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Old Jan 09, 2014, 05:27 PM
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Newtus, I agree with you they are contradicting themselves. There's a really good article today about coercive treatment and that not everyone is on board with this whole idea of forcing treatment. (and it's an idea pushed more and more in the political realm, which is scary.)
The Dangers of Coercive Mental Health Care | Innovating in Organizations

I read it earlier. There's a bunch of articles if you put coerced treatment on the search bar on the home page of PC, from all over the web.

I don't see how you becoming a zombie is going to help your recovery. It feels more like a band-aid tactict and it makes me mad. They should listen and care that these side effects are bad for you.

Sorry i've been so quiet today. I'm crashign down after everything this week, but I've been trying to read back some.
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I don't see how you becoming a zombie is going to help your recovery. It feels more like a band-aid tactict and it makes me mad. They should listen and care that these side effects are bad for you.
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THANK YOU!!!!!! This is exactly my point!!!!!
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Old Jan 09, 2014, 05:52 PM
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i dont want to be a zombie

ive been compliant for 6 months now and they keep upping the dose. the reason they up the dose is because i was in the hospital 1 time. ONCE and that was because i called the suicide hotline because i was upset with the quality of my life.

to be honest not being able to get up and do things. ANYTHING PRODUCTIVE is not helping me recover. its keeping me in the same place for actually more than 6 months. ive been on the injectable for 6 months but i was taking tablets months before that.

i told the suicide hotline that i was depressed because i couldnt get out of me bed and do anything and wanted to end it all.

im tellling you right now. try being on 100mg of haldol and do anything.

the only reason i can write right now is because my injection hasnt kicked in just yet. and ive been using this time to compromise with them and its not worked.


my mom wont help. so forget that. shes a deadbeat mom.
my dad cant help.
my sister lives near canada on the other side of the country. shes got her own life.
and i have no friends in real life to support me.

i mean i actually need my family to help me not friends who arent part of my family unit but thats not gonna happen. im alone in this.
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Old Jan 09, 2014, 05:55 PM
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i cant fight the system if im physically weak and can barely keep my eyes open to stay awake.

do it.
do it.
be on 100mg haldol.

fight the system? your preaching to the choir.
at this point right now - by the time this kicks in ill be sleeping. i may not be able to get on here that much MAYBE. remember when i wasnt on here as much last month? i was sleeping.

i cant talk fighting the system when i physically cant even take a flipping shower if i wanted to.
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Old Jan 09, 2014, 05:56 PM
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I wish you could get a new doctor. This isn't recovery... recovery is to be able to become a functioning person.

I mean, agreeing to be on a med for compliance is one thing, but if that med is not aiding recovery at all and instead makes it worse, the logical thing is to try a different one. The goal of a med should be to increase functionality and not limit it.
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literally all i am asking them at this point literally was "please allow me a reduction in meds or a different one that will not make me physically weak or sleep"

they will not allow me that right.


because if i could just get out of bed or a out of a comatose state i would be doing so much.
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Sometimes I hear what you are saying. I understand exactly what your point of view is and was. I totally get it. But how can you tell Newtus that she needs to fight the battle differently (write letters, lobby against the system, etc) if she can't even function enough to get out of bed? If they keep her over medicated by her injections how the heck is she suppose to change the "quality of her life"? She can't. She has explained in detail exactly what the injection does for her. So knowing this information why should she have to put up with it for "years" until they decide to listen to her and bring the medication down? I know docs and nurses have rules to follow. I fully understand that. I know they have a job to do. Granted. I promote recovery also. I believe a person has to do everything they can to work on their personal recovery. My point is this... from everything I have read from Newtus about this injection situation....I don't believe she is purposely trying to be non complaint. I think she is forced to become non complaint because they continue to force an over the top amount of an injectable medication into her body and it is ruining her "quality of life". I think if they had Newtus on a medication that was actually helping her, that she would take it willingly! Obviously she desires to be well and have a productive life. That doctor has rules to follow yes but he is the one that decides what medication to give. If a patient is saying this isn't working then just maybe they should listen. Don't you think?
So yeah---I absolutely agree she has a choice in meds---if they don't offer her another option they are even bigger jerks than I think---there are several injectable atypicals(risperidone and abilify) that I'm sure would be acceptable even to her untrusting doctors but what I understand her to be saying is not I want another med but I want no med. I'm actually not saying she should write letters---I honestly feel that is an unwinnable battle given how many mass shootings have been attributed to MI individuals lately---what my actual argument is that recovery or an attempt at it is the only way out. What she is experiencing right now is chemical restraint which I think should be freakin' illegal. This happened because she pissed off her treatment team who are poor excuses for human beings to begin with. It will happen every time she fights with them so long as she continues to see them. They will see it as an improvement and continue the treatment indefinitely. Given the few choices in a rural local she is probably stuck with this team and will deal with them for years. Pissing off a**holes who actually have the power to chemically restrain you at will is a really poor choice. Its just like being in the psych hospital---you can lie to get out or actually get better. You have to comply and play their game or you will never get away from it. Play along until you either get better or find a way out.
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Old Jan 09, 2014, 06:14 PM
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when i was college i was on the freaking board to help fight the system and alternative medications. and thats when if i remember on either no meds or very little meds. does no one remmeber me saying that? does anyone remmeber when i was on these boards fighting the system? thats when i was on little to no meds and i was getting sh_t done. i might compare it to hypomania or even mania and i wasnt totally healthy but i was getting stuff done.

i even met with the state representative of NAMI of TEXAS personally. some people may be new to hearing that. i know some are.

