[Lifeischallenging]

Today, I been feeling good for the most part. My plans for college have in no way diminished. I am still going strong for that. I just need to get a move on. I guess I am a little nervous on what to do as my mom keeps telling me not to go to college somewhere as she would be worried about me, but I feel like that is just her. I can stay here forever. I'm still looking and to be honest, I am not ruling out here for my college plans.

ANGRY. So much anger and frustration I can't deal with people at all. Luckily my husband and son don't cause this frustration so I'm safe in my house, off the internet, with zero TV watching, cause those TV people annoy me too. I HATE being angry.....being angry makes me angry! Uggggg. Why am I so angry??? *cries*

Frustrated and emotionally impotent cause I can't release this anger. I hurt far too bad to punch something or run it off. So here I sit, angry and frustrated and impotent. I hope tomorrow my anger is gone......that I sleep and dream of things which release it.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Woolly Bugger

I'm worried that I have a case of flesh-eating bacteria. I've been worried about it all day. It's driving me crazy. Seriously.

You need to get this checked out asap. That is one malady you don't play around with. I hope it turns out okay. Sending big hugs.

[Wander]

Skipped my class at university today as I was exhausted and overwhelmed. Now I regret it but what can I do. My T said I should stay in hospital today and rest as I am exhausted and vulnerable. Waiting to see my pdoc and find out if I am to commence TMS which will keep me IP for another 3 - 4 weeks. Sigh ... I want to do it I just feel cooped up and want to go home even though I am not ready to do so as i have bad SI.

My trigger-factory brother recently pulled some stunts that seem to have flipped my rage circuit breakers. As usual, I purchased some tools while hypomanic that I am now too depressed to use. I'm not going to post any of my usual images because nobody but me cares about early Buddhist sculpture or female DPRK soldiers.

However, North Korea purchased their suddenly-sophisticated latest generation of long-range ballistic missile (ICBM) engines that threaten the American mainland from supposed American ally Ukraine, who gave 10 million dollars to the Clinton foundation, the highest by nationality of donor between 1999 and 2014, according to the NYT and WSJ. You do the math.

[scatterbrained04]

It's 5:30am, and I'm already feel sick with anxiety.

[wildflowerchild25]

I'm so happy to be feeling normal for the second day in a row. I slept well again, and even woke up early, but not excessively so. I feel calm. I'm hoping I won't ramp up during the day but usually how I'm feeling in the AM is a good indicator of my day. I'm so thankful that something is working. I was so tired of not knowing who I was going to be in the morning.

[Moose72]

Thanks for triggering me Lefty.

I have double pink eye. Right side hurts. They are calling a script in for me. Gotta take N2 to the Dr for a wart treatment later.

Edit: they want me to be seen.

[raspberrytorte]

I'm on my third day cigarette free! I can't stop smiling and I'm starting to feel better since I'm doing this cold turkey.

I am free!!!!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Lefty the Salesman

My trigger-factory brother recently pulled some stunts that seem to have flipped my rage circuit breakers. As usual, I purchased some tools while hypomanic that I am now too depressed to use. I'm not going to post any of my usual images because nobody but me cares about early Buddhist sculpture or female DPRK soldiers.

However, North Korea purchased their suddenly-sophisticated latest generation of long-range ballistic missile (ICBM) engines that threaten the American mainland from supposed American ally Ukraine, who gave 10 million dollars to the Clinton foundation, the highest by nationality of donor between 1999 and 2014, according to the NYT and WSJ. You do the math.

I adore Buddhist sculpture. I have several made-to-scale replicas packed away safely until we move again. Everything Buddhist has a special place in my heart (for some reason). Lefty, I enjoy the images you share.


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

I'm on my third day cigarette free! I can't stop smiling and I'm starting to feel better since I'm doing this cold turkey.

I am free!!!!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

Keep up your resolve. It's very tough, yet not impossible, to quit smoking.


WC

Pretty much haven't eaten anything in forever. Deathly afraid of eating, honestly. It's bad.

Sunday, bagel and pudding. Yesterday, bagel and 6 crackers. Today, just 9 crackers and now an agitated stomach.

Managed not to puke today despite my stomach feeling awful. Yay? Let's see if I can still hold down these crackers... hmmm... So far, so good... but I'm scared.

F_cking med withdrawal sh_t.

[bizi]

Blue,
I am sorry you are having such a hard time eating. seeing a doctor could be helpful for you.
bizi

[hopeless2015]

I feel dead inside, it's a terrible feeling

[BiPolarJoe]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Pretty much haven't eaten anything in forever. Deathly afraid of eating, honestly. It's bad.

