Couch 157: Fair Value

Use of the word honor would tip the scale towards therapist to me.

But glad to hear he is a good guy.

I dunno, if he were a therapist I think he would have blown that whole conversation somehow.

I’m going with “good guy.”

I'm so, so sorry.

No response to my email to my therapist yet. I hope he can see me today.

I'm so exhausted after therapy today. I am really fatigued. For the first time literally ever I'm thinking I might have a week off next week. I've never passed up an opportunity to see him before. Perhaps I'll feel differently by next week. It is just too much work at the moment.

Are you sure about that?

))Stopdog((

)))SD(((

Thinking of you SD

Thanks everyone. Yesterday was just a bad day.
I really have to get over this. Much like poops-everybody dies.

When I used back the car out my dog used to sit at the window and whine and bark. Now when I back out there 3 little faces (dog plus 2 kittens) that don't make any sound and Somehow this is much worse

It's almost 1 pm here and I still haven't had a response. This is torture. Just tell me yes or no so I can stop obsessively checking my email.

Am I the butt of a cosmic joke today or something? Netflix just sent me an email for a new docuseries I might like.

It feels like the world is actively against me not crying today. I got upset earlier reading about how the latest mass shooter in California's first victim was his wife who he shot and put under the floor in their house.

I really, really want to go home now.

)))SD(((

(((NP))) that really sucks. I hope you're home now, and better.

Math question...because I am horrible at math:

Is .140% less than .15% ?

)))SD(((

sorry to hear it is still so rough for you, SD.

in other news, i feel broken. my brain is sludge, and if i knew how to cry properly, i'd be crying on and off all the time. each day is an eternity, and i have to somehow visit my mom and her partner next weekend for thanksgiving. i just don't want to do it anymore. i want to quit my job, never see my family again even though they are fine and just wither away into the ether. is that so much to ask?

All I want to do is download a chapter of my Ebola from my uni library but it doesn't use Adobe digital editions it uses something called blue fire something else I don't have time to learn

Yes
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Its not too much to ask, but its not as much fun as it sounds.

Oh who am i kidding. Its great!

After contemplating it extensively on the way home, I am convinced Andrew Marvell had a therapist in mind when he wrote:

“Had we but world enough, and time,
This coyness, lady, were no crime.”

Oh...Info appointment tomorrow. What crazy thing will she do/say/be wearing?

I really need a normal-er therapist.

I'm for the most part pretty darn glad that I don't have a normal-er therapist!

For the most part.

Sometimes.

Kinda.

i know it isn't as much *fun* as it sounds, but i am struggling massively. i feel so so so effing alone, and i don't really know why i am dragging myself out of bed every morning.

Oh, just admit it already — you’d be bored out of your mind with a normal-er therapist.

Btw, my crazy neighbor or neighbor with the crazy dogs (I can’t decide) chatted with me today — said her therapist had suggested an invisible fence for her dogs (I did not mention anything therapy related).

And, then asked me if I’d like her to do it — I was like “Uhh...what...hell yes? But I can’t tell you that coz you could secretly resentfully have them poop all over my back yard when I’m away etc?”.

Also, asked rather pointed questions on whether I covered up my porch door because of her dogs (ummm....yes but also general creepiness).

I wanted to ask her if I should ask my therapist to speak to her therapist to resolve this issue efficiently and properly, with the requisite discussion of various traumas (described in confidentiality of course) all around.

(Yes, I do feel like I’m in a New Yorker cartoon on therapy.)