SometimesP your preaching to the choir. i was on the board and group of people fighting this in college when i was just not on these meds or very little.

im dreading when this med kicks in because i cant think. i cant physically function correctly. my negative symptoms are ramped.

i agree not being on meds hasnt ENTIRELY helped me. but i was doing stuff. it wasnt holding me back like it is now. what im saying is they arent listening or even compromising for some reason i dont entirely know and i even ASKED them today "WHY" they said "yeaaa..." and went on.
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Newtus my heart aches for you! I wish you had a chance to live somewhere different so that you'd have a chance to receive better mental health care. It's just not fair!
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i feel like im one those old big time musicians who suddenty end up homeless because of a few bad choices and then no one givees a crap about me anymore.
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So yeah---I absolutely agree she has a choice in meds---if they don't offer her another option they are even bigger jerks than I think---there are several injectable atypicals(risperidone and abilify) that I'm sure would be acceptable even to her untrusting doctors but what I understand her to be saying is not I want another med but I want no med. I'm actually not saying she should write letters---I honestly feel that is an unwinnable battle given how many mass shootings have been attributed to MI individuals lately---what my actual argument is that recovery or an attempt at it is the only way out. What she is experiencing right now is chemical restraint which I think should be freakin' illegal. This happened because she pissed off her treatment team who are poor excuses for human beings to begin with. It will happen every time she fights with them so long as she continues to see them. They will see it as an improvement and continue the treatment indefinitely. Given the few choices in a rural local she is probably stuck with this team and will deal with them for years. Pissing off a**holes who actually have the power to chemically restrain you at will is a really poor choice. Its just like being in the psych hospital---you can lie to get out or actually get better. You have to comply and play their game or you will never get away from it. Play along until you either get better or find a way out.

I just think they should listen to her and lift the chemical restraint so that she can function and improve her quality of life so that she can having a fighting chance for recovery.
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i feel like im one those old big time musicians who suddenty end up homeless because of a few bad choices and then no one givees a crap about me anymore.

Well I give a crap! And just think there are probably more people out there that we don't even know about who are fighting this same exact battle as you are. It saddens me deeply to think of you and others in this circumstance with no hope for a way out.
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at this point in time i have no way out.

and idk when they will even reduce the meds IF THEY EVEN DO.

i might even have to cancel taking that college course because the meds also fog my brain and then the sleeping all the time. they said they didnt even want me to goto school. hah

the only thing i can hope will happen is if my body gets used to this 100mg and backs off on me sleeping so much. im HOPING that will happen.

i might even change doctors. but that takes a lot of time and who knows what contact they may have between each other if they do. IF THEY DO. idk. ive never changed psychiatrist on medicare. im still new to medicare.
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at this point in time i have no way out.

and idk when they will even reduce the meds IF THEY EVEN DO.

i might even have to cancel taking that college course because the meds also fog my brain and then the sleeping all the time. they said they didnt even want me to goto school. hah

the only thing i can hope will happen is if my body gets used to this 100mg and backs off on me sleeping so much. im HOPING that will happen.

i might even change doctors. but that takes a lot of time and who knows what contact they may have between each other if they do. IF THEY DO. idk. ive never changed psychiatrist on medicare. im still new to medicare.

I cannot tell you what to do but I can tell you what I would do. If I had a doctor who was not listening to me then I would try to get myself a new doctor at a new place. I don't know if you would have this possibility but personally I wouldn't feel comfortable or safe sticking with a doctor who over medicates me and uses chemical restraint against me. Again this is just my personal opinion.
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I have no idea what to do. Your doctor is terrible, and it's horrible you can't get good treatment. That's what I'm thinking.

My only example I can think of in "being made to go to treatment seems to be working," is Amanda Bynes. Yes, her parents are now in control of her money and she lives with them. yes, she was in hospital for a while. But, she is doing better and persuing going to school for fashion to start her own clothes line. That last part is key because it is showing recovery. It shows hope that she won't live with her parents forever, she won't need to be made to go in hospital, and she will continue on living and not laying in bed all day staring at the wall.

This is the recovery I hope for everyone.
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Old Jan 09, 2014, 06:56 PM
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I gues what I'm saying is treatment shoudl give you hope. It shouldn't take hope away.

And, I think that's the biggest problem with what's happening, Newtus, is they are taking away your hope. That's wrong.
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I'm thinking about trying to finish a 2year degree. I really hate school, but it is not terribly expensive here, and since i already have some complete i am hopeful i could get it done in a year maybe. I really want a new job. And although i am hesitant to take on something at which i would not be successful, my boredom level says i need a little more challenge. I am still mulling it over though.

