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Old Mar 03, 2013, 06:35 AM
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no matter how much your H has engaged back with life, he still needs you to be around, if he didn't he would have walked away by now. you may think it is time to set him free, but he probably feels completely different. please talk to him about what you are planning before you decide what is right for him. the reason he gets mad is because he loves you, he probably is grieving for the woman you were and is feeling frustrated with himself for not being able to help you get well again.

believe me when i say you are not in control of when your life will end, you can try to end it, but if it is not your time you will survive and may have more things to deal with as a result. i know some one who tried to end their life by jumping under a train, all it did was chop off his legs, now he spends his waking hours sitting in a wheelchair watching his young sons playing football wishing he could join in and play with them. another tried tablets and now has trouble eating solid food... it is not worth it. when the time is right your end will come whether you help it or not so please try putting your little energy into living rather than dying.

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Old Mar 03, 2013, 07:47 AM
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No need to apologize, Speed. You're having the normal times of despair in grief. Give yourself time and continue to post as you wish.

We're all here pulling for you to get past this as you work your way through the snags.

You're a very fine person and you will be calmer and safe as you continue
to release the pain and anger.

Thinking about you today and wishing you a good Sunday. Thought about
trying to go to church yet?
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Old Mar 03, 2013, 08:08 AM
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Is anyone in the Philadelphia area ? I have tried to find a therapist over the last year and haven't had much luck. If someone could recommend someone it would help.

Genetic,

Yes church that is another story. My pastor tripped on his robe at Jason's funeral. He had surgery on his leg the next day. He developed blood clots in his lungs. He has been in and out of the hospital. The parish is very small. We have to go to another church for now. I go because of Father Chuck. Also , I haven't even been able to get a shower.
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Old Mar 03, 2013, 01:53 PM
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Aim for the shower, Speed. And hope everything is a little better tomorrow, if not a lot better.

I feel sure Father Chuck would want you back in his parish as soon as you're able to attend. I'm a little surprised he hasn't been by to see you, except that the accident may have slowed him down a bit, too.

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Aim for the shower, Speed. And hope everything is a little better tomorrow, if not a lot better.

I feel sure Father Chuck would want you back in his parish as soon as you're able to attend. I'm a little surprised he hasn't been by to see you, except that the accident may have slowed him down a bit, too.

Take care.
He is still recuperating himself.
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Old Mar 03, 2013, 07:01 PM
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Have you considered how your husband will feel if you abandon him? He has lost a child too, and although your pain is enough to break any human it isn't the right decision to do what you are planning. Death will come for you in time, but instead of forcing it upon yourself why not use your life to help save others from pain? There are thousands of orphaned children in America, and although you may not want to adopt you could always volunteer with them, or volunteer in Africa. You WILL die at some point, and that thought can give you comfort, but you can't allow yourself to be defeated, not when you have the potential to do such great things.
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Old Mar 04, 2013, 07:34 AM
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Have you considered how your husband will feel if you abandon him? He has lost a child too, and although your pain is enough to break any human it isn't the right decision to do what you are planning. Death will come for you in time, but instead of forcing it upon yourself why not use your life to help save others from pain? There are thousands of orphaned children in America, and although you may not want to adopt you could always volunteer with them, or volunteer in Africa. You WILL die at some point, and that thought can give you comfort, but you can't allow yourself to be defeated, not when you have the potential to do such great things.
No I won't take my life, I am too depressed to even move. I can't do anything when my depression is this great. I can't seem to find any support here at home.
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Old Mar 04, 2013, 07:43 AM
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You've got support here, so keep posting, Speed. I hope you get a good psychiatrist soon who will help considerably with current feeling tone. I hope you're working on that.

