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#502
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#504
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Yes! It is fascinating.
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![]() Elio, Out There
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#505
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Dear T,
Sorry I lied by omission but you would have mentioned IOP and I didn't want to have a meltdown in front of you. I was already in tears telling you someones always behind me. How was I going to tell you the other stuff? I'm so scared I'm loosing it I can't deal with this.
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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#506
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Isn't it? I think recording is really helpful.
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![]() Elio, Out There, Waterbear
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#507
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Hey
Hi Hello See You tomorrows
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![]() LonesomeTonight, lucozader, Out There
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#508
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Teeeeeeeeeeeee,
My attachment to you is getting stronger. I don't like that. Abandon me already?
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I do not wanna be afraid I do not wanna die inside just to breathe in I'm tired of feeling so numb |
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#509
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That might be a good poll...Do T's realize how much power they have over clients? How things that might seem minor to them (an example in my case, not shaking hands before session anymore) can really affect us? |
![]() Elio, lucozader, Out There, ~Isola~
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#510
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Dear MC,
I miss you so much right now. I hope we can talk tomorrow afternoon or evening. Or even Thursday, as long as it won't be while I'm out with my mom. Though I admit, I'm a bit curious as to how she'd react if I was like "Sorry gotta take this call from my marriage counselor" then went outside for 20 minutes. Pretty sure she'd say I'm inappropriately attached to you (as she has some other male authority figures before you). I'm glad you accept me as I am, attachment issues, neediness, clinginess, and all... Love you, LT |
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#511
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#512
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I think any T who has had extensive therapy themselves understands the power they wield. That's one of the reasons I think it's an essential part of training.
Certainly in my case I think my experience with being a client will have a massive effect on my ability to understand my own clients. I hope none of them are as crazy as me, though. ![]() ETA: this is something I was already thinking about today, since it struck me how odd it is that a person simply acknowledging my existence could fill me with such joy and comfort... he has such power. He could hurt me so terribly. He could ruin my life. Pretty terrifying really. (Or he can just say 'I remember you, you exist' and make me feel amazing ![]() |
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#513
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I'm pretty positive she knows. I just want to hear her admit it. I cannot fathom why, really.
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![]() Elio, LonesomeTonight, lucozader, Out There, ~Isola~
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#514
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I want to talk about some of the things my mom said to me when I was a kid. Like, how I'm not a nice person, I don't care about my family, and how they didn't raise me to act the way that I did when I was a teenager. I know she was just taking out her own "stuff" on me but I think there was still a part of me that internalized it and still believes it. Just one more reason I feel like there is something wrong with me.
I was tempted to email this to you and still might...otherwise, I know it will come up if we do EMDR on Friday so maybe I'll just wait until then. |
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#515
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I can't remember his answer to My question haha. Guess it wasn't shocking
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#516
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T,
I don't think this is working. Is there really any point in going in and telling you that? Best,
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"Fantasy, abandoned by reason, produces impossible monsters; united with it, she is the mother of the arts and the origin of their marvels." - Francisco de Goya |
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Dear T.
We made this about my brother today. It wasn't about my brother. It was about my Mum, it was about me not feeling like I had anyone. It comes from a younger place than my brother or those boys. It comes from a time when I needed her and she wasn't there for me. That's where the sadness lay today, though I couldn't show you. You said you were sad, and I should have been too, but I wasn't. It is too scary to be that sad. That part of me is still scared to be vulnerable with you, but I trust that it will keep coming. I trust that you have the patience and I have the determination to keep doing this, together. ETA. T didn't tell me that I should have been sad. I am saying that to myself. I know, there is no 'should' with feelings, but it's like I need to push myself to do this. It is safe. It is time. |
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#518
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Oh, oh ,oh, T, I've got a game and it might help me to look at you. You know that game where you stick one on your head and ask questions that the other person has to answer and then you have to guess who you are.
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#519
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Dear T,
I hope you can help me figure all this out tomorrow. I just need to determine what "all this" is by tomorrow's appointment, I guess... Love, LT |
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T-
I had this, I don't know.. reaction today. As you were dropping kids off at school, I was at the door waiting for somebody to let me in. Your kids were getting out, and laughing, and you said Alright, Love you. And to hear that out of your mouth, I just have been thinking about it a lot. I mean, I don't wish that you say I love you to me, and I generally do wish you were my dad. I just can't get your voice and you saying it out of my head. I don't usually have issues of paternal stuff like this.. Not sure exactly why I can't get it out of my head. I am not sure that I am brave enough to say anything to you though.
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"You decide every moment of every day who you are and what you believe in. You get a second chance, every second." "You fail to recognize that it matters not what someone is born, but what they grow to be!" - J.K. Rowling. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. |
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#521
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Hi t i am so tired today not sleeping well excited and nervous about my class starting tomorrow and kinda missing you too a lil bet I'll sleep good tonite...
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#522
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I think this is one of my best therapy metaphors evah! I really gotta start writing these down. |
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#523
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i do have a need-a regular session time again like other long-term clients have. Then try again. Please see me and hear me this time, not a projection of what you want to see and hear that leads you rushing to conclusions that aren't the truth of things.
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![]() Elio, growlycat, LonesomeTonight, Out There
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