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What are you determined about, Terroni?

Sorry about your cat, CE. Losing a member of the family is always rough.

What do you mean????????

CE - sorry to hear about your cat.

I also have an elderly cat - I get so worried about them suffering and me being clueless or selfish to keep them alive too long. Of course, I feel that way about people too.

Granite, dear. I hurt inside for you. My post wasn't directed at you either. I have read about your situation and the stuff you posted yesterday rendered me speechless. All I felt I could do for you was give you the biggest hug possible, which is what I would have done had I could see you in person and if you let me.

You have been through so much in your life, My mind cannot conceive it. A T doesn't have to have been through what you have to be able to empathize. I like my T's new mission statement: "Helping you find your path to wholeness and healing."

There are 2 key things in that statement. One is something that I don't know that your T could do for you. "Helping YOU find YOUR path." I don't understand why your T cannot let YOU express yourself as YOU want to. It's YOUR path to healing.

The second pertains to my understanding of what my T meant when she said "You can only take someone as far as you've been." That is "healing and wholeness." Right now, I am not whole. There is still stuff from my past keeping me from living as a whole person. Being whole doesn't mean perfect; whole people still have triggers and issues and behave badly. But the holes that are created in our hearts when we are hurt so deeply are patched.

I was thrilled with the fact I talked about my biggest "thing" and the world didn't end. In fact, it was received with understanding, empathy, and lack of judgment. Came with a hug at the end, so still touchable too.

Granite, thanks for being classy enough to be happy for me, even when reading my post hurt.

CE...I'm sorry for your loss.

Your mood icon says "Determined".

I neglected to congratulate you on this. But you seem so together that I forget that you still hurt.

((Chopin))

(((((((CE)))))) So sorry about kitty

((((((((((Granite)))))))))))

(((((((((((CC)))))))))))))))))))

Oh OK, I think I am determined to do well in Therapy this time.

Baby Brown?! Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I.feel.like.I'm.Gonna.Vomit.

Oh, yes Chopin. We have a Couch Baby on the way..Sally is prego. We are knitting blankets.

Dang...I better get started knitting then.

Sigh.

spill jersey whats going on for you ?

yeah Jersey Whats up?

Little of everything. Been so stressed and full of anxiety. Feel like constantly I'm gonna vomit. And my back teeth have holes from grinding from the anxiety. I'm constantly walking around with my jaws clenched. Can't deal.

Well done! That's the song all right.

It just goes to show, a human still beats Google hands down.

Thanks!

PS:

Just added Hunting High and Low on CD to my shopping cart at Amazon.

Leaving for the anatomy exam in less than an hour. Very anxious but it'll be interesting to see how much (or little) my brain has managed to learn in four days.

woke up this morning violently angry at everything I am heading to NY and don't want to go .I am angry at the world. wrote yet another letter to T .not that it will do any good

CE I am so sorry for your loss. Let yourself grieve, you are losing a vital part of your family. Please let us know if we can help.

(((granite)))
You have a right to be angry. Anger isn't bad in itself, as long as it's not misplaced. Like, if you hurt yourself because your t messed up...that's not good.
We care about you, but so does your H. A weekend in NY just may distract you.

It is spring-like here this morning. Just last week I was freezing, today the sun is shining and birds are chirping and squirrels are hopping. Wild. Sadie hasn't done her morning "business" yet because every time I take her out all she wants to do is track squirrels. We've been out several times. Lex thinks she's nuts. So do I.

Breathe Sweetie. Just breathe.

Having a truly awful day. Have agreed to make appt with gp to tell her about eating issues at request of T. I think she just wants to pass me on to someone else/free herself of any responsibility if anything happens to me. She says my life is in danger so it is her ethical duty to refer me. I can't do it. I know the secretaries and receptionists and they will all have access to my notes. What should I do? Have had day with H to try to discuss issues. A disaster. We sat in silence through lunch. It is hopeless. He hates me. I have no one. T said that yesterday but she won't respond to my texts or emails because it is her boundary and for my own good. She thinks I want support from parents & husband - well yes that would be nice but it ain't gonna happen so reach out to her instead. My life is such a mess. I feel terrible. I can't go on like this. Sorry but I need to vent.