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It's sad (and hard) when loved animals die. I'm sorry MKAC.

Well, I am home and fed and still awake. It was really busy today. We were all running around like chickens with our heads cut off.

I am just trying to relax now. I have to be back at 11am tomorrow fir a 4 and a half hour shilft. At least I can get a good night's sleep tonight.

I'm so sorry for your loss, MKAC.

MKAC so sorry for your loss.

So sorry MKAC...

So, I decided to text t today and ask for an appt next week. We'll be talking on Wednesday morning. (she responded in record time, so naturally I assume she was expecting me to ask lol she was probably just between clients!) I don't know yet if I will talk about this stuff with my h, or if I will just work on the slew of dreams I've had since I saw her last month. (There are a lot of them!!) Perhaps if I would start seriously working on them myself, I may find anyway that they relate to the stuff with h who knows. I think I should work on the dreams myself and talk about my problems with h.

how great is it to look into a dogs eyes and see calm and happiness radiating from them

execpt when said puppy is chewing on your fingers with needle sharp teeth

I had a meeting with my sup today, and he challenged me a bit again. He's very good at challenging me in just the right ways. Today, he had me listen to a couple of calls and then he had me coach him as though he were the rep who took the call. It was hard and I was so nervous!! Because he is one of the best at coaching in our center. But I did it. And he said that I even observed a couple of things that he had missed. Then again, he's a good coach, so he may have just made that up to make me feel better hahaha. I was recently chosen to be a peer coach at work, so he's helping me be the best one I can be. As nervous as I was before we started, after we were done, I found myself asking if I could practice with him again! I must be nuts. But it was kinda cool because as he was coaching me on how to coach (can I use that word any more today?) it slowly dawned on me that I need to use some of the same principles that t uses with me.... the being present, noticing and sharing the positives as well as the negatives, the active listening, making it a conversation, getting buy-in.... interesting. Verrrrrry interesting!!

Hey Art he might doing it for that other position you applied for. I think thats what I want to say I can't remember much about what the position was.

I have survived yet another 3 weeks between session. Only 2 days to go now.
Hugs to Mast and everyone else whos Ts are on leave.

facepalm (is there an icon for that? lol) I bet that's exactly it!! It didn't even register. Thanks for pointing that out!

I am feeling good as a couple of days ago my ex said that his parents have him to live there and look after them. He asked me how I felt I rather callously said I wouldn't miss him much but the girls might. He hasn't answered my calls or texts, good thing its nothing important.
And its true, I can look after myself now. I am hardly leaning on him only when its something concerning the girls.

I am leaning harder on my T but I guess thats allowed.

Well, I called my dad tonight, since I am off tomorrow night (I work during the day). I work al day Saturday and Sunday as well. I offered to take him out for an early father's day dinner. What does he do? Invites his wife (my step-mom). She is always more judgemental of me than he is. Now I will have her there saying crap too. I only thought to take my dad out so he wouldn't get p.o.-ed that I didn't do something for father's day for him. Now I will have him and her telling me I am fat or other harsh things.

I am for sure not paying for her meal. She can pay for her own. I will pay for mine and my dad's, but there's no way in hell I am paying for a 3rd meal.

Good for you Squirrel! You didn't invite her so why should you pay for her.

Yeah apparently "etiquette" rules. Which means, i find a rule somewhere that backs me up (married couples are a social unit and must be invited as one) and goes against you. I dont see my nephew because their etiquette rules that we only get together as a "family" - ie auntie hankster plus granny. No cutting the 60 plus year old umbilical cord. Oy.

((((Mkac)))

"Not my house, not my fire." -- Laurence Fishburne on Hannibal. I prefer the circus and monkeys version! )

I need to change my sheets but with the rain and the dogs - it is a bit pointless to put clean sheets on the be for the wet dogs to muddy up. I hate sheet changing.

Ah bed sheets... mine are driving me bonkers lately... they won't stay on my bed for anything!! I bought a set of those strap-thingies that are supposed to hold the sheets around the corners of the mattress but they don't work for squat!

Well my eyes are no longer wanting to stay open. I'm heading to bed. Night couch!! (Or good morning!)

Night Art.

Here I am alone again. My D's have gone to friends places this afternoon and I am alone and feeling slightly uneasy, every noise i hear I think its the ex coming to hurt me. I dont know what has stirred this all up again. I suppose it was his announcement of leaving and my response. I am such a twit sometimes.

I cooked a roast last night I might have a cold roast lamb sandwich for tea. I dont know why people make a fuss about cooking a roast its kind of set-nd-forget type cooking.

Just saw the movie Inside Out. Very cute and clever. Lewis Black as the voice of Anger is of course my favorite.

Um... That was an apology and a conciliatory gesture. Just saying.

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