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Old Mar 04, 2013, 07:45 AM
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Speed, can you go back into the hospital? They can medicate you, you can chat to a T and just numb your emotions for a while. But at least you are supervised. We are here for you. I'm also happy to Skype you if you want, just PM me details.
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Old Mar 04, 2013, 11:46 AM
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Speed, can you go back into the hospital? They can medicate you, you can chat to a T and just numb your emotions for a while. But at least you are supervised. We are here for you. I'm also happy to Skype you if you want, just PM me details.
You've been through a lot - don't you dare give up now
I approached my Husband about that last night. I can't go to the unit I have always gone to, because they say I made to many complaints. I said to my husband who should I talk to in the benefits department of his hospital, which is in the same network of the Psyc unit, about which Psyc unit I can go to now and will they pay 100% being I can't go to the one in the system. He got so so mad.
Saying things like snap out of, just go for a walk, you aren't depressed. It was 6:00 pm I slid into bed because I was so upset. I lost my only advocate. Yes I do want to go into the hospital. But my husband is not on board. I don't know what to do.
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Old Mar 04, 2013, 12:07 PM
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Get a new psychiatrist right away. Contact your insurance company and explain
what has happened. Your chemistry is out of balance, without question, in my view.

Your husband is not over it, either. He is doing the best he can by getting out and
trying to go on with activities he once knew with you and your son. You need to
do the same thing.

Get into a project that is positive. You are overweight. Okay, get Dr. Williams' book Wheat Belly and start there. Change your diet; do something that works out some
of the extreme anger you have related to your son's death. Stop taking it out on
yourself, please.

If you believe that your son is in Heaven with God, then you must also believe that
God has a reason for you to live. It may be a while before that is revealed to you,
but I can think of several reasons for your life to continue:

1. Your husband has begged you not to commit suicide. He needs you.

2. Your life has so much to offer those who are struggling with drug addiction;
get into a group who are active in drug addiction and work with some of those who
are addicted to hard core drugs.

3. Get into a group therapy session if you can.

4. Or try doing some social service help work like caring for children who have been
removed by the courts from their homes and are in need of parenting until other
adoption opportunities are available. You may decide to adopt one before you've had the child for long.

5. Get over the idea that you are somehow responsible for your son's death. You
just are not; nobody has that much control over the life of another. Frankly, you
shouldn't even have control over your own life. You should let God guide you now
until He feels that you are able to stand on your own two feet as your son would
definitely want you to do.

6. Dubble Monkey has told you the truth; his death was an accident, Speed. You
must accept that and know that you have a mother's need to care for children.
You should be doing something to actively help a little child who needs your love
and care, but you've got to love yourself in order to love others.

7. You do love yourself; I know that and so do the others here. You are in the
throes of grief and you need to realize that it won't always be this poignant and
will ease in time so that you can be productive and helpful again.

We've told you again and again that it's one day at a time: one hour at a time if
necessary. Discard anything you have about attempted suicide. Just get it out
of your head and out of your sense of reality, please.

Keep in touch and take care of yourself well, Speed. Watch that diet, read that
book. Take that shower, and give your husband the kiss he wants and needs from
his wife. That will do for one day. Then, we talk about the day after. Okay?

Take care, Speed. I sound mean, but we all need to talk you into understanding
that what you're experiencing is grief; you don't need to even think about death.
We do care; you may believe that.
Well spoken, genetic! Please try some of the ideas in this posting, Speed!
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Old Mar 04, 2013, 12:11 PM
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I hope you'll wait this out. 12mg Ativan / day sounds like way too much. Benzos can make you more depressed. It's very hard for me to watch you want to take your life, I care about you. You are grieving, I know I'd be planning the same if in your position. But please wait it out, you are not on the right meds in my opinion, and you still have things to do on this planet.
great point on the benzos. Tapering back on the ativan might make you feel much better! I speak from experience! I do also know they are addicting, though, and it can be very difficult! The best!
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Please PLEASE PLEASE FIND A NEW Doctor! Find a therapist! Don't listen to the asshole therapist and go find someone.

