Couch 157: Fair Value

Yes, I'm definitely familiar with the use of "butterflies" in that way, like nervousness but in a good way, not a horribly anxious way. Nervous excitement.

Yes, you put them on the spoon.

(I feel like saying, “and then you stand on one foot with your eyes closed chanting a hymn to Dionysus.” It’s a Very Serious Ritual.)

I am definitely going!

I quit the first one today. She seemed surprised, but I pointed out she had been useful in keeping me from killing an md when my person was ill - but now there was no real point. Just going in and saying I am still sad seems to be a bit of a waste and I have no need to have her point out (like she did today) the glaringly obvious fact that I seem to be having trouble moving on/making decisions about some of the estate stuff and the combining pet stuff. Because I am not actively unkind, I did not go on about all the ways I have found therapy not useful. I wonder if I would have quit today if I had not been so put off by the way she stated the obvious.
So that is it then.

That is what happens when you let them talk. They state the obvious.

I’m always going to think of her as Irene Adler (“the woman”) and you as Sherlock Holmes.

I ordered the court recording from my husband's sentencing hearing and listened to everything but me speaking. I had no idea how much emotional stuff was going to come up by listening to this. Shame, guilt, grief, anger. I also just now came to the realization that we could have died that night. I hope that last sentence doesn't sound stupid. Maybe I'm overreacting.

I was at work and couldn't stop crying and had to leave early. This was not the week, apparently, to step down from three sessions to two. I've emailed the T asking him to please let me come for my normal third session. I hope I can.

Besides reliability and privacy issues, just how paternalistic do we want our health-care providers to be??
Why the first, FDA-approved pill with a sensor will be controversial

I'm super not fond of outright paternalistic MDs. Soooo not fond of my former pdoc offering his opinion "as I do to all my young female patients" about me going on hormonal birth control. Soooo not fond about how I had to doctor hop to get it as well.

NP, I hope you can have your third session. You're NOT overreacting. You indeed could have died. *hugs*

Re: Norwegian coffee, I made a thread on reddit asking for recommendations in the city I'll be nearby in Norway. Got a loooot of recommendations and even a few roaster suggestions I'm no coffee expert so I'm a bit overwhelmed... it's like being new to wine tasting and not understand what people mean by fruity notes, dry finish or whatever the words they use...

My Norwegian is still really basic making websites hard to read even with google translate. I wish my partner drank coffee but he hates it, which is his loss lol.

In russian too

and how much more will each prescription COST with said technology I wonder? I couldn't even read the whole article. Working for a pharmacy and seeing every DAY how much medications cost, no way. No f'ing way. They would likely be cost prohibitive to those that would need them the most. I guess I should shut up though and read the whole article... maybe it's just science fiction?? holy cow this is almost unbelievable!

thanks for sharing this. I couldn't even imagine such a thing!

Is it gonna know when we poop it?

I seriously wondered that too! Well, actually my curiosity was more along the lines of what happens to the chip after it delivers the message - does it biodegrade? is that even a word? Or does it poop out? And if you poop it out, mighten it scratch your bum and cause an infection? Cuz, you know, poop?

What kind of information can they collect? Where we were when we pooped it even? Were we at home? At work? On the street?

Am I paranoid?!

Sorry. I'm a lil out of control tonight.

Are they assuming everybody takes their phone to the bathroom? So they have a fix on our geographical location. Hey if they can do this, can they clean my toilet automatically? THAT would be science i can get "behind"!

Someone posted a good review on my T's page... "Thank you for everything, you changed my life, I won't forget you, I'm going to see you again to ask how you're doing and to tell how I'm doing" etc

In my head right now:
Yay, he totally deserves it!
Noooo, he is mine

Today was my person’s birthday. We always had poundcake for her birthday and gingerbread for mine. Sometimes the grief swamps me.

)))SD(((

Nods to stopdog.

Capt, omg I just saw an advertisement for a psychology conference for students and my T will be the speaker for clinical psychology.

Instantly envious of whoever hears her speak.

Also reminding myself: they're not her patients. I'm one of her patients. They get to hear her give a talk but I get her as my therapist! ....but I wish I could hear her speak.

My parents are homophobic and I hate that (I'm hetero, but it doesn't matter)
Dad also says that "marriage is for kids, everyone has to have kids"

Nods to stopdog... what ate you doing for yourself on this day?

A friend I was really looking forward to see (we see each other maybe all 6months but I always enjoy it) had to cancel. We already had to postpone last week
I know intellectually that it's not her fault, that she's not doing this to trick me, but it feels like it.

Also T said something weird yesterday that I can't get rid off in my head and now I'm a crying mess sitting on my couch while puppy desperately tries to eat my jeans.

I disagree with your dad. There are so many people who I'd rather have no kids than having them "just because" and then abusing them.

You don't have to have kids if you don't want to capt. It's ok.

Yeah I know I just hate that he thinks he's always right and I'm always wrong.

I'm sorry your friend had to cancel
Do you want to share what did your T say?