Roll Call 62

I'm sure that'll be fun moving when you get all the technicalities sorted out. There's an awful lot of planning needs to go into moving cities. I thought about moving down to Cardiff last year & was amazed how much I had to research. In the end though it just wasn't feasible on many levels. I think I was hypomanic at the time thanks to my steroid inhaler, it seemed like a good idea at the time...


I've not given up smoking yet, I was trying but getting nowhere so decided just to wait a while before trying again.

Yes they are disturbing thoughts. I'm not a violent person, I've never been in a real fight in my life & avoid confrontation wherever possible. It just seems to be the case that when I get intensely paranoid thoughts where I think others are going to harm me, I start imagining how I would stop them...


I've been off meds for just over a month now I think, I would say this was an isolated incident & was mostly fuelled by obvious behaviour. I'm not really worried that it'll crop up again... it's not like the thoughts came because of some vague notion, the girls were definitely looking over my way.

In the back of my mind I guess it may have crossed my mind that they might have thought I looked interesting. The thing is I think I'm self-conscious & am inclined to think negatively when I see people looking. There was a time when I always took it as a good sign but not in the past few years. It's a cognitive thinking error really, assuming things or fearing the worst of situations.

I'm not really sure what I thought their motives were but I saw it as a personal affront. It just seemed to me there was no way they were doing it for good reasons & must have had some ulterior motive.

thanks junkdna.
i am socially isolated and it would be a shock to me. thank you for understanding my fear.

Have you had cbt? It can help with some of those cognitive errors. I'm kind of a huge fan of cbt

Have you had cbt? It can help with some of those cognitive errors. I'm kind of a huge fan of cbt

Actually I was just thinking, you can get CBT workbooks on Amazon can't you... do you know of any good ones, I see there is Cognitive Behavioural Therapy For Dummies... there may be more academic style ones out there though too.

Actually I was just thinking, you can get CBT workbooks on Amazon can't you... do you know of any good ones, I see there is Cognitive Behavioural Therapy For Dummies... there may be more academic style ones out there though too.

I got one called "Thoughts and Feelings: Taking Control of Your Moods and Your Life, 4th edition

It uses CBT techniques for relaxation, overcoming phobias/anxieties/ controlling anger, and lots of other stuff

Thanks. Just looked that one up... not got many reviews at all but they seem good.

The Dummies one is only £7.99 but that one is £17.99... think I'll probably go for the Dummies one being as it has a lot of good reviews & it's much cheaper.

What's everyone up to?

Hey Loial! Just sitting here uninterested while my fiancee watches the new Mission Impossible. I want to like Tom Cruise, but I just can't get over the fact he's bats_it insane in real life.

Anyone any exciting plans for the weekend?

What's everyone up to?

I've just been combing out my very tangled hair and I'm back in front of the TV. Soon I should call to make an appointment with the pcp but I really really don't want to. I wanted to trim my hair but my friend lost my scizzors!

i need to make an appointment with a PCP. but i am scared of it. i have to soon though bc i am running out of non-psych meds. i dont have a regular one and i hate doctors

decided to try to fry some okra.



my mom found this in my deceased grandmas house. she gave it to me

Anyone any exciting plans for the weekend?

I'm so scared about the clinic. I haven't called yet and he's not going to give me any prescriptions unless I go! I'm so afraid! I'm sorry I'm repeating myself but I meant to call. I think it's too late today now. I'm too scared by life. I just wish it were over. Seriously would rather die than have to go anywhere.