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#101
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@cutman2000
Just checking in on you. You don't have to "purge" everything at once. And it is OK to recognize that it is emotionally draining to do it. I'd do a couple of hours and then be exhausted for the rest of the day. You're mourning. Grief is exhausting. RDMercer |
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#103
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I received a mail today, a W2. It's my wife's. It's the second or third mail for her overall. Why would I be getting these. This W2 I got today looks like a new job.
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#105
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My son is now living with me. He's been with me for a few weeks now. He's also working with me. I haven't started being active outside of work yet, but I plan to restart the weekly piano lessons at the music academy soon. I'm looking forward to starting golf and fishing again hopefully this Spring. I've been to the golf driving range a few times in the past 4 weeks. It still hurts like hell, but I know I can't stop pushing forward. |
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#106
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Wow!
Off to a big start |
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#107
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I had 2 online dating subscriptions that just recently ended. Depressing experience.
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#108
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I found that when I recovered from the bad marriage & what I went through I actually gained a strength & discernment thst has helped me avoid depressing experiences because I am in control of my life & my emotions & I don't need outside people to validate me or make me feel good about myself
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![]() Leo's favorite place was in the passenger seat of my truck. We went everywhere together like this. Leo my soulmate will live in my heart FOREVER Nov 1, 2002 - Dec 16, 2018 |
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I was talking to my son the other day, explaining what I was doing while he and his mother were gone, while I was alone. I would get up early, do a light exercise at home before work, eat out twice a week for dinner, driving range once a week after work, business class one night a week(female student made a pass on me and said she loved me-I didn't pursue that-but it felt good), and piano class one night a week. While I was telling him this, I remember listening to myself(while telling him this) and felt amazingly proud of myself and just said, "wow!" My son was looking at me with a smile on his face. I could tell he was also impressed. He really wanted to know why I stopped. I explained that I was mentally upside down, due to his mother. But I told him I was working on it.
To be honest when she came home, I stopped everything to focused on her, on us. She left a few months later(maybe 4 or 5 months later). And now I know I have to reboot, just haven't yet. She's been gone for about 9 months or so, feels like 3 or 4 weeks. I feel depleted, scared, and lost. I know the method of taking care of yourself works on many levels, just have to find that initial push to get going. But currently I do feel very low again. I have no friends, no real family(sisters and a brother, I don't really talk to any other family). I do have one older friend back home that I call sometimes. Some may suspect that my wife is gone but I won't confirm it. I feel ashamed. |
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I'm happy for you.
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“I know the method of taking care of yourself works on many levels, just have to find that initial push to get going. But currently I do feel very low again.
I have no friends, no real family(sisters and a brother, I don't really talk to any other family). I do have one older friend back home that I call sometimes. Some may suspect that my wife is gone but I won't confirm it. I feel ashamed.” I can relate to a lot of this. The low periods come and go. I’ve noticed that over time they got less intense, shorter, and further apart. I also noticed I had times of genuine happiness in between. I can relate to the shame comment too. I dodged family and avoided old friends for a year. RDMercer |
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
#116
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Together for 26 years. Married for 23.
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#117
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Hey,
Just checking in. Are you ok? RDMercer |
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