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I'm so pissed off at the world that shouldn't be happening to her.

Malpractice like this and the world goes on when no one gets a say too busy watching TV to brainwash like CNN running the election, talking about miley cyrus and justin beibers adventures, spending trillions on war... using the military against civilians without legal prosecution..

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idk what to do at THIS point . other than get ready for more sleeping now.

im just so hurt by this.
very torn.
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when i was college i was on the freaking board to help fight the system and alternative medications. and thats when if i remember on either no meds or very little meds. does no one remmeber me saying that? does anyone remmeber when i was on these boards fighting the system? thats when i was on little to no meds and i was getting sh_t done. i might compare it to hypomania or even mania and i wasnt totally healthy but i was getting stuff done.

i even met with the state representative of NAMI of TEXAS personally. some people may be new to hearing that. i know some are.

SometimesP your preaching to the choir. i was on the board and group of people fighting this in college when i was just not on these meds or very little.

im dreading when this med kicks in because i cant think. i cant physically function correctly. my negative symptoms are ramped.

i agree not being on meds hasnt ENTIRELY helped me. but i was doing stuff. it wasnt holding me back like it is now. what im saying is they arent listening or even compromising for some reason i dont entirely know and i even ASKED them today "WHY" they said "yeaaa..." and went on.
Sorry I've only been here since last May...I didn't realize you were an activist. That's awesome! I'm at this point trying to think of what I could do to generate the most impact...I'm think about maybe writing something and submitting it to the ny times. Anyway sorry if I've been overbearing with my words today I'm just worked up because of my pdoc visit yesterday....there is just this insecurity when a single person can determine your freedom so it is just as much me reminding myself of the unwritten rules and to be very careful with the docs. There is no way to win but to get better and get out. The whole system is set to work against people who do not respond to the meds. I was incredibly lucky that the meds worked for me at all...I'm sorry your treatment team is awful and agree it is worth a shot to try and change docs if you can.
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I'm thinking about trying to finish a 2year degree. I really hate school, but it is not terribly expensive here, and since i already have some complete i am hopeful i could get it done in a year maybe. I really want a new job. And although i am hesitant to take on something at which i would not be successful, my boredom level says i need a little more challenge. I am still mulling it over though.

Atypical i hope you do not have the flu!
Cracking i hope your flu is gone or at least on its way out.
That sounds great what are you going to learn?
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Sorry I've only been here since last May...I didn't realize you were an activist. That's awesome! I'm at this point trying to think of what I could do to generate the most impact...I'm think about maybe writing something and submitting it to the ny times. Anyway sorry if I've been overbearing with my words today I'm just worked up because of my pdoc visit yesterday....there is just this insecurity when a single person can determine your freedom so it is just as much me reminding myself of the unwritten rules and to be very careful with the docs. There is no way to win but to get better and get out. The whole system is set to work against people who do not respond to the meds. I was incredibly lucky that the meds worked for me at all...I'm sorry your treatment team is awful and agree it is worth a shot to try and change docs if you can.
yea and i am still an activist. but its hard to work when your chemically restrained.

its ok.

people think im delusional and even the therapist did when i said i was an activist. hah that hurt. but whatever. i consider myself a social and political activist.

anyway
my choices are extremely slim when changing docs because of my financial situation and where i live and medicare and all that. the whole community mental health thing isnt working for me because they dont care. and it just might be the only choice i have right now. but its not a good one. the reason i say only choice is because their whole system of the pdoc and nurse and therapist being all in one building is fantastic but their choice of care or "system of care" is just crap. and i see it with other people who come in there complaining.

im at a loss of words
and idk what to do as of right now
and i know everyone here doesnt know what to do to help me and thats understandable because its the internet.

but idk.
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There is forms online like this. I suppose this is what a lawyer would make you fill out etc..

Psychiatric Abuse Report Form - ECT brain damage, sexual assault, forced incarceration, physical abuse

Stuff like were you drugged without permission, were you over drugged, side effects affecting daily life, etc
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I just think they should listen to her and lift the chemical restraint so that she can function and improve her quality of life so that she can having a fighting chance for recovery.
I think the difference is you are saying what they should do and I am saying what they will most likely do. I agree with you...they should not be doing this to other humans. Psychiatrists are really weird doctors...their history is actually built on the premise that inducing a second illness in a MI individual can cure them. They gave people malaria, electroshock, insulin coma in an attempt to make them even more sick to cure them. The antipsychotics were actually developed due to their tendency to promote Parkinson's and patients were monitored and their dose was actually increased until they had enough symptoms of the disease. Haldol was actually considered the best at this phenotype because it is a strong D2 blocker so it's use became dominant because it suppressed movement thinking etc...it was just a bonus that patients became sedated and restrained the idea was actually to make them twice as sick! The problem is they haven't made any advances since that time...there is no science to back psychiatry...
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I'm thinking about trying to finish a 2year degree. I really hate school, but it is not terribly expensive here, and since i already have some complete i am hopeful i could get it done in a year maybe. I really want a new job. And although i am hesitant to take on something at which i would not be successful, my boredom level says i need a little more challenge. I am still mulling it over though.
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