Roll Call 24

Yeah animals are easy to love---I think that's a great thing to do.

ugh im scared now

Do have treatment goals? I doubt he will reject you because you're sz but some people do have specialties like bipolar or whatever----I think they just want to make sure that they can actually help you. So you know if you had things he could help you with like less anxiety, depression etc-----and if he knows how to treat the psychosis that of course would be amazing but you know if you can frame it in terms of things you have issues with like maybe that you want more friends and socialization---perhaps would like to volunteer-have a better interaction with your mom--you know whatever, something he can help you achieve....

thanks yea i plan on telling him about that stuff.
i found him on psychologytoday.com

im just so nervous. i dont want him to reject me.

this is him.
Dr. Howard Atkins Jr., Psychologist, Plano, TX 75075 | Psychology Today's Therapy Directory

so i just emailed the dean at my school about my psychology teacher. i told a friend about her and he called the dean and DoE and they said she has had complaints against her before. so i emailed the dean and told her everything. hope they realize what shes doing and puts a stop to it

Well he has all the qualifications you could hope for...let's hope he has the personality to match

Awesome!

I would be totally honest with your new therapist, it's the only way he can help you.

ok i will be honest. i wasnt NOT going to im just scared. anyway i hope i dont become attached to him. hes actually 45 min away from me that sucks.

so i texted T about emailing my dean and he said way to set boundaries and advocate for yourself so i wrote back "ya im all growed up" and he said "oh my god. i just got chills " and i was WHAT thats weird but i thought he was joking so i said "hahha" and he said "im serious"...........i guess that means hes proud of me but it felt weird idk....i dont wanna hear about his chills!!!!!!!!!! i guess i should just take it as hes proud and happy that im acting like an adult.

wheres cracking?

It will give you an excuse to get out more...visit new places...ie maybe there will be more than a gas station there? It would be nice if there was a library or something...you can check out all sorts of movies and music these days in addition to the books.

http://i.imgur.com/RsQaMKW.jpg

Newtus this totally made me think of your avatar...

im scared of people. so i may not. im also scared of public places. i mean theres a library in the next town over. its ok. i hope my dad is off from work so he can drive me there but he probably wont be...

yea thats what my avatar is. its simba from the lion king

my paranoia is flaring up. i didnt cancel my appt with the current therapist. im just not going.

i feel like the police are watching me and what im saying.

Yeah that's the book I read last summer/autumn! I thought it was really good, and I related to how it said that the voices come from you/your history (though many MH professionals dispute this). And then the 50 histories are all in the back, which was really interesting to hear so many varied experiences. I hope you find the book interesting JunkDNA.

*Willow*

Won't you get stuck paying if you don't cancel with a certain amount if notice?

what happen was they overcharged me for medicare for many times it went into a fund for overpayment and they been pullinh the money out of the fund for me. i havent payed the last 7-8 times i been there. or so. i dont think ill have to pay this time. if i do have to pay then i will but im too scared to call up and cancel. im very scared. cuz the hospital said to followup there and last time i went to this one hospital if i didnt follow up then the hospital bill didnt get payed.

THIS place is horrible I got put under suicide watch again because the nurses saw some of the old scars on my arms/wrists from when I used to cut myself frequently So they freaking said they were new I told them NO they were old scars but they searched through my room to make sure I didn't have any sharp objects hidden they said if they find any other scars they'll put me under another suicide watch. Whatever they won't find jack on me..I thought they are supposed to be trained to know when a scar is fresh or not anyway? They don't seem to know what they are doing.This is all wrong. Only 4 more days though! Maybe I won't flip out and try to strangle anybody lol...these people are driving me over the edge putting me in a situation that I really don't want to be in almost making me have thoughts or harming others but I do have some self control left in me. I got to see my Fiance' thankfully seeing him put some stability in the atmosphere for me it made me very happy he agreed with me that this place sucks he'll be glad when I'm back home too. I have 4 more days of this hell! hopefully I can hold out. I think that one bossy nurse is the one that got my scars searched and set up the whole thing I don't think she likes me and I think she's plotting against me for some reason. I guess no one can dare challenge her authority... How is everyone? Newtus are you doing better today?

thats how it is man. even KUREHA is in hospital and said she got dragged to her room twice and restrained one time. thats partly why i dont like hospital. they were strapping people down to beds when i was last friday. they called a "code purple" on two people that day.
ive been restrained many times. in many ways. in all ways possible.

im doing better today. but my paranoia is still high. its flaring up. no voices tho. well very very little voices. im still having trouble but doing better than a few days ago.

Glad to hear you're feeling better I'm sorry To hear she's still in the hospital hope she gets out soon too. I will be so glad to be home from this place. It's making me feel terrible. I am so afraid they are gonna try to restrain me or put me under suicide watch again so it's making me very paranoid and sick to my stomach too.

Victory! I actually brushed my teeth. They've been very neglected. Hopefully I'll feel good enough to continue brushing my teeth. Lol I'm way too lazy.

anyone have an iphone? theres a cool music app called Songza. its adfree and has hundreds of genre and mood playlists for free.i suggest it. and ive been through LOTS of apps so i def recommend this one.

I have one but I am not allowed any electronical devices in this darned place grrr!!!
Oh my god I think I am going to have a terrible bowel movement from this horrible food they serve here. I gotta jet to the restroom The computers may or may not be vacant when I return so If they'll let me back on I will be back! Let everyone know I was on And I say hello please thanks!
Byeee!!!