Couch 181: The Symmetrical Couch

I'm trying to self soothe with disney music or I'm going to blow up

(((((whispershadow)))))

PB&J again for lunch...boring. And my Mom's over puddinged pudding cake. Normally she makes it perfectly, but she forgot to take out a little bit of the pudding before mixing it together. Good news is that it is lunchtime....halfway through the day. And the scuttlebutt around the office is that we might be hiring someone for purchasing. Woo-hoo! Kit

My T is awesome. I mean, he has his flaws and shortcomings (including one major one), but when I really need him, he's there. He really validated and supported me today with something going on in my life, and it's exactly what I needed. I just wish I could have spent, like, another hour talking to him... The T relationship is amazing in some ways (the undivided attention on the client) but really sucks in others... Like, when you're hanging out with a friend...there's not generally someone waiting for their time exactly an hour later who they must go attend to, no matter what place you're in at that moment. (OK, maybe if they're on their lunch break at work, but still, not generally...)

It's like...intense closeness but also intense distance at the same time.

Glad to hear it went well LT

Ya I agree, it sucks... the other part too is that the intense closeness is usually only felt by us, the client....

Exactly! Good summary LT!

Sits under the table
I am the dunce in the class
Despite all my hard work
And that is the biggest “crime” of all - to my PUS
Not to be someone who “earns” a scholarship - so the PU didn’t have to pay anything
Which he did not anyway
Due to MY “hard work”
T1 - I’m an “embittered” bear? Maybe so...
(I do have a degree.. and I don’t judge anyone by their paper qualifications)

Bad paws

“Bad paws”
Why wont this world let me go

We need our Fuzzy

GOOD paws

Well, the fertility doctor thinks I have an endometrial cyst I have to go do another ultrasound. If I have one, I have to do surgery again. Which means putting off pregnancy once again. Maybe I'm just not meant to be pregnant

((((ScarletPimpernel))))

(((((Scarlet)))))

I am trying to decide whether to cut my grass one final time for the season or just let it be long for the winter

Thanks for all the hugs and whisper for the soup. I feel much better this morning and i am working on my mickey mouse impersonation. Dog pretended he was dumb and refused to work the microwave i think he was under instructions from the cats.

On my car front it is fixed i just to borrow $777.90 from the community credit people as the dealership insurance paid for $1000 and i paid what i could. So maybe next week i should have it back

If the weather is reasonable pleasant, mowing the lawn can be a good way to get some fresh air and exercise before nasty weather sets in.

Are you one of those gardening types? I look at grass cutting as no fun but immediate gratification.
I do walk the dogs 3-5 miles every day no matter the time of year (unless pouring down rain which my dogs hate or ice which I refuse to kill myself on)- that is how I get my daily fresh air and exercise.

It was literally 82 degrees here today. Sigh. Wishing some colder weather would set in. It's supposed to be 75 degrees on Halloween. Downright chilly. Lol. Kit.

I thought cysts often came and went with one's cycle? maybe it's just something like that? Hope you don't need surgery...

Seeing T again tomorrow afternoon. The whole "Yay, I feel peace and calm" thing was short-lived. Which isn't surprising, considering what this is about...Glad he could fit me in, but feeling awkward about seeing him then immediately meeting D and H for dinner...

Yeah, I always like to have time to IDK decompress after therapy. I don't like when I have to rush right in to something else. It's like I don't process or something when that happens. And then I'm usually not fully "present" in whatever activity after T so if possible I really like to give myself time to chill. I'm sorry the peace and calm thing didn't last. ((hugs)) kit.

Thanks, I often like the decompression time, too. H did say that if it was a difficult session and I didn't want to go to dinner, he could just take D. But then I feel bad, especially knowing that the session is mainly about him (which of course he doesn't know--I just said we had a really intense session today without getting into specifics). But maybe I'll talk to him about this stuff soon...because it involves how he relates to me and D...

I hate mowing. Despise it.

Taking advantage of the last of the good weather is about the only thing that could make me consider mowing the grass if I had any other choice.

He seems to usually have time to see you for extra sessions. That's a good thing. Hopefully you can get back to peace and calm.

Yeah, he tends to keep a smaller client load, which he told me is intentional. Still, 4:30 on a Friday, I wonder if he originally intended to leave for the weekend then...I know this probably seems silly, but it's like I'm worried he'll see me tomorrow and I'll seem mostly OK, and he'll be all "Why did she want to see me for an extra session???" But I'm also very trained in seeming OK, so... And I know from the topic he'll understand why I need to talk more...plus he's getting paid, so...

ETA: Ex-MC and ex-T very rarely had time for extra sessions. I think maybe once with each over 4 and 6 years, respectively? I mean, sure, a fully booked T makes more money, but there's also something to be said for having a more open schedule to accommodate your clients' needs.