June 1 is a bad day for my family. Five years ago my cousin died of a heart attack at age 34. He was my aunt's only child. And she was devestated. I don't have to tell you that. It ripped her to pieces and she's still grieving. Grieiving isn't short or over in a minute, it takes as long as it takes. I know the first year she could barely get out of bed some days.

She couldn't do Christmas things or Thanksgiving. Sometimes when we're all together she has to go in the other room for awhile because her son isn't there.

Try to find a support group for parents who've lost their children or some kind of place where you can grieve and just be sad and be angry and pissed off that life sucks and it's so unfair sometimes.

But please don't kill yourself.

Last January my ex Sister in law committed suicide. I don't know why. I don't know what pain she was in, but she killed herself. A month later her fiance killed himself.

I wasn't close to my ex sister in law but my life is not better because she 's dead. Her families lives aren't better. Her friends lives aren't better. They grieve and grapple and try to figure out what could they have said or done to stop it.

And I've been there. I wrote a letter, I took pills I knew that even though my family would be sad they would be better off without me. But I got taken to the ER and I got to see that I was WRONG. As much pain as I was in and as hopeless as it all seemed death was not better.

Do you have anyone who can be a medical advocate for you? Someone who can help you navigate the system, be there by your side while you make phone calls or make calls on your behalf?

This world is better with you in it. Even if you don't believe it. It is.
Please do reconsider, Speed. I too have felt as you do, with bereavement, and I just lost a dear friend under similar circumstances. I'm feeling a lot of guilt now because I didn't know she was in crisis, although I do realize, it wasn't my decision. So, knowing where you are, please, please rethink! Know that you have people in life that care about you, whether your family and friends or your friends here at PC! I know one thing that stopped me in the past from making a drastic decision was remembering that there were people in my life who did love me, and who would be hurt or some even devastated, if I didn't reconsider. Hang in there, Speed!
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You need a new doctor. You need to report the hospital for their stupid reason to now allow you to go back. I don't know to who, but that's horrible. They don't want you because you complain? Maybe if they did a good job you wouldn't have to complain.

Grief is not over quick, and and everyone grieves different. Your husband is probably going back into the world to block out the grief. Men in our society are trained to block out their feelings, burry them in work and such things. He is probably really scared he will also lose you and he doesn't know what to do. So, I think that's why he is telling you to snap out of it. I think my husband does the same thing. He doesn't know what to do so he tries to tell me to get better.

Please don't leave the world yet, okay? You are still needed here. And it isn't your fault what happened.
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Old Mar 04, 2013, 12:24 PM
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No I have no one. I tried to tell my husband yesterday how bad I was feeling and he just got mad.

The reality is I am so depressed now, I don't have the energy to end my life.
I guess I had a burst of energy yesterday and thought I could do it. I can't do anything right now. I feel stupid for writing this thread. I am sorry to everyone.
I am so alone. Thank you for all the advice and help.
As for your husband, Speed, he just may not be able to handle this at the time. So, please keep on reaching out to others. Also, like some others have suggested, if you can manage the energy to do something for others in need, you will feel a lot better! Please give it some thought. It's also a way to get out of a severe depression. I have been there, myself, so I can relate. The best, Speed!
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great point on the benzos. Tapering back on the ativan might make you feel much better! I speak from experience! I do also know they are addicting, though, and it can be very difficult! The best!
In the beginning of December I started taper down the Ativan. I was doing great. I also got off seroquel. My husband and I started going back to the gym. I was feeling better.

Than on 1/3/13 our only child dies in our arms. Seroquel and Ativan are saving graces right now. I would be psychotic without them. I am so depressed leaving the house, dressing are impossible useless tasks. So much for plans!!!

