Couch 179: Even-numbered days in a year

I wish you a speedy recovery chihiro. Perhaps a movie as a distraction would help?

Thanks, Lemon. Just started watching the Netflix series Maniac. It has themes of mental health stuff but I'm not finding it triggery so far.

Couchies, do you have go-to movies that you watch when you're sick? Would appreciate any recs y'all might have.

I have 3 days left until school starts again for me. Today I currently have Harry potter and the goblet of fire playing. Yesterday I watched number 3.

I would really really recommend the bollywood movie Pad man on Netflix. It was so good and very inspiring. "It tells the true life story of the journey Arunachalam Muruganantham took to market a hygienic, low-cost sanitary pad that even India's poorest women could afford."

Other movies I like: You've got mail, a little princess, little women. LOTR. the shop around the corner.

I hope you feel better soon.

(((Lemoncake))) i heard about that, i think on pbs.

I hate car problems! Its so frustrating! I had low tire pressure when I was at an amusement park on Saturday and I was so afraid I was going to come out to a flat tire. Nope just low pressure. At least I didn't need a new tire. I get major anxiety every time something goes wrong with my car. And it's not like my parents wouldn't let me borrow their's but I don't know, I guess its the uncertainty of it all. I hope your car gets fixed soon and that its not too expensive!!!kit.

Sorry... i got WAYLAID...

(thats why i love you - thanks for the straight line! )

An hour into work and already everybody has needed something from me. Where's this? Where's that? When is this arriving? Aaah. It's overwhelming sometimes. I usually come in and barely have to talk to anyone. Kit.

I’m watching the hearings.

It’s unexpectedly a tad triggering.

Thanks. Yesterday they said another 4-6 weeks to be working at home which is ridiculous since I've already waited over a month since the approvals were done. Oh well. It'll happen when it happens.

I've been stressing this week cuz of work, I and son health stuff and now my car I just need to let it all go somehow but meanwhile am still struggling with the concept of a higher power.... and what I do or don't believe in that regard.

Oh t is gonna have a field day with me today. Ha.

WAYLAID huh?!?

"Among other definitions, getting Waylaid describes the last minute sexual event that causes you to be late."

....and there I was thinking it was the good old coffee in your veins.

Just call me Mrs Lemoncake Crane.

Warning for parent estrangement, but I absolutely adore the Jim Parsons movie Home. (It's a kids' film where he plays a purple alien...perfect light relief.)

4-6 sounds long but hopefully will speed by in no time. I hope your session with L today goes well.

Oh, silly me, i thought it meant i got waaaaay laid!

Eta - yeah, not even in my dreams!

So I'm on a course and the lecturer is talking about someone who went on this course and is now teaching at a particular place. Another guy on the course pipes up and says "Was it [insert name here] I was taught by her". The name he said was my T1's wife, the one who he told me had split up with when he messaged me inviting non therapeutic contact. I couldn't breathe. I just sat there trying not to hyperventilate. Awful. It's like those two follow me round.

Thanks! I'm sure it will. They almost always do.

My car: so it took them awhile to duplicate the issue but it finally didn't start for them too. They did some initial investigation and suspect the after-market alarm system the prev owner put in is somehow the culprit in the wiring. I don't need it anyway, so they're taking it out. Hoping that does the trick....

I hope so too. Car trouble is so annoying and irritating.

Thanks. This is the 2nd week in a row it's trying to keep me from therapy! Think it's trying to tell me something? Haha

I am hoping the grass cutting I do today is the last lawn mowing of the year.

Today in awkward therapy moments: I’m trying to talk to my T about being unsure whether it’s OK to talk about certain topics related to connection because of some past responses he’s had. T: “this may sound arrogant, but I’m sure I’ve had some clients with romantic feelings for me who never shared them. But for those who did, we were able to continue working together, as long as they didn’t keep trying to push boundaries in an aggressive way.” Me: “.... um, ....yeah I’m not talking about romantic feelings...just connection.”

LT

Sorry I had to chuckle... even though I also thought "Yikes" when I read it. It reminded me when I talked about 'strong feelings' for my T and he was like "Even if you mean romantic, that's ok" Umm... LOL.

Of course many clients dont talk about it though, it's weird and seemingly un-needed.

As for the connection chat, you seem to be feeling more content with things, so maybe it's not super important to focus on. You will do just fine next week, I know you can

Also, earlier In session (before that all came up), I mentioned how I’d had the voicemail from ex-MC that I used to listen to for comfort. And how I didn’t have any from T and wanted to ask him to just leave me one. T said that was a lot of pressure, “like what if I burp in the middle of it?” Which amused me. I said I think you can generally re-record them.

I have some from my former T that are comforting. Even if they don't reflect the situation now it's nice to be able to hear her voice. Kit.

I wonder what L would say iffn I asked her to record one for me. I still think it would be great if t's would have a separate number that they don't answer, but that plays pre- recorded messages in their voice like "press 1 for general encouragement" "press 2 for a sympathetic gesture" or something that way we could call it at 3am or something. A lot of times for me I know just hearing her voice would calm me down.