Sunday, bagel and pudding. Yesterday, bagel and 6 crackers. Today, just 9 crackers and now an agitated stomach.

Managed not to puke today despite my stomach feeling awful. Yay? Let's see if I can still hold down these crackers... hmmm... So far, so good... but I'm scared.

F_cking med withdrawal sh_t.

When my appetite is garbage, I rely on some "go to" easy calories. Fruit smoothies are quick to make and better than most things we toss in our stomachs. Being that fresh fruit can go bad so fast, I just buy frozen fruit (strawberries and mangos primarily) add some hot water/yogurt and toss it all in the blender. Just an idea and something that works for me.

[-Astral-]

i feel so ****ed up

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Pretty much haven't eaten anything in forever. Deathly afraid of eating, honestly. It's bad.

Sunday, bagel and pudding. Yesterday, bagel and 6 crackers. Today, just 9 crackers and now an agitated stomach.

Managed not to puke today despite my stomach feeling awful. Yay? Let's see if I can still hold down these crackers... hmmm... So far, so good... but I'm scared.

F_cking med withdrawal sh_t.

Sorry you are going through this with med withdrawal.
I am experiencing similar with Wellbutrin suddenly decreased by 75% due to dystonia. Stomach is so upset; yet, also get hungry. Eating Imodium and brown rice. No seasonings. (Good thing I enjoy brown rice.)

I sometimes eat "Cream of Rice" (brown rice) hot cereal with baby food fruit (plums, etc.) on top, when stomach is messed up for a prolonged period. I sometimes also eat "Italian ice."

I hope you feel better soon!


WC

[scatterbrained04]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Pretty much haven't eaten anything in forever. Deathly afraid of eating, honestly. It's bad.

Sunday, bagel and pudding. Yesterday, bagel and 6 crackers. Today, just 9 crackers and now an agitated stomach.

Managed not to puke today despite my stomach feeling awful. Yay? Let's see if I can still hold down these crackers... hmmm... So far, so good... but I'm scared.

F_cking med withdrawal sh_t.

So sorry you are still nauseous. Hope you feel better. Have you spoken with a doctor?

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

I feel dead inside, it's a terrible feeling

(((((( hopeless ))))))

I am sorry you are feeling so unwell. I hope this shifts to a better mood soon!


WC

[Moose72]

I have pink eye in both eyes. My right eye is worse and hurts and was crusted over this morning. When water kits it it hurts too. Gotta keep kids away from my towels or towels in the kitchen.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by -Asphyxia-

i feel so ****ed up

(((((( Asphyxia ))))))

I hope you can feel some self-compassion.
Please take care.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I have pink eye in both eyes. My right eye is worse and hurts and was crusted over this morning. When water kits it it hurts too. Gotta keep kids away from my towels or towels in the kitchen.

Sounds very uncomfortable!
Have you been able to obtain medication for this?

(((((( Moose ))))))

Please let us know how you're getting on?


WC

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Sounds very uncomfortable!
Have you been able to obtain medication for this?

(((((( Moose ))))))

Please let us know how you're getting on?


WC

Yes I picked up some ointment not long ago. Tonight shouldn't be t9o bad but waking up might be.

My husband was suppose to go watch my mother in law for 8 days. He's made them believe he can't because of my mental health.....that I need him here. This is not true as I'm fine to be home with my dogs and 17 year old son. Plus my parents are right down the street. He admits it's his needs that keep him home and doesn't understand why I care if they think it's my needs that keep him home. Well I do care because things have been said indicating I hold him back from seeing them. This is not true and I'm not ok with anyone assuming this. For 15 years I've tried HARD to encourage my husband to see and talk with his family more often. He's screamed at me about it even. I have a close relationship with my parents and encourage others to nurture these relationships as long as it's healthy. I'm not ok with being used as a Skapegoat. Am I wrong for this? Should I just get over it and let them believe what they choose to believe? There are times when my mental health is bad enough that I'd need him home but now is not that time and his family needs him. I've encouraged him to go help but he's upset and doesn't want to. I support him if he can't go, I just wish he'd be honest as to why. *sigh*

[liveforsummer]

I feel oddly normal. No meds. Just normal. No fluctuation up or down last 6 days. I feel like I don't belong here and therefor shouldn't post. It's weird.
Or is it good?

It's been 9 months of rollercoaster but maybe I'm gonna go on a "normal" streak now.