My mom committed suicide when I was 22. I lived my adult life without a mom.
Now at 56 I lose my only child. How ever much life I have left will be without my beloved Jason. No grandchildren, my buddy Jason is gone. I am surprised I am breathing and writing this. I am sobbing beyond belief, it feels like there is a dagger in my heart. How do I go on ?????????
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I don't think benzos prevent psychosis. And they ARE downers, hence negatively impact your mood. Probably hinder the natural grieving process too...

as for your husband... men are sometimes bad with emotions... it is likely that it's him, not you.
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I am so sorry for all your loss and pain . I really am ,i feel so bad for you on top of my own sadness too and i dont want to see you end your life because your life is worth living. maybe you can convert your sad energy to doing something for your son, maybe starting a donation fund in his name or plant a tree or a garden for him. please think about the people i am sure will miss you. keep fighting ok....
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In the beginning of December I started taper down the Ativan. I was doing great. I also got off seroquel. My husband and I started going back to the gym. I was feeling better.

Than on 1/3/13 our only child dies in our arms. Seroquel and Ativan are saving graces right now. I would be psychotic without them. I am so depressed leaving the house, dressing are impossible useless tasks. So much for plans!!!

My mom committed suicide when I was 22. I lived my adult life without a mom.
Now at 56 I lose my only child. How ever much life I have left will be without my beloved Jason. No grandchildren, my buddy Jason is gone. I am surprised I am breathing and writing this. I am sobbing beyond belief, it feels like there is a dagger in my heart. How do I go on ?????????
It's good that you are posting. You matter very much. I'm so sorry that you have had to endure the horrific things that have been in your life.
If you have some energy, please call your Doctor right away,don't put it off. He/she want's you to be safe and to feel like it makes a difference.
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I don't think benzos prevent psychosis. And they ARE downers, hence negatively impact your mood. Probably hinder the natural grieving process too...

as for your husband... men are sometimes bad with emotions... it is likely that it's him, not you.
No,but the Ativan is helping the very bad anxiety I have. Not being able to go out side, I have started picking at my lips non stop ,on and on. I know I need to come down on Ativan, hence that was why I started in December. I have been on 12mg for about 5 years. I don't want to feel withdrawal symptoms right now. Actually I wish I could have more Ativan. I would take any med that would ease the emotional pain right now. I hate seroquel and was so happy when I got off right before Jason died. Now I am surviving between seroquel/Ativan dose to the next dose. I have been thinking about sending someone out on the street and getting me some drugs illegally, WTF - at this point it doesn't matter.

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I agree with you that professionals are too guarding of benzos there is nothing wrong with needing to be switched off, sometimes it is surely the kindest thing. When the original sting has had time to settle start reintroducing life. I dreamed over and over they would do that for me and when they wouldn't obviously I turned to taking ODs I can't help but think if the had controlled me in a safe environment to reintroduce the reality slowly rather than forcing me to face it head on I believe there is a chance I could have handled it better rather than now having an OD maladaptive coping mechanism.

Although, no matter how hard we dream this there must be a reason that we need to suffer this pain in order to find a way to recover. It is very unfair and unjust to suffer as you have it's just down ride wrong.

******* TRIGGER QUESTION, IF YOU CAN PLEASE TRY AND ANSWER MAYBE JUST TO YOURSELF OR WITH US IF YOU FEEL ABLE. ****. trigger question***** before you read on intended to provoke you to think. So you can brace yourself or ignore if too soon.

If you were in heaven now as you so dearly wish... picture it.

but twist this reality around.....

Your son is back on earth wishing he were dead because thought of life without you was too much to bare. Now no yeah buts, this a no other option hypothetical..

You can see and hear every bit of his pain which exactly mirrors what your feeling now.

No need to say if you don't want to but how would you be feeling at seeing him not you him hurt so?...

Would you be screaming at him from heaven.. DO IT, COME JOIN ME.... Or would your reaction be to shout NOOOO LIVE. As we are all shouting at you in hope you hear NOOOO SPEED3 LIVE.

OUR WORDS ARE NOT REACHING YOU... SO I ASK YOU ANOTHER QUESTION:

You have the power in heaven to whisper one last thing to you grieving son that only his heart could hear and hold. It's your only chance to save him... What would you say to him??

