Roll Call 144

Morning/Afternoon,

I’m back home now. I had a great weekend at my parents. Was short but nice to get away. I had my nephew to play games one afternoon, and went for a walk with my sister around town playing Pokemon Go too. Had a nice roast dinner with parents on the Sunday. Came back up here with my mum yesterday and had pizza at a restaurant. She left not long ago.

Not too much planned for today. I had my appointment at alcohol services this morning. Was up early for that. I’ll say more in my next post. Now I’m just chilling on PS4 talking to my friend.

Hope everyone is okay!

So had my appointment for my alcohol use.

Thiamine is good. Helps the body burn energy and gives heart beating juice.

Slept so much these past few days. It is very euphoric for me to sleep. Vyvanse kicked in. I skipped my Seroquel last night so I have more energy. Gonna buy an energy drink and then go to class =]

Im so depressed.

I feel like just abandoning everything i know and going off the grid. Or just giving up.

I really do

I also dont really like coming here anymore

I always seem to pi$$ people off or something

When actually im just a crying mess

You never piss me off, I’m sorry things are hard for you right now

Seems to me you’ve taken some steps that are necessary, well done for that! Sorry there’s more waiting though

Things never piss me off. I am an orb of energy.

I know you will

I'm on a roll today! Did my grocery shopping, went to the library and printed off something I needed/returned some stuff, called my doctors office for a refill on one of my meds, cleaned/changed the litter box, took out the trash, and rescheduled an appointment It's only 11:30

I need to skip seroquel, take stim, energy drink and I'm not even getting things donee.. aaaaah but I am happy 4 u

You have so much energy sometimes

But one of the best rules is to not skip a nights sleep. I've slept 12 hours a night for over a year now.. stable... Not saying you aren't stable.. but if I could bottle up your energy and sell it, I would make money...

It feels good to get things done.. My mom gets mad at my sister because my sister tells me to pick up dishes and stuff and says to my mom, "He said that he wants to be treated like everyone else".. that is true but it's hard sometimes.. when I don't think about "Doing things", I don't..

I sleep on the Vyvanse.. It doesn't make me as productive as a normal person.. But I'm in class rn.. idk what my future is so it's hard to see the point of things.. but I don't really care how well I do in this class I just want to learn something..

But being on the internet when I have the energy makes me learn more than college..

Love days like that 😀

Sucks that there is so much waiting involved! Sheesh.
You are making huge progress though loial. It takes a lot of intestinal fortitude to takes the steps you’ve taken. Good for you my friend

It's definitely a welcome change, I spent the previous several months hardly able to get out of bed or do anything. I'm sleeping less than normal, only about 6 hours a night, but I feel okay otherwise. I woke up at 4:30am today. When I first started taking the 200mg of seroquel at night I was sleeping a lot but now it helps me get to sleep but I don't sleep long amounts of time much anymore. Go to bed anywhere between 10 to midnight and always end up waking up around 3 or 4 then being up for the day.

That's great that you love to learn, I'm not 100% sure what I want to do in my future, I have possibilities in mind but things can change as time goes on, I really enjoy learning about almost any subject though, its fun for me, I guess I'm a nerd lol

A Simplified Guide to Antipsychotic Medications - Mechanisms of Action

Found this super helpful guide to APs.....

Loial I’ve seen people go their whole lives without even realizing they have a problem much less wanting to change. You’re definitely taking steps forward even if it’s not moving fast enough for you.

I'm sorry you aren't doing well. HUGS. You never pi$$ me off. HUGS Kit

Hi everyone. I'm exhausted today. I'm trying to help my boss submit her claim for short term disability. I'm trying to help my employee with his out of network claim. And I got my hospital bill for when I had to get stitches from SH $250.00 not as bad as I thought so I sent in the check today. Once I get that done and get taxes done I can feel like there's a weight off my shoulders. I'm so tired though. All I want to do is lay on the floor at work, but I'd probably get into trouble. Just really not feeling well though. IDK if it is a depression thing or just a me thing. Not a lot of hallucinations lately so that's good. But lots of migraines. HUGS Kit

I'm trying to decide what to give up for Lent. Can't believe Ash Wednesday is tomorrow. HUGS Kit

Hey everyone. How are things going today?

I am good. Tired. Better than yesterday. I had a bit of a down day and was fighting with my mind. So I was fighting back by being productive to counter it and try and improve mood. It worked into today. Just last night when chat came up I was way too tired to handle it so I had to cancel.

But I am continuing to move forward. I got this. I will not let depression or low moods conquer me again.

What's everyone up to?

- The side of flying not everyone sees...

Edit: A V1 speed of 152 and rotation speed of 157 knots? that's insanely fast...

Sorry yesterday was hard for you. HUGS. I hope today continues to get better for you.

I'm just at work doing work in between being on PC. I have a migraine though so all I really want to do is lay down.


HUGS Kit

This class was a good class. I took notes..

>kids production (>cost). <reproduction
>Need for kids support in old age >reproduction
>OAS <reproduction
>Womans production <reproduction
lost opportunity costs
>Independence <marriage
>Women education <reproduction
>independent subsistence contribution of women
>political power and status > reproduction
>Infant mortality >reproduction
>Mortality (War, disaster) >reproduction
>reproduction <heterosexism
>wealth <reproduction?
sex selection of foetuses (Unnatrural selection)
>Modernization< reproduction
>contraception, sterilization
>Amniocentesis <Ultrasound - great for business
>Sex selection, < girls
YAy! <fetility, < Overpopulation
consequences for gender relations
>Religion > Reproduction
> Urbanization <reproduction

Oh wow, I knew it was coming but didn't realize it will be here so soon. I haven't gone to church in several months cause I was depressed and couldn't feel connected to God. I'm going to mass this weekend. I screwed up with my faith life majorly recently , I went through RCIA last Easter and was baptized and confirmed Catholic, I don't even know how to go about confessing everything that's happened the past few months. I know how, I've gone before, it would just be awkward though. anyway, I hope to get active in my faith again.

I think I'm gonna take a nap soon, I'm really tired now