Roll Call 144

So when people quit an AP it can take as long as a year for them to resume having issues but like 98% of people do. Normally it takes less time for the psychosis to kick in. One of the things with psychosis is you begin to see patterns everywhere....things often make sense so clearly in delusions. These patterns often don’t coincide with what the rest of us see. I don’t really know where possessions fit in your religion so I recommend you consult the church regarding the validity.

I think I will make good friends with the good rulers of the world when my time is ready and I stop my injection and be like Alex Jones and make God jealous.

Not able to focus and stressed out about studying and I haven't been having any panic attacks for a while so I took a benzo to see if it will help me chill out and study.

330am and I cant sleep

I feel really good today How is everyone?

Morning! Snow day!!! Yay.
Nothing much going on today. Just working for a bit. Gotta run to the bank and to see my guy but other than that I’m home bound.
I can’t believe it’s Monday again already lol. Ugh this weekend flew by.
I hurt my neck a couple days ago and it’s still stiff and achey today. Makes looking at my phone painful.

It snowed here last night and looks like a winter wonderland. All the snow was melting away during the week but it's back

Hope you're neck feels better soon

My husbands tent didn’t survive the super heavy snow, sleet and rain.
It’s normally as tall as the wooden structure. I hope not too much of his stuff got ruined.

I really miss being at home. I love my memories of getting up at 3:00 or 4:00 am and having strong coffee. And my first vape of the day.

My replacement vaporizer is coming today or tomorrow. I hope this new snow won't delay it. I'm very sleepy now, maybe I'll take a nap. But I have to go haunt the lobby ( @ofthevalley I love the haunting term, and I'm using it whenever I can lol). To wait for my package.

I should have called my mother yesterday but I didn't. I just drifted through the day like usual. I wonder if I can today.

Im so tired all the time

Bf is upset cuz im not doing what im supposed to be doing cuz im sleeping so much.

Well crap. Scotty came by to help my son clear the snow. He checked the tent with my son and apparently all the metal framework actually crushed under the weight. That sucks. But secretly I hated it anyway lol.
I have done nothing today. Haven’t even logged into work to see how much I have. I don’t wanna.

I feel fragile. I feel things breaking through this facade I’ve created with medication. Obsessive thoughts plague me. Impulsiveness is almost there to follow.

There’s a part of me worried I’ll lose control and do something crazy. It’s almost there.

missed my dose of AP last night, just took my missing dose like ten mins ago.

I was in and out of sleep with lots of psychotic like thoughts and paranoia

Only slept 4 hours, I feel like ****

I got my second Voopoo. I hope I'll get a battery charger before it runs down. There should be a week's charge in the batteries at 8 or 9 watts. But the batteries must be completely married.

I'm having lots of paranoid thoughts that I'll be transferred out of here to a residential state psych hospital. I can't share why I think so. I hope it doesn't happen. I'm feeling more and more freaked out and panicked.

Unsure, are you ok?

They didn't bring my tray today so I missed lunch. I'm getting hungry. I have my breakfast egg and an oatmeal bar.

Hey everybody. How's it going? Life is alright here. Just tired. Slept a ton yesterday though....migraine, plus depression, plus I sleep a lot when I'm not working. Had a really good T session Friday night. I need to journal about it. She gave me so much to think about. I think she was doing some CBT which I normally don't like, but this time it wasn't bothering me. She was using my religious faith in her argument that I'm not bad. It became kind of hard to argue with her when she's using the tenets of my faith against me! She listened about me telling her about a demon that showed up when I was visiting my boss at the post acute rehab place. I thought she was going to tell me I'm crazy but she didn't. She always writes a lot of notes which makes me paranoid that she is writing something bad about me. So I asked her. She said "How could I write anything bad about you, you aren't bad, you don't do bad things." That made me feel a little better. Then she read me what she wrote. It was just a recap of what we talked about. She said it's to remember from session to session. I have lots of work to do today. I've been drinking soda and tea because I'm tired and I need to focus. IDK if Vyvanse is even helping today. I'm rambly. Sorry guys! HUGS if anyone wants one! Kit

Hi, I'm ok thanks. How are you?

That's good! I'm ok. I wish I could keep my mod in my possession instead of in the smoking cart. I feel happy touching it.

I'm listening to Enya, such beautiful music

Schizophrenia and Psychosis support chat is cancelled today. I apologize for this, and we will resume next Monday @ 6pm EST.

Happy and sad......

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Wooooooooooh!!!!!! I just got 95% on a history test! only missed one question!

I will make it through this semester somehow! It certainly won't be my best due to getting behind the first several weeks when having psychosis symptoms and depression pretty much paralyzing me but I can do it

@Sometimes psychotic. I found it at the grocery store today!