There is no right or wrong answer to this, and i dont expect you to know to reply even.. i just ask swap places for just 5 mins try and find the words we can not give you... The deepest love you hold is for him. How would you comfort his pain, he is in your pain, would you tell him it's ok to die? I wish I knew what the right words to say to you were I hope this exercise helps you find the words you need to hear from yourself.
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Ever consider that maybe the only thing keeping your husband going is that he still has you, even though he may have an odd way of showing it? One life ended too soon is enough. Don't make it two or three.

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I agree with you that professionals are too guarding of benzos there is nothing wrong with needing to be switched off, sometimes it is surely the kindest thing. When the original sting has had time to settle start reintroducing life. I dreamed over and over they would do that for me and when they wouldn't obviously I turned to taking ODs I can't help but think if the had controlled me in a safe environment to reintroduce the reality slowly rather than forcing me to face it head on I believe there is a chance I could have handled it better rather than now having an OD maladaptive coping mechanism.

Although, no matter how hard we dream this there must be a reason that we need to suffer this pain in order to find a way to recover. It is very unfair and unjust to suffer as you have it's just down ride wrong.

******* TRIGGER QUESTION, IF YOU CAN PLEASE TRY AND ANSWER MAYBE JUST TO YOURSELF OR WITH US IF YOU FEEL ABLE. ****. trigger question***** before you read on intended to provoke you to think. So you can brace yourself or ignore if too soon.

If you were in heaven now as you so dearly wish... picture it.

but twist this reality around.....

Your son is back on earth wishing he were dead because thought of life without you was too much to bare. Now no yeah buts, this a no other option hypothetical..

You can see and hear every bit of his pain which exactly mirrors what your feeling now.

No need to say if you don't want to but how would you be feeling at seeing him not you him hurt so?...

Would you be screaming at him from heaven.. DO IT, COME JOIN ME.... Or would your reaction be to shout NOOOO LIVE. As we are all shouting at you in hope you hear NOOOO SPEED3 LIVE.

OUR WORDS ARE NOT REACHING YOU... SO I ASK YOU ANOTHER QUESTION:

You have the power in heaven to whisper one last thing to you grieving son that only his heart could hear and hold. It's your only chance to save him... What would you say to him??

There is no right or wrong answer to this, and i dont expect you to know to reply even.. i just ask swap places for just 5 mins try and find the words we can not give you... The deepest love you hold is for him. How would you comfort his pain, he is in your pain, would you tell him it's ok to die? I wish I knew what the right words to say to you were I hope this exercise helps you find the words you need to hear from yourself.
MineField,

I understand your logic. When I was 22 and my Mom committed suicide. I was depressed but didn't think about suicide.

Before Jason died, I was not doing well with the bipolar disorder. As I get older I have had less good times. I am 56 now and have been on disability for 18 years.
I felt worthless and hopeless before Jason died. His death just pushed me more in the realm of wanting to die. He was only 27 with his whole life in front of him.

If I could do anything I would ask god to take me not Jason. If things had been reversed I don't think Jason would have wanted to kill himself. Just like I didn't want to kill myself when my mom passed on.

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I read what you posted to someone here very recently. That was important. You gave good advice. You have a unique voice. This is all that has kept me going for a while. My advice would be to just wait it out. Once in a while the sun shines and it's a beautiful day and you say this is why I'm still here, I can enjoy this, this still feels good. It's not every day but wth we're old.
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That is the beauty of hypotheticals, with no yeah buts you can't add bits in like your own experience - You answered with a big 'yeah but' then spoke to god not your son so technically you still have not completed the exercise. ';0) but its encouraging to hear you got my point regardless.

I'm really glad to hear you are planning to get out tomorrow, that is a good first step forward. I joined a choir to give me the chance to get out, I don't always make it there but when I do find the strength I always come away feeling glad I made it. The hardest part is always leaving the flat. I'm gonna be keeping my fingers crossed for you that you make it xxx
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