extra calories, have been tougher than rest days.

The pain resembles tennis elbow today.Doctor said could be tendonitis,I am tired in pain and feeling quite miserable...cancelled yoga for the foreseeable future.I will take it up again in January.I feel I have let myself down but can't take the pressure of having to do everything.Doctor said overworking the muscles is probably what has caused this.Gonna rest as much as I can and take it easy.

Can you see a PT? Waiting until New Years seems a bit extreme. I have done PT for tendinitis a few times; it's chronic. Using the bands I would still get some exercise and didn't lose strength while I rehabbed.

Doctor has to refer for PT,he hasn't offered to,and I can't afford private.
It transferred to my elbow today the pain,burning pain,it is.Tennis elbow.It has died down now,the pain,after I took ibruprofen and rubbed arnica creme onto it.
I am going to rest from now until christmas,as I have been run down and not getting enough sleep and rest.

I still weigh 166. I ate 2520 calories yesterday, and 2817 today. That is a bit more than I expected it would turn out to be. Chocolate shakes help. Frozen custard even better. Talk about calories.

159.0 again today. Ate more than I should have yesterday, including some calories dense snacking (candy). The "pipes" were a little backed up until this morning which makes me a little less concerned; if that had cleared up before weighing I would have been closer to 158. It's a no gym day but I will put in some TRX time.

I gained 5 pounds, really upset about it, but it's to be expected as I have indulged my love of desserts.

Consumed 2608 calories which is over about 100. No exercise. This was an easier day to fill up on calories. I am concerned that if I fill up too much, when I need to lose to keep in my range, I will feel like I am starving. This is an uncomfortable feeling. Once again I am getting paranoid about this. At least I have to gain several pounds to get back into my range. I will have to kook it up on a previous post. I forgot what my range is.

I ate stupid again yesterday, logging forward and leaving few calories for today. I did a long session at the gym this morning - 90 minutes of ARCTrainer and 40 minutes of circuit training - so I can at least eat somewhat normally today. Still haven't really broken this stupid cycle. I will weigh in the morning (Saturday)...

I almost skipped weighing because I did not break the cycle yesterday and have so much rolled forward I will probably start rolling again by lunch. And for dinner I had a chicken sandwich with feta and sauted onions on a kaiser roll from a local Med restaurant, so one of the heaviest things I ate was late in the day. I expected to see 160+ and I have not been over 160 in months. But I figured maybe that was the kick in the butt I need, so I weighed. I was just below 158. I am still planning to eat very light today, though I did a normal breakfast so my meds won't bother my stomach (I hope) which is often one of the causes of snacking.

I had a couple string cheeses again as usual. 160 calories total. I had a can of spaghettios that had 420. I didn’t really feel like eating a second hot lunch or anything. So I had several Japanese snack things. I had 4 snacks total and they had 340 calories total. Dinner will be pork pot roast which has 230 calories. Total it will be 1,150. I’ll have to come up with an extra 50 calories somehow. My weigh in is tomorrow morning.

I didn't eat so light yesterday. Wen to the gym last night and burned through a lot of excess but still rolled over 500 calories forward. Planning to paddle this afternoon, exercise tomorrow (Monday) morning and weigh on Tuesday.

I was 156 this morning. Yesterday I was 159. Wednesday Thursday and Friday were rough. I had burritos on Wednesday. Thursday I had a gotta have it chocolate devotion from Coldstone Creameary and then on Friday I went out to lunch at Cracker Barrel. So Saturday I was 159 but then Saturday I was fine with my eating and today I went back to 156. My mom said “don’t expect this to happen after you hit 30.”

Anyways, today I’m having 3 TV dinners and a couple snacks and total it’s going to be 1,210 calories. I haven’t had any fast food this weekend.

One thing I need to do is tighten up my logging. Sometimes i get a little sloppy and estimate portions. Figuring out burn from exercises is not an exact science. I keep kicking myself for rolling forward and playing catch up but I do catch up, which means I should be at a deficit and losing weight, but I seem to be hovering in the high 150s. Paddled almost 6 miles last night and worked out this morning but got back to a more normal workout of about an hour. I think doing more extreme workouts makes the vicious cycle worse because I get really hungry and know I have burned a lot and can get away with a little excess. The next thing I know, it's a big excess...

I am just eating what I want when